BATHROOM DREAMS

by Dee Finney and Joe Mason

and others as named

The need to urinate in a dream often means just that--the dreamer has to wake up and go to the bathroom! However, even when this is the case, the need to urinate is always a symbolic event in the dream world as well, even when it indicates a state of pressure in the physical body.

The most frequent meaning associated with this dream is the dreamer's need to express problematic feelings and thoughts in waking life. In order to stay healthy, we all know we have to relieve our bladders regularly. We can decide when and where, but we have no choice about whether or not to do it, and the longer it's postponed, the more desperate the need becomes. The same is true of the need to give expression to our deepest thoughts and feelings. We have a wide range of choice about when, where, and in whose company we choose to do it, but if we are to remain healthy and whole, we have no more choice about self-expression than we do about urinating. We must do it--and the longer we postpone expressing our deepest emotions, the more likely it is we will have the archetypal "I need to pee and there's no comfortable place to do it!" dream.

Whenever such a dream occurs, I find it valuable to go off into a corner and write down all the secret, taboo thoughts and feelings I have (even if I burn the list the moment I complete it). The "desperate need to urinate" dream is a reliable indicator that I need to express myself more fully and honestly, if only to myself. If there is another trusted person in my life with whom I can be completely candid, so much the better, but even if there isn't, I need to be honest with myself.

(c) Jeremy Taylor, 1996

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The transformation of excrement is one of the great secrets at the center of Carl Jung's work on "alchemy"--the quest to turn base material into gold. It's a universal metaphor of psycho-spiritual development, growth, and maturity. If I can look at the "excrement" of my life--all the places in me that hold the worst things I have ever done, witnessed, or had done to me--unpleasant as that may be, it is also the first step toward turning this "base matter" into "gold." Ironically, it is only by looking clearly at the "excrement" of my life that I can transform it into the "gold" of forgiveness, self-acceptance, and felt-sense of the presence of the Divine. Unless I do this, any seemingly spiritual perspective I embrace will only serve as camouflage for my denial and self-deception, which will betray me in the end.

Freud asserts that the excrement dream is symbolic of money in the dreamer's waking life. On one level this makes sense. The first experience each of us has with exerting ourselves and producing a result, or "product," is moving our bowels. Therefore, we tend to make a symbolic analogy between the "efforts" we put forth in the world and the money we get for it. (In my experience, when the "excrement" in the dream world does equal money, it's a fairly reliable indicator that the waking "trade-off" of time and energy for money is not serving me well. It may be time to look for another line of work.)

There are many symbolic parallels between the "need to urinate" dream and the "excrement" dream. Both indicate an innate desire to express authentic, albeit buried, feelings. If a dream focuses on the evacuation of solid, rather than liquid, waste, there is an added dimension of purging repression and denial. Before I consider fully divulging my thoughts or feelings, I have to admit to myself just how bad things really are in my life. In order to change them, I first have to recognize what they are. So if the dreamer is overwhelmed with excrement, it's always worth asking the question: "What am I facing, or letting go of?" It's important to remember that as unpleasant as it is to face denial in the short run, it is necessary and rewarding in the long run.

(c) Jeremy Taylor, 1996

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Jeff's Dream, 1991 - I was in an oriental town, and I was wearing white pants and a white tanktop. I had tattoos on each shoulder. I walked through a restaurant, and out into the back courtyard. People were watching a fat oriental woman, who lifted up her shirt and showed her pregnant belly.

I went into the bathroom of the restaurant. The toilet was backed up, and urine was on the floor. I looked down, and saw that my white pants had gotten stained.

I went outside and saw a van with children in it. The windows were dirty, so I started to clean them.

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Interpretation by Joe Mason - I believe the "toilet" metaphor is a play on the "food-for-thought" symbol, which is common in dreams. Old thoughts/beliefs have been "consumed," and all the nutrients removed. It is time to discharge them. The toilet being backed up seems to say that we are having a problem releasing old beliefs and ways of being.

Jeff also had dream of being on a starship in space. A VERY important message was trying to come in, but it could not come in until the garbage was ejected first.

Derek, a young friend, had a dream of going to an upper-floor apartment to repair a garbage disposal.

Josephine had a dream of being in a large public bathroom with a white and black tiled floor. Another woman came in with a little boy. An announcement was made that the boy had a staff infection, so everyone was going to be quarantined in the bathroom.

In many other dreams, the dreamer, and/or others go into the bathroom. This often happens in complex dreams that are obviously important.

Sometime after Jeff told me the dream of staining his white pants, I became interested in the Bible for the first time. I was not raised with religion, but I had come to the point where I felt there was a lot of truth in all the myths and religions. I was startled to read Revelation 3:1-5 -

". . . I know your works; you have the name of being alive, and you are dead. Awake, and strengthen what remains and is on the point of death, for I have not found your works perfect in the sight of my God."

"Yet you have still a few names in Sardis, people who have not soiled their garments; and they shall walk with me in white, for they are worthy." He who conquers shall be clad thus in white garments, and I will not blot his name out of the book of life; I will confess his name before my Father and before his angels."

Another important part of the Bible concerning this is in Zechariah 3. Joshua has filthy garments after being accused by Satan. By the angel's command, he is helped to get clean garments. He is called a "brand plucked from the fire," which seems to indicate a purification process. The verse is quite significant to me, because Joshua and Zerubbabel in Zechariah 4, are directly related to the two olive trees that stand up after 3 1/2 days in Revelation 11:11. They are also called two lampstands and two prophets. They are the two anointed of the bloodlines, the High Priest (Joshua) and King (Zerubbabel). 3 1/2 seems to indicate the midpoint of the seven chakras, the point between the third and fourth (Heart). See:

http://www.greatdreams.com/plpath1.htm

I suppose most people would interpret the verses in Revelation to mean that those who are walking in unstained white garments are not "sinful." Perhaps so, but Jeff's dream seems to indicate that it can refer to those who have discharged the old, negative beliefs, and are able to adopt the new ones. Of course, old beliefs can lead to negative or "sinful" actions, so the bathroom symbolism may suggest both.

Sometimes I find dream symbols reflected in art works of various types. A controversial painting fits this symbolism, in my mind. The painting depicted Jesus in urine. Needless to say, many people were outraged. Sometime after Jeff told me his dream, I thought about the painting controversy. The artist seemed to be saying that the teachings or concepts of Jesus are mired in old negative belief systems. Yes! It IS outrageous!

I think it is important to note that in some dreams there is a "public washroom." In Jeff's dream it was a "bathroom of the restaurant," i. e., a public bathroom. The same can be said of the dream with the people quarantined in the bathroom. The point is that this seems to refer to the general public, rather to just the dreamer. I would think that if the dreams were speaking only to something concerning the individual dreamer, the bathroom would be the one in the dreamer's own house.

I found something new and revealing about a dream I found on-line (see below). The idea of the toilets being out in the open with either no doors or half walls and "just a room of toilets with no means of privacy at all in any form," gives a big hint, I believe. Think about it . . . when we consider changing our beliefs in a way that is different from those around us, it is somewhat frightening, that is, we will probably be subject to rejection. So, the lack of "privacy," in the sense of our new beliefs being "exposed," may cause us to hang on to the old beliefs simply out of a sense of comfort. So, we tend to conform to our "peer groups."

This idea reminds me of a dream my friend Katherine had, except her symbols were different. In the dream, people were being chased by a man. The people ran to a place where there were four trees, and climbed up into them. They hung on to the branches, feeling safe. Then, the man came up to the trees and started pouring gasoline on them.

Trees, I believe, can represent our belief systems. Jeff had a dream where he saw a tree growing out of his teen aged son's head, and some of the branches were rotten. He went to go prune the rotten branches, but he hesitated when he realized that if he pruned too deeply, it would kill the boy.

A young man in Kenya named Joseph sent me a dream that I felt was similar to Katherine's dream. A huge wind came and started blowing him down a dirt road. He grabbed the limb of a tree and hung on for dear life. But he was blown off, and flew down the road among the dirt and debris. After a while the air began to clear.

Joseph had another dream that was more like a vision. He saw the images before he fell asleep. In the vision, lots of people were being chased by some mean-looking men carrying pitchforks.

I found this quite interesting, because a number of dreams and coincidences involved a pitchfork or Trident. Later, I read about some of the concepts in the East Indian religions. The "Destroyer god," Shiva, has the Trident as one of his symbols. He is one of three gods in a Triad or Trinity, that is, the One God in three aspects. The other two aspects are "Creator," and "Sustainer." The idea is that a creation is created, sustained, and then destroyed, followed by the next cycle. The "Destroyer" function is equated to a seed growing into a plant. The "seed" is destroyed in the process of the "plant's" growth.

The man pouring the gasoline on the four trees in Katherine's dream, I felt, also fit with these ideas.

In Jeff's dream, he was in an "oriental" town. I believe that "oriental" refers to "strangers or foreigners from the East," who's language we cannot understand, meaning entities or symbolic information from a more enlightened spiritual dimension. The Gnostics had the term "Alogenes," which meant "stranger" or "foreigner."

The "fat oriental woman, who lifted up her shirt and showed her pregnant belly," in Jeff's dream, may suggest the seed of an idea that will be "born" into manifestation. Cleaning the windows of the van, so that the children could see better, may refer to helping others to understand, to become awake and aware. Perhaps this is the "baby" that is to be "born," that is, Jeff may help others in their spiritual quest, by reporting his dreams.

The following two dreams also include the "bathroom" symbolism:

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Recurring Dreams Of No Toilets Reported by Pamela on Nov 4, 1997

I keep having dreams concerning the same thing. I dream that I have to go to the washroom in a public place, but when I get to the public washroom, either the toilets have been removed or they are out in the open with either no doors or half walls. Sometimes they are just a room of toilets with no means of privacy at all in any form. Any ideas what this all means???

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Mike Mason (12 year old) 1982 - I was with dad and Nancy on the back porch or patio of our house. They were dividing something at a table. A desert was around the area. I was looking at the sun, and saw a speck of light come off. I said, "Look! There's something coming off the sun!"

Dad and Nancy did not believe me. The speck of light fell, and grew larger and larger. It struck about 100 yards away in the desert area, creating a crater, and dust fell on the patio from the impact. A car near the impact point blew up. The car burned, and a huge fire started, as sage brush and tumble weeds ignited. The fire was coming toward the house.

I ran through the house, and out the front door. The neighborhood was then not the same. It was the neighborhood where my mother lived. All the houses were covered with white ash.

Two police cars pulled up. It seemed to be nighttime then. The first police car had three people in it, two policemen and a girl that looked like a prostitute. I was so scared, I couldn't talk.

I opened the police car passenger door, and pulled out one cop. I pointed to where the object had landed. I went back into the house, and hollered, "Dad! John and Cindy are in the bathroom! You've got to help me get in and tell them what has happened!" Dad came and we yelled through the door, telling John and Cindy what had happened. They wouldn't listen, so dad broke down the door. They listened to dad and I. I went to the patio and got Nancy. We all went to the police cars and were safe.

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Many years later, around 1995, I reread my son Mike's dream again. I had not remembered the "prostitute" in the dream. By 1995, many ideas had come my way concerning the "harlot" in Revelation 17. She seems to have the same meaning as Kali, in the Eastern religions. A karmic, learning function seems to be implied. I often find that "police" in dreams, also seem to indicate the karmic process. It is as if we, mankind, are being "policed," that is, our actions are being observed on another level of reality, and all "accounts" are eventually settled fairly. It is quite similar, I believe, to the Biblical idea of "judgment."

My feeling is that the karmic function is more of a learning process, rather than a simple reward/punishment system. I also tend to believe that we "judge" ourselves. Our Higher Self, perhaps, is involved in the process.

We have a page that includes information about Kali and the harlot:

Tamasisk - Anger - Fury

Dee and I are gathering other "bathroom" dreams to add to this article. Although often amusing, or even embarrassing, we do think these dreams carry important messages.

Enjoy!  Joe Mason May 9, 1999

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Some choice Biblical Quotes

2Kings 18:27 - "But the RAB' shakeh said to them, "Has my master sent me to speak these words to your master and to you, and not to the men sitting on the wall, who are doomed with you to eat their own dung and to drink their own urine?"

This verse is repeated in Isaiah 36:12

Ezekiel 4:9 - The Lord has appeared to Ezekiel and is telling him exactly what types of food and drink that he is to have for a period of time. Then in verse 4:12 thru 15 - "And you shall eat it as a barley cake, baking it in their sight on human dung." And the Lord said, "Thus shall the people of Israel eat their bread unclean, among the nations whither I will drive them." Then I said, "Ah! Lord God! behold, I have never defiled myself; from my youth up till now I have never eaten what died of itself or was torn by beasts, nor has fowl flesh come into my mouth." Then he said to me, "See, I will let you have cow's dung instead of human dung, on which you may prepare your bread."

Malachi 2:1 - 3 - "And now, O priests, this command is for you. If you will not listen, if you will not lay it to heart to give glory to my name, says the Lord of Hosts, then I will send the curse upon you and I will curse your blessings; indeed , I have already cursed them, because you do not lay it to heart. Behold, I will rebuke your offspring and spread dung upon their faces, the dung of your offerings, and I will put you out of my presence. "

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THE DREAMS BEGIN

7-8-88 - DREAM - I saw a musical vehicle coming down the street into a huge brass-like/ bell-like speaker attached to it's right side. The vehicle was like a parade float. On it a beautiful model was talking and showing off her clothes. Alongside walked several more models and I wondered how much walking they had to do to look that beautiful and muscular legs. The vehicle stopped and 6 beautiful models came into the building and stood in a row in front of me. They all weighed 135 pounds. They treated me like I was one of them, but I felt terribly fat and I tried to hide my hips by holding my arms at my sides. They said they were from the Paul Le Claire agency I was ashamed of how fat I was. I hid in the bathroom. My skirt fell off there and I had to put on another skirt and when I did, I looked at the colors. It was red and green plaid and I said it looked like Christmas.

by Dee

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7-20-88 - DREAM - I moved into a huge old white house with my husband and kids. It was gigantic. I didn't know where or what all the rooms were yet. I knew there were 3 bathrooms just on the first floor. There were a set of double doors on all 4 sides of the house. I hadn't yet figured out how to tune in the TV. It had more knobs and stations and was bigger than my old one. I went to see what the kids were doing. I discovered a little lighted room behind the sofa. I said it could be a playroom. There was a huge gold metal form protruding into the room from the back wall. I didn't know what it was or if it was dangerous.

My husband said I could advertise in the paper for a part-time job at home. He said the hours could be 10 am. to 9 p.m. I said, It sure won't be babysitting. There are enough kids around here already." I could hear children playing outside all around the house. I also thought to myself. It seems like there's an awful lot of traffic going by too.

I had some new taped books to study. One of them was numbered 2100. I pressed the button to start it.The light went out. There wasn't enough power in the house to operate it yet.

by Dee

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8-1-88 - DREAM - The computers were having new programming put into it. I was cleaning the grease off the bathroom walls with lemon juice and water.

by Dee

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8-2-88 - DREAM - Several dreams were about going to the bathroom and going to the toilet and being unable to 'cut it off'. Other people came in and I was afraid they would see it. One lady picked it up and it was a roll of brown livingroom carpeting.

NOTE: (My psychiatrist had said I had to 'cut it off".

by Dee

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8-15-88 - DREAM - I had a small baby. I knew I had been neglecting him but I noted that he was pretty healthy considering I hadn't been feeding him very consistently and not enough solid food. I changed his diaper in the bathroom and everything was white and I determined that if Edward was leaving me, I could take care of the baby myself if I really wanted to, so I did.

by Dee

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8-16-88 - DREAM - I was back on Parkway Ave. to see if I could get back in there. I knew I was dreaming and I knew I was dreaming about this to make sure I checked with them for that reason. The fish business the landlord ran was all set up, and I found all kinds of silver coins all over the floor and put them into my pocket. The dream ended when I went to the bathroom. The landlord tried to offer me $400 for the phone bill and I knew I should keep my mouth shut about the phone and how much money he owed me.

by Dee

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9-16-88 - DREAM - I was downtown and had a good time and got used to being with people. It was snowing outside and I crossed the street to find a bathroom. The sky was unusually blue at the same time it was snowing.

I went home to take care of the children. My husband came home. He was drunk but he asked if I would go downtown to see a musical show with him. I said, "Yes!" because I had enjoyed myself there. He brought out some liquor and offered me a sample. I took a sip to be friendly. He then pulled out a larger bottle of booze and began drinking heavily and I became afraid.

I began to dress the baby in his snowsuit. It was pale green. I could hear my husband talking to me from the other room. He was laying on the floor. I was hurrying to run away from him so he wouldn't hurt the baby.

I reached the front door and opened a golden lock and undid a golden chain and slipped out the door with the baby.

I was now in Milwaukee on 16th St. running north. My husband followed me to the door saying how great he had done fixing our lake cottage. I kept running farther and farther away from him. Then he said, "You're right. I don't say the right things. May the Great God watch out for us together."

NOTE: It was only 3 months later that I was forced to run away from him for the last time and finally divorced him because of his drinking and drug habits.

by Dee

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9-28-88 - DREAM - I spent a long time getting ready for an eye doctor appointment, but we never went. I decided to go on a date instead. My dress was a gorgeous chiffon powder blue. I looked in the mirror and my face had streaks of dirt and no make up so I went into the bathroom to clean up. While I was in there, one of my kids handed me toilet bowl cleaner and some water got on it so I had to dump it into the toilet. I got some on my shoes and it got a hole in it and I burst into tears.

by Dee

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12-5-89 Dream: I went into the bedroom where my husband was waiting for me. He as laying face down on the bed and when he saw me, he wanted me. I was wearing a white garter belt, stockings, and high heeled shoes and nothing else.

However, the baby was standing in his crib making noises like he was trying to poop his diaper. So, I had to ignore my husband's desire and take care of the baby.

I grabbed the baby and ran to the bathroom with him. I took his diaper off to sit him on the toilet. The baby's right leg came off with the diaper and hanging by just one thread of flesh at the socket.

The toilet was full of S__T, the baby was full of S__T. The baby was screaming because his leg had fallen off and he was in agony.

I was screaming because it was so terrible a situation. My husband came in to help clean up the baby so we could rush him to the hospital. The baby and I continued to scream as my husband tried to clean the S__T out of the baby's leg socket.

I woke up screaming.

by Dee

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1-29-90 - DREAM - Edward came home. He was real nice and I was pleased. He said he was going to sell our house and we would move to "Prince". I thought he meant Prince Albert, Saskatchewan, Canada, but he didn't say that. He was outside, staining all the white parts brown. He said he would sign a contract as to what he would do. I asked him to say that he loved me, but he couldn't. Then there was another girl there and he wanted both of us to make love to him with our toes. I agreed, but went to the bathroom to get ready. I was wearing 4 black bras at the same time and white underpants with blue flowers on them.

There was another scene in the distance of a city blowing up and then of a bunch of building falling into the river that he owned. They said "Worth" on them. He said he figured out how to solve the problem. He just sold them to me and his problems were over.

by Dee

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2-8-90 - DREAM - My husband gave me a blue car to drive. I was pushing the car around the street by hand from the sidewalk because I wasn't ready to drive it yet. A bus came from one way and bumped into it, knocking it backwards, then a bus came from the other way and bumped into it. It was a little bent on the bumper, but otherwise still drivable. I was headed toward the car when I saw the two drivers go up to the car, reach inside to get some information, then shake hands to make a pact not to tell anyone they were stealing the information. I decided to take a tranquilizer and get in the car and drive it whether I was ready or not.

I went to my New Berlin house and my head was itching on top. I scratched it a few times, then went to the bathroom to comb it. with one combing, half of my hair came out on top of my head, but nothing did on the sides or back. I was devastated and I wanted to call a doctor for help.

The kids were making so much noise in the livingroom, so I went to the kitchen to use that phone. I knew it was the tranquilizer mixed with another drug that made my hair fall out. I picked up the phone and I could hear my mother talking to Oral Roberts, the minister. I decided then to ask Oral Roberts to pray for me.

by Dee

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3-16-90 - I was on an outing with a group of friends to a farm. At first I was concerned about how far it was away from a hospital, then I settled in to enjoy it. We slept all night. The next morning, humiliating things began to occur. I had to go to the bathroom in the presence of another girl. I was assigned to make the beds. The sheets were too narrow for the beds and I was called on it to make them perfectly anyway. I went outside to go for a walk, but it was so muddy alongside the plowed vegetable fields. I had to retrace my steps and go back. The male leader of the group then assigned me the worst chores in the house. I had to sweep blue shag carpeting which had never been cleaned before. Then he sold a rough, burly type man the kitchen stove for $3.00, then assigned me the job of cleaning up all the garbage and grease off of it for nothing. I just said, "Yes Sir!" and went to work on it.

by Dee

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3-28-90 - DREAM - There was a storm coming out of the northwest. It loomed blacker and blacker. I rushed around to make sure that all my children were inside the house and protected.

All their toys were outside the house and I didn't care if they blew away. While I was rushing around the house, I let out a couple of blood curdling screams, but I felt joy while I was doing it.

Then a woman came to the back door asking if I had seen her daughter. I hadn't, but I noted that the back screen door had a square hole poked in it and it was pulling away from the edge and needed to be repaired. The woman left. I knew at that moment that my last placed of residence had been moved way back into a corner of the subdivision where it could no longer cause trouble in my life.

I went upstairs and saw that there were two shirts on my son's bedroom floor. They were wet. The blue one had a yellow stain around the upper edges that needed to be rinsed out and the white one still had soap suds in it that needed to be rinsed out.

I went to the bathroom to do this job and attempted to rinse the two shirts, but a locksmith friend was sitting in the sink blocking the drain so the water couldn't go down. I had to ask him to move his butt off of the drain.

My boss was there. I wanted to show him a dance, so I went to my room and put on a long bright red skirt. There was then no one in the room to dance for and I noted that my skirt was way too big for me and I had to hold it up to prevent it from falling off. I made a promise to myself to take it in a little before I wore it again.

by Dee

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8-28-90 Dream: I was at my apartment sitting in my livingroom rocker, relaxing. I was wearing only panties. (That was how I was dressed because of the heat) I heard loud male voices talking in the hallway just outside my door. When I got up to go see what was going on, covering myself with a small blanket, there was a young man standing inside my apartment talking through the door to men outside the door. I looked through the peep hole to see four men outside who looked like my sons. The man inside protested, but I opened the door to let them in. But the men were not my sons so I closed the door again, trying to make sure that the door was locked securely. The young man's name was Jimmy Dougherty and I thought he was a good friend of my ex-husband. The young man was in the livingroom sitting in my rocker. I went to the bedroom to get dressed and the young man went to the bathroom. I was worried that he would bother me in my state of undress but he didn't. He went back to the livingroom while I finished dressing. When I was done I went to the livingroom to ask Jimmy what he would like for breakfast. I saw that my apartment door was open. I looked into the livingroom and it was almost empty. The television set and stereo was gone, the fish tanks were gone, the sofa was gone, and the chair was gone. All that remained was a couple of end tables.

NOTE: I was extremely depressed after this dream. It was determined in meditation that the valuables taken from me by the man or men in the dream were energies, powers, virtues, capabilities, and abilities, etc.

I had to meditate longer than usual to pull all those things back from the astral and mental levels. I could see them coming back in form of particles, and flowing fluids. When I was done, the depression was gone.

by Dee

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12-1-90 Dream: My husband was planning to build an addition onto the house which was good, but in the meantime he was contemplating closing off one of the current rooms. I didn't want him to. I thought it would make a good storage room. A workman came to look at it. My husband went in first, I followed the workman, wanting to see for myself. The first part of the room was a bathroom and I decided definitely that had to stay. Then I went through a very narrow door and found myself in a large attic room which I was pleased was perfectly clean with a shiny floor. Then I went to the right to the second room to find my husband and was surprised to see a board meeting going on. A long, long table was in the center with all the executives making decisions.

My husband was sitting in a wheelchair with a newspaper in front of him. He said that he was contemplating what to do about whether to shut off rooms or not. I knew I would not allow that to happen.

by Dee

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1-17-91 - Dream: I was having a party and all the guests were women. A man came to the door advertising a group called "MOON". It was about developing a person's psychic abilities. I wanted in the worst way to tell everyone that I was psychic, but I didn't want to just come right out and say it. So, I figured that I could just be the best at all his experiments he was going to conduct and he could be the one who would discover it for himself. My opportunity came when one of the men wanted to communicate with his boss. (He must have sneaked in) The experiment was for me to think about the communication with mental telepathy to cause the boss to call out to the man next to me. So I did that. We were on a big yellow bus at the time, going to a school. I began to think the thought, then I saw three pair of eyeglasses dangling in the sky and a voice in my head said, "No! The fourth!" and immediately the boss called out to the man next to me. I immediately announced what I had seen.

Then we went into a white sterile looking kitchen where a film was to be shown on the white wall for another experiment. The man next to me suddenly had to blow his nose and slipped out of the room, so the opportunity came for me to demonstrate my ability to the whole group. I was shown some puffy marks on a wall. I saw more and more stains on the ceiling in the kitchen and in the bathroom where the upstairs toilet was. So, I bravely announced that the person upstairs either had a leaky toilet or there was steam escaping from a broken pipe in the walls. The only way to know was to knock a hole in the wall where the pipes were. Everyone was amazed that I would know that.

by Dee

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1-22-92 - DREAM - MEETING GOD - I was living in a small town with my family. We were expecting guests and I had to clean the house. I was working on this when an old man and his wife came to the door and asked to use the bathroom. He brought in with him, 3 bags of cookies, each one different and still hot from the bakery. He put the bags on the table and went to the bathroom. He and his wife ate some cookies and I think some of my kids did too, because their wasn't a lot left.

I went about my business cleaning and my old boss D.L. came in and asked me if I had seen the wedding that afternoon. I told him that I hadn't. He asked me if I would tape it for him because it would be on the news. I agreed to do it though I felt extremely harassed by that time.

I had missed dinner trying to get the house clean and everyone else was done. So, I had nothing to eat all afternoon. I was starving, but I still had work to do.

The old man was now trying to bag up the remaining cookies and my boss said, "Why don't you help the old man?" I really felt harassed by now, but agreed to rebag the cookies. I just put them in the bags any old way and the bags poofed out at the bottom.

I thought to myself, "I really could have done a better job of it."

Then the old man said, "Would you mind packing them tall and narrow like this?" and showed me a bag of cookies he had bagged himself and the cookies were stacked neatly, and the bag was tall and narrow.

I felt extremely harassed by now. I looked at the clock and it was quarter to six. I put the tape into the VCR so I wouldn't miss taping the wedding on the news.

I saw that everything else in the house was getting back out of control and the house wouldn't be perfectly cleaned up for the guests, but if the old man wanted his cookies bagged tall and narrow, that's the way I would do it.

So, I took out a new baggie to pack the cookies in and then I saw that despite all the cookies that had been eaten and all the cookies that I had already packed, the original bag of cookies the old man had given me to repack had now been refilled to over it's capacity and was almost running over.

I looked up at the old man and the realization came to me, with accompanying feelings of guilt that I had treated the old man not as a first class guest, but rather as a harassment of an intruder, and that this old man was God.

by Dee

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1-9-92 - DREAM - My Grandson Steven came to work with his Dad (My son Ken) He came right up to me past all the other people to show me his new book of fire trucks. We went through the book with him pointing at pictures. His Dad left and then Steven came up to me to show me had had a dirty diaper. I took him into the bathroom to wash him up and he loved the bathtub, but then he climbed out of the tub and into the crib and was surrounded by all kinds of books which I had to remove to get to him, so I could put his new diaper on.

by Dee

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2-8-92 - DREAM - I was in the parking lot at A-C, and one of the cars in the lot had a water circulation problem. It was T.M.s car. I went upstairs to tell T.M. His office was right by a bathroom. T.M's door was closed and his boss at on a chair right outside of T.M.s office, so I considered going into the bathroom because the door was open about an inch.

All of a sudden, T.M.'s door opened and he came out and there we stood - face-to-face, after not having seen each other for 7 years. We both looked rather shocked for a moment. I didn't even know if he'd recognize me because my hair was a different color and I felt embarrassed because I hadn't looked in a mirror to see if my hair was combed decent. T.M.'s hair was a golden-reddish blonde and that surprised me, because I remembered him with white hair.

I didn't know what to say because I hadn't intended to see him against his wishes, but he waited for me to follow him down the hall and I did.

We went down to the 3rd floor and there stood David. That shocked me again. I thought the best thing to do was just to introduce them to each other. I was just about to do that and I looked at the man again and it wasn't David. I couldn't believe I mis-recognized this man. He looked nothing like David. I apologized for bothering him and followed T.M. down the hall and woke up.

by Dee

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2-18-92 - NOTE: I originally lived 5 blocks from Jeffrey Dahmer, the serial killer. I had had several dreams about him prior to him being discovered as the killer. This dream occurred after he had been convicted and sent to prison for life.

As an added note: Jeffrey Dahmer was murdered in prison, beaten to death in the head by an exercise machine metal bar in 1994.

DREAM - Jeffrey Dahmer was on the loose in New York City. Someone I knew well, put a bullet through his skull on the lawn when he came around the corner. When he put the gun down, I personally picked up the gun and put a second bullet through Dahmer's skull to make sure he stayed dead.

There was a city-wide search for Dahmer and then for us because we were now killers too. We went into a store and my friend bought a big table top into which he had drilled a triangle shaped device to aim a weapon from.

Then we went to a store where we found body parts stacked everywhere and we took it upon ourselves to clean it up and also to take Dahmer's souvenirs because we thought they'd be worth a fortune in the future.

Then I went into the bathroom to clean the blood off the cabinet doors. A big picture of Satan was painted in blood. I cleaned off the blood but the white doors were still stained with the shape.

I then met my friend and he told me that he and the other guy had finished sorting out what stuff they had found in the attic and I could take my pick of what was left. I then realized that my friend was the man S (my psychic friend) had spoken of that I would start a friendship with but it wouldn't work out.

I then saw a newspaper picture that was blood red. It was a photo of my friend and his two friends. they had been photographed on the balcony of the building throwing blood red dung at a sign that had the words, "FOR SURE" on it. Now I realized that the whole world would know who they were and they were marked men who would have to be destroyed by Satan's followers who loved Dahmer.

by Dee

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2-24-92 - DREAM - I was in my 66th St. house with my mother and father and brother. T.M. came to visit. We were watching television and it became very late. I thought T.M. would be going home when I said that I was tired and it was time to go to bed. But my mother and father gave T.M. the Master bedroom, by brother had his own room with a grand piano in it, my father went to bed in a room across the hall, and my mother took the couch. The only place left for me to sleep was in the bed with T.M. There was enough room for two to sleep without touching. I had a pink quilt and I went into T.M.'s room and put the quilt across T.M.s feet so he would be warm. He was grateful for the warmth and urged me to get into the bed beside him, but I couldn't do that until I went to the bathroom to wash up first. As soon as I got to the bathroom, my father came and insisted that he had to go in first and then another man who looked like a bum said that he had to go before me also. All I could do, was to stand aside and wait my turn because I couldn't go to bed with T.M. until I was perfectly clean and he was waiting for me.

by Dee

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2-28-92 - DREAM - I was in a big house I owned. I was under investigation by both the police detectives and some bad guys. (I didn't know who) But all these people were trying to find a book I had, but they were sure I had. I had actually hidden it well, behind a lot of other stuff way back under a stairway. I wanted to get the book out, but I couldn't let anybody know where it was. The house was full of people, all looking for the book and some gang members tried to gain entry to the house. They wanted to kill me to prevent the publishing of the book, not knowing it was already done. I pointed out the gang members to the police and they got rid of them, but there were still subversives in the house so anxious to get this book, they would do anything to get it.

I went into another room and the dining table was all set for a banquet in honor of me for writing this book. Everyone looked so somber, I said, "What is this? A wake?" Everybody kind of settled down a little and I saw a young woman come in whose name was "Phoebe Snow". She was an obscure author and she had agreed to write my life story just to get her name in print. Nobody knew who she was yet. (Actually Phoebe Snow is a well known black singer.) ( A white young female in the dream)

I was going to introduce her to the other people at the dinner, but I saw that some people were still looking for the hidden book. I still wanted desperately to retrieve the book that was hidden under the stairs , but too many people were hanging around watching me.

I went into a smaller room near the stairs with a man, dressed in a long sleeved green shirt. He was a psychic like me. He believed in me and my story. We stood in front of a mirror in which we were going to conjure up some spirits. He held my right hand with his left hand and we started swinging our arms wildly and breathing hard and bouncing up and down to bring up the spirits. The spirits started to become visible in the mirror when a young, black-haired woman came walking in the back door.

I started hitting her in the face with a fly swatter. I was angry at her for spoiling our psychic conjuring. I saw that she carried two fly swatters, but I got her first.

I left then to go to a movie to get away from everyone. I walked up 16th St. to Center St. and to Teutonia Ave. to the Milwaukee Theatre. I sat towards the back. The movie hadn't started yet and I was getting hungry. There were a lot of young black kids there and someone threw something at me. I had a big white pillow with me and somehow I suddenly had a book in a gray paper bag in my hand. It puzzled me how I got it. I got up and went into the lobby. There were still people in the lobby and they rushed in to take my seat.

I went to the ladies room. It was filthy and everybody was aghast at it's bad condition. We found one open toilet that was clean, but it had no seat. I waited until another girl took her turn first, laughing and telling her that if she didn't die, I wouldn't either. But when my turn came, I couldn't go. I was anxious to see what the book was that I had in the bag.

by Dee

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3-3-92 - DREAM - I was in an office building on an upper floor. I carried with me the ear piece to a dictaphone machine where instructions were given. I went to the bathroom and in each stall was a wire coming from the dictaphone and all I had to do was connect the 2 wires. There was another girl there with the same type ear piece. She had dark brown hair and was of stocky build. I felt that she was a rival of some kind. I left the bathroom talking about a nursing job. I overheard another woman say that she loved nursing because she loved pushing scrub brushes around and I thought to myself that she really didn't have the right concept of nursing.

I saw a train go by headed towards town and I knew had to catch it and go for a job interview in another city. There were crowds of people going that way. The men were separated from the women on the train. Another woman was with me and helping me. I was in a hurry to catch the next train. She was telling me that we had to fill out an application first and then get on the train at the rainbow door. I told her we should get to the train, then we could fill out the application while we stood in line or we wouldn't be on time.So, I kept on waiting and she kept hollering, "Wait! Wait!" trying to fill out the application at the same time.

To get to the train headed the way we wanted to go, we had to cross a busy highway and go over the track to the other side and there was a slippery icy mound to go over and a stop light and a traffic guard directing traffic. So, I went as far as I could and had to wait for the red light to turn green and wait for the traffic guard to give the go ahead. At that point I would have to cross the road and maneuver over the icy hump over the railroad tracks.

by Dee

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3-4-92 - DREAM - I was in a city apartment building and some people came through the basement who needed to be trained to do something. They didn't even know how to fill out the paperwork with their own initials and who their supervisor was. I showed them how to do that, then went back up to the ground floor and was now in front of my 16th house with a power scrubber, scrubbing down the front steps and sidewalk that some sticky stuff had gotten coated onto. As I was scrubbing, a man said, "You know, in Chicago, all this swill comes pouring out at night and they don't do anything about it. My response was to scrub more vigorously.

Then I saw a large, low, rocky mound that divided Chicago territory from Milwaukee territory. Some men were standing on the rocky mound directing what was going on from the sidelines.

Then I looked at the Milwaukee side and saw an alley with black paving stones. They were all edged with just the slightest bit of white. Another man stood so close to me, he was almost part of me. He said, "That's just not an option for me, that's just not an option for me." I continued power scrubbing the stuff of the sidewalk.

NOTE: during the night, I became very ill and suffered extreme stomach cramps for 1 1/2 hours which produced nothing, not even gas. Finally, I was able to go to the bathroom and the stomach seizures stopped. I went to bed and immediately heard a voice tell me that "they" were testing me to see how much pain I could stand.

by Dee

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3-7-92 - DREAM - I was walking down a city street sightseeing. I went to a stadium to watch some awards being given. A young man came up to me and asked if he could sit beside me. I said, "Yes!" His hand touched mine and there was a great attraction between us. But he felt cold to me and he said that I felt hot. I took him in my arms and warmed him. then he got down on his knees in front of me and held out two rings to me to choose from. They were both beautiful. I said, "Does this mean something special?", expecting him to ask me to marry him. He didn't say anything, but he was looking into my eyes. A mask came over his face so I couldn't look into his eyes, like goggles. He still didn't say anything and I felt uncomfortable not being able to see into his eyes, so I unmasked him and looked into his eyes and he looked away. A preacher came along offering salvation to people and many people accepted Christ as their Savior. The man with me said, "I can't believe, but I want to," and started to cry. I took him into my arms and said, "It's such a simple thing to say, "Jesus! I believe in you," to be saved, all you have to do is believe what he taught, and say, "Jesus! I believe". He just cried.

We walked on then through a crowd of some very rough gangs. He surreptitiously handed me both rings and said, "Here! Hold these." I held them tightly in my left hand so no one could see them. We passed through the gangs unharmed and then came to a corner. There was a green house there and it was empty. It was a "Milwaukee bungalow". (A specific type of house in Milwaukee, WI.)

Another preacher came along and my friend said to the man, "Please explain to me the 5 parts of salvation."

Since I was already considered "Saved and Born Again", I decided to go across the street and look at the green house and a man on the porch where we were said that he would show it to me.

While I was crossing the street, I slipped the rings on my fingers and took a really good look at them. I slipped one on my little finger on the right hand and saw that it had three emeralds and above each emerald was a gold cross. The one I slipped on my left 'ring' finger was a gold crown with a diamond at the center.

Then it came to me what the rings really were and I had to take them both off immediately and could not accept either ring. Then, I knew that the man I was with had killed the man who owned these rings, a high priest. I couldn't let anyone see that I had them. I put them both in my right coat pocket and jammed my gloves in on top of them and then kept my hands in my pockets to make sure they didn't fall out.

We went into the green house then and it turned out to be a nightclub. The people inside welcomed me warmly as though I would be their new boss, but the place wasn't for me. I asked to see the bathroom. You had to take turns to get in, but knew that the cleanliness of the bathroom would tell me how well the whole building was kept. I made the tour. It was hard to get in and almost impossible to get back out because of the crowds of women, all dressed in pink.

I had to get back to the man to see if he had accepted Christ as his Savior. I would give the rings back to him, so he could turn them in to the authorities and I would marry him and stand by him as long as his prison sentence would be, probably for life.

by Dee

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11-4-93 - DREAM - I had three dreams about prolapse of my intestines so that when I went to the bathroom, my intestines started to come out. A doctor took me to the hospital for surgery.

In the last dream, while I was trying to go to the bathroom, my painter Bob was trying to stab me in the forehead with a sharp stick and I had to call for Joe the maintenance man to get him away from me.

by Dee

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10-27-93 - DREAM - I was in my New Berlin house, saying goodbye to all my friends because Edward was coming home. Then I moved into my old 66th St. house and Edward came home. We were sitting on the bed together and he wanted to know how long it had been since I had sex.

I had to pretend I hadn't had any since the last time I saw him. I needed to go to the bathroom and while I was in there, Ed was on the phone applying for a job. I then realized that I was going to have to get a new job too.

I went back to the bedroom and a big blonde man was there. He was smiling when I entered the bedroom. I knew he didn't belong there and I hollered for Edward to come and get him but Edward couldn't see him. Edward did come and hold him back anyway.

I then went to a place to work. It was a gas station but it was closed. I was trying to close the overhead doors when a bunch of black, white, and Spanish people showed up. I was afraid of them. Some started to party in the store part of the station and I got into a fist fight with a Spanish or Italian girl. I was punching her in the face and winning, however I could hear her teeth breaking in her mouth and she wouldn't give up. I hollered at someone to grab her and take her to the hospital but she wouldn't quit fighting. I finally opened my eyes awake in the physical to get away from them.

by Dee

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12-23-93 - DREAM - This was a dream within a dream. I dreamed I was in the livingroom laying in a casket. The doorbell rang, so I got up to go answer the door. When I opened the door Joe, the maintenance man stood there minus his moustache and beard and my friend David was behind him slightly to his left.

Dream - I was laying in bed at 8 a.m. (bleeding heavily) A woman dressed in a green suit came into tell me I need to wear a babushka when I go outside. I tried to tell her I had a drawer full of scarves to wear on my head. Then Ken (the maintenance man) came in. He was being substitute manager while I was gone. A trail of salespeople started coming in. I started swearing and told them to get out. Ken told me to behave myself. I told him that when I was sick, I didn't want all these people coming through. I told Ken how much hope I had had for a good life and a nice place to live with Ed but how it had been taken away from me by Ed's crimes.

I went into the bathroom then with a package from a woman who told me it would be important to me. I opened it to find two different face creams. This was the first time I had been in this bathroom. The shower was squirting on the wall instead of down. I sat on the toilet and it was too low to the floor.

In the bedroom I was gong to move the furniture because a dresser was blocking the closet and I wanted to use the closet. I told Ken I wanted to open a passageway between two apartments so I could use both at the same time.

by Dee

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2-28-94 - DREAM - Joe, the maintenance man and I were having a friendly romance, and it was nice, but I didn't want to have it jeopardize my job and by the time I decided I should, he had already started paying attention to my girlfriend Donna.

Joe was living with me and my kids and my son got his fingernails dirty and wanted to clean them but Joe had taken the fingernail brush to work with him. So to settle my son down, we tried to call Joe at work to ask for the brush. We never did manage to get ahold of him even with two operators trying to help me. I went into the bathroom and saw there was a dirty spot on my brand new pale yellow dress and changed it to a red dress and put red earrings in my ears also.

by Dee

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4-3-94 - DREAM - I was dreaming that someone was taking me for a ride in a car. I asked to be taken to the library. In the library, I picked out two smallish books. The blue one was Psalms, written so as to read one every day. The yellow one was "Meditations" and included music written so to work on one page a day.

In the morning, I woke up in my 16th St. house and I went to look if the dream was real and it was. I actually had the books in the house.

I wanted to tell Joe the maintenance man about it because I was so excited about this. I saw Joe coming into the back door from the yard. I had the books in my hand.

There was another girl living in the house with me. she had already been in the bathroom over two hours and I was waiting for my turn. I did not have a job and after looking at the clock, which said 9 a.m., I thought to myself, "This is nice, I could get used to this."

Joe came in and we hugged intimately and I enjoyed the sensations. At the same time I was feeling jealousy that this other woman was in the house with us.

Joe took a drill and put it under my dress. He drilled something but I didn't feel anything. He said, "I'm opening up a valve that is closed." Since I didn't feel anything, I didn't know what it was, but I knew it was sexually related.

NOTE: In 1999 while typing up this dream, I had to look twice at the date of this dream, because I couldn't tell whether it was a 1999 dream in error or not because I live with another Joe now. :-) Nothing has changed. :-)

by Dee

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From Joe ~~~~~~ My friend, Jeff, had this dream around 1995 -

I drove my truck to a supermarket. I got out, but went back for my light tan coat, because it was raining. There had been a storm. The lights were out inside the supermarket because of the storm. I walked through to the bathroom. The lights were on. My plant manager, Mr. Behee, was there, and another man, who was his supervisor.

Something happened that I cannot recall. I walked back into the store, and the lights were now on. I took an item to the counter. In order to purchase it, I had to sign a little block of caramel wrapped in cellophane.

Suddenly, the scene changed, and I was outside riding in a car driven by a woman dressed in red. She was doing a radio broadcast from the car, and I could hear it over the speakers. After a while, I told her that I really did not like such talk shows, and asked her to change the channel to a rock-n-roll station. She agreed, but said she had to announce it first, and then she did so.

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6-5-95 - DREAM - I was in New Berlin with my family. I went outside to look at the night sky. It was glittering with stars. I said, "I want to see a UFO. Nothing moved. The stars were all in place and only the precession of the stars because of the earth moving could be perceived.

But then I went into the house and looked outside. The sky was daylight now and pure blue. I saw a car float through the sky and then a big dump truck. I asked my daughter if she could see that. She said, "No!"

Then I saw more vehicles going by, a whole train of trucks strung together, then a gas station, then a whole construction site. I asked my daughter if she saw any of that. She said, "No!" I started to think I needed help, because it wasn't real. I thought I should commit myself to a mental hospital to rest.

Then I saw a black neighborhood and it seemed very violent and it was very unpleasant.

The rest of the dream then change to being in the house and trying to find the bathroom.

by Dee

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07/26/96 -- In my dream, I was walking down a street, and I saw the beautiful girl from School that I have a crush on. We  talked, about what I don't remember, but then she said she had to go to the bathroom, and I told her, my house is near here, so I took her to the bathroom, and in the hallway of my home she stripped completely naked, went into the bathroom, and closed the door. I waited for her to come out, but she wasn't, so I went in there, and she disappeared.

by anonymous

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07/10/96 -- Various times I have dreamt that I am pregnant, but eventually there is always a problem in my pregnancy. A friend or family member is usually with me. Once I was with my friend in his minivan. It was winter, I was wrapped in an ivory blanket and I was barefoot. another time I was in a hospital and my cousin was with me, she was going to use the bathroom, but the white toilet was covered in menstrual blood. The room was a pale gray and it was dimly lit. Another time I was scared because I could no longer feel the baby, my best friend took me to an apartment where I was supposedly living. It was old and gray, she told me not to worry then laid down next to me on the bed. My friend in the minivan and my cousin also told me not to worry about it. My friend in the minivan, who is male, was taking care of me. In this dream I knew that I got pregnant because I had been with a friend, I don't know exactly who it was. We were both drunk and somehow I got pregnant.

by anonymous

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08/29/96 I had a dream that I woke up and just knew somebody was in my closet. I reached for my gun, that was beside my bed on a hamper. But I couldn't find it, or rather, feel it. I was very afraid, and breathing heavily. Then I woke up, in my dream, and repeated the scene again. I woke up again in my dream, feeling relieved that the nightmare was over. But it wasn't. I repeated the scene again, this time, able to reach my gun. I walked out of my room, and could see the living room. It was covered in shredded paper. I noticed how much of a mess it was, but I was also afraid. Then I woke up again in my dream. Repeating it all over again. Only this time when I walked out of my room, I did not see shredded paper. Instead, to my left I could see the bathroom door was opened. Inside the bathroom I could see a tub with a shower curtain over it. I knew somebody was behind it. I held my gun, shaking, and as the person started to come out from behind it, I froze. I couldn't squeeze the trigger. Then I realized it was my dad. I yelled at him. I said, "Are you crazy? I could have shot you. You are lucky I was too scared to shoot. Why didn't you tell me you were coming?" Then we went into my room, sat down on my bed, and started eating no-bake, oatmeal cookies, which he had in a dish.

by anonymous

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08/11/96 While looking through the classifieds, I found an add for a job. A local pet shop wanted someone to come in and amuse their kittens. This sounded like the perfect job for me. I wondered if they would hire me, and if one could actually make a living entertaining kittens. These questions were never answered, because the scene faded immediately.Now I found myself in the ladies room at Walmart. Not only was it filthy - one of the toilets was overflowing, and the floor was under two inches of water. I went out to the customer service desk to get someone to fix it., but the lady there said all the employees were afraid to go in, because it was haunted. I was highly annoyed (I really had to go), but they wouldn't be swayed."I don't believe in ghosts", I said."We do!" she answered.Finally a woman and a male employee (who looked and acted a lot like "Lurch" from the "Addams Family") went into the bathroom. Immediately they came back. The woman was unconscious and Lurch had to carry her out. Both were disheveled and bloody. The ghost had attacked them. Evidently, I had been wrong - although the ghost hadn't done anything to me. Then I went home (to an apartment house I don't live in). A neighbor's door was open. She was on the phone with a friend. She looked a lot like Crystal Gayle, and was a medium or spiritualist who had written couple of books about her experiences with the spirit world. A group of her friends, all writers, had written an anthology about the subject as well. Their book was in my hand, but for some reason I had no time to do more than skim through it. One of the writers was very upset, telling the woman on the phone that there were at least thirteen entities in her apartment, which distressed her because it was a small apartment and was very crowded. I was able to see her spirit visitors too - people from several different time periods and cultures. The lady was also very agitated because she thought that all this spirit activity foretold approaching disaster.Then I was out in a parking lot in front of the building. A friend, his 11 year old daughter, a younger girl, a man who was supposed to be my grandfather and I were all sitting on the running board of a rusty 30's vintage sedan. My friend's daughter had heard that smoke kept away evil spirits, and wanted a cigarette. I lit one for her,and the looked to see a tornado ripping up the town a mile or so away. It was followed by a second one -and then a third, much closer.I pointed to it, and said to my grandfather, "Papa, look at that!""Everybody get inside!" he said.Since the tornado was very close now, that seemed like a good idea. I picked up the young child, and we all ran to the building. Cars were flying into the air, just like in the movies. As we ran into the house, and  I pulled the door shut, I wondered if going up to the second floor was such a good idea. I thought that we might be better off braking into the cellar instead. Then, I woke up.

by anonymous

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11/04/96 -- I had this dream when I was about three or four years old. It sounds a little funny, but it scared the hell out of me at the time. I woke up one night in a cold sweat. As I said, I was only about three or four. I am now 18. I had a dream that my mom had gone in the bathroom and used the toilet. When she flushed it, blades came up out of the toilet and it basically blended her into little pieces. I can remember the end of the dream when my sister and I were sweeping pieces of my mom off of the floor. Years later, when I wasn't quite as young or embarrassed about the dream, I talked to my mom about it and we both just simply laughed as I described it to her. No, I'm not some serial axe murderer tinkering with the internet like you might suspect. I just had a scary dream as a little boy, and now I am asking you to please help me  decipher this dream, and whether or not it had any meaning to it! Thanks a lot!

by anonymous

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12-15-96 - DREAM - I was laying on my bed and a nurse came in to prepare my right ear for a surgical procedure. She said the doctor was going to clean out my right ear. She put some medication in my ear to dull any possible pain. I waited for the doctor to come but never saw him. Meanwhile, my right ear felt wide open but numb. I got up and went to the bathroom and while there I had a vision of a memory of seeing the doctor. He was swarthy skinned and wore dark rimmed glasses and a dark blue suit. I assumed at that point that I had had the surgery and just didn't remember it.

by Dee

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12-20-96 - DREAM - Today was the first day of school. It was Tuesday and the day the Scouts wore their uniforms to class.

My son Tom wore his blue cub scout shirt and tie to class. He had received it from the landlord. Another man who worked for the school had on his boyscout leader jacket.

I saw this and said I needed to go get my scout leader uniform on also. Mine would be a skirt and a jacket. I found the skirt on the hangar and it turned out that my husband had borrowed my jacket so I needed to get it back from him.

The next few minutes I spent getting to the school bathroom to put on the uniform and on the way which I think holds the music instrument.... The BUGLE... the trumpet?

I again saw the music.

by Dee

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1-3-97 - MEDITATION - I saw a little square that was labeled "Master Plan"'. It was followed by a larger square that was labeled, "Poison in the Sky". That was followed by a third box labeled, "Poison in the Sky".

I slipped into a dream. I was in my apartment looking out onto a larger expanse of sky. I noticed a bottom corner of the window and a small triangle of glass was missing. I knew immediately that something was wrong and that an intruder had come in. I looked and looked for something out of place for a clue....something missing. I had on a stereo with loud music. Suddenly that seemed foolish because the intruder might come back and know I was there. so, I shut off the stereo to attain quiet and for some reason, went to bed and was painting the white stereo speaker with brown paint or stain.

Some people (woman dressed in grey coveralls) came in who said they were the maintenance crew. They looked at the ceiling and told me the ceiling fan had burned out. What I saw was that the ceiling fan was gone.

Two little boys came in and said that he had left the bathroom ceiling fan on and went away. so, the crew was working on the ceiling fan.

Joe came in with Pat and I was going to tell him to bring me another car and I'd just write him a check for cash but he got away and left before I could do that.

by Dee

NOTE: Interestingly, in 1999, there were thousands of reports of criss cross airplane contrails in the sky which was dropping something that made people very ill and some even died from their illnesses.

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1-7-97 - DREAM - I was waking up from a nap. I saw my daughter Jeanne out the window. I thought, "I hope she doesn't know I've been napping."

I put on black shoes on over another pair of black shoes, thinking of an excuse in case someone asked me that I didn't want to get the inner pair dirty.

I opened my bedroom door and a very tall man was coming out of the bathroom across the hall. The entire bathroom was rose colored and the light in the bathroom was rose colored as well.

The man was an artist from Chicago and my daughter Jeanne asked him to paint a picture for her. At the same time, I was vacuuming the floor around the piano in the front parlor where a little girl was practicing her music. The little girl was my smaller self. I told her it wasn't enough to play a song just once, it had to be played over and over again to perfect it.

I continued to clean and trim away the excess from everywhere in the living area.

by Dee

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1-9-97 - MEDITATION - "Everything is going as planned. Continue packing and getting ready to move." I had a vision of T.M. coming to see me.

DREAM - I was in the bathroom. I noticed that the tile looked a little dirty in one spot, so I took a wet rag and rubbed on the spot. The spot looked even smudgier, but looked cleaner a little over farther. I rubbed again and noticed that the tile had been painted over with a stencil paint roller. The wall underneath was blue and stenciled over with green, so the more I tried to clean, the more green stencil came off. Then I noticed that the green stencil was painted over tape that was holding paper on the wall that was hiding open space between pipes in the wall. The paper was taped in the corner on the upper left. So the more I tried to clean the more shoddy work I uncovered. I thought about calling this to my husband's attention, then remembered he was leaving on vacation and probably wouldn't be back for a week. I thought I should probably fix it myself and be done with it because I had a roll of paper in the kitchen. A young man came into the room, either a son or brother. I sent him to the kitchen to get the roll of paper. He came back with the wrong roll of paper. On top of the roll it said, 4 p.m. and had the America On Line Logo on top.

by Dee

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1-19-97 - DREAM - I attended a party in a place that was like a warehouse or something similar. I knew all the people and it seemed like I was in charge of something because a large side door was open to a dark outside and one of the women complained that it didn't need to be open. I went out the door to take a look whether it was necessary for access and it wasn't so I went back inside and closed the doors. I went to a table and sat down to talk to some women. An Indian type man walked up behind me and put his hand on my head. He seemed to trace some energies on my head by feeling certain bumps and then pronounced that I was the one.

He pressed a certain point on top of my head and I started to feel like I was going to pass out. but it also felt like the pressure I get around my head when I meditate and go into trance so I decided not to fight the feeling and just go with it. I began to have a series of visions of different types of indians dancing and then changed more cartoonish and each scene was of different kinds of white people in various styles of clothing.

I'm not sure if each scene represented one of my lifetimes or if each scene was just of a different kind of people though I sense its the former.

I woke up and then meditated on the dream. Spirit brought me a white book. I could read what it said at the time but can't remember it now. I was given two pages from the book to take with me.

I went back to bed and fell asleep. I found myself waking up from a nap at 2 p.m. on a couch in my office at work. I saw what the other women were doing and noticed that there were workmen outside. They were re-landscaping the place, had torn out a huge old tree and replaced it with two baby saplings. I decided to go outside and question them about watering procedures so I could take care of the new little trees to make sure they would live. I saw a flash of light in my head. I shook my head a little and continued on down the stairs. When I got to the double doors, I saw it was dark outside and everyone had left. The doors were open and on the stoop were two rubber mats. On my left was a darker colored map and it said Chupacabra on top and then had the story of what a Chupacabras was printed on the mat. Outside the right hand door, was a larger white mat which said UFO'S AND EXTRATERRESTRIALS with a story about them printed on the mat.

My concern was that foot traffic would wear the story off the mats so people couldn't see it anymore. I went back up the stairs trying to figure out how the missing time occurred and what I had done during that time, remembering the flash of light in my head.

For some reason I now had three pair of slacks in my hands an tried to put a pair on while I was walking, but I couldn't get both feet into the same pair of slacks. I had a pink, brown, and black pair. I went to the bathroom to sit down and put on a pair and everyone followed me into the bathroom to ask me questions. One of the women was Dorian Lord from One Life to Live and I started to ask her about the missing time when my physical phone rang and woke me up.

by Dee

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Mar. 97 - "Waiting For The Bus..." by Sandra

I was about four or five and I dreamed that a beautiful double-decker multicolored bus loaded with people floated up to my bed and was waiting for me. I got up and tried to climb unto it but it was so light and airy that I couldn't. That's when I woke up and my parents were standing beside me next to the bathroom. I remember being upset because I wanted to be on that bus.

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Posted by Josephine Goodman on July 06, 1997

Dream on July 5, 1997: I am standing in the bathroom and I see that the wall plaster has been crumbling in large piles into and around the tub. I go into the next room and tell my husband that we must move because the walls are crumbling. He doesn't believe me. I go back into the bathroom. Now there is a bookshelf there with a lot of my books. The wall behind it dissolves and the bookshelf falls. I look through the hole and see it has landed on the lower floor of the building.

There are rows of seats like a theatre or auditorium. The shelf and books have fallen on top of some seats, shattering them. I feel glad no one was sitting there, as they could have been injured. I go down and into a series of offices, with very narrow corridors to talk to someone about moving.I think about whether I want to take my books back upstairs or wait and pack them to go to the new place.

In the next dream of that night, I am walking around an inside,second floor balcony and looking into the central area. I see a large tree there, with some birds with very long beaks that have rounded ends. I feel confused about whether the scene is inside or outside.

I believe the interpretation of the crumbling walls and falling books has to do with the crumbling of belief structures and old systems. The tree in the central area could be a new tree of knowledge.

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THIS IS AN INSTANT MESSAGE CONVERSATION BETWEEN DEE AND JOE

7 23-97. This occurred after we met on-line but before we met in person.

Dee777: Hi Sweetheart. What a night

JMason4557: good morning. How'd it go?

Dee777: I woke up saying, "We're never going to have another peaceful night are we? " It was incredible  

JMason4557: What does it mean?

Dee777: what does fractal mean? I haven't written down the dream I just woke up from.

JMason4557: It is form the new science of Chaos theory. It's about repeating patterns across scales...the way many things are... It has important symbolism too. You should write it down now, so you don't forget anything.

Dee777: I wrote down the fractal part.

JMason4557: Good. There was a dream with it?

Dee777: Geez yes! What a night. let me start. I'll skip the first vision and go right to the dream. I heard a voice say, "I thought we were going to be alone," then I saw a fountain in a pool, then I saw the earth as a ball whoosh up the fountain to the top where it exploded in a zillion pieces. I heard the words "fractal images" and each piece of the earth came down and became a window casing with glass in it. Each window was going to be presented to me to look at separately.

I went into another dream where you and I were in a house/hospital sort of place. It was old and there was an operating room. I was sitting in a chair that was a half circle with a railing around it made out of wood and I was in a hallway. A young man was there I would say about 12 and he was asked to watch a light fixture to keep his eye on it so to speak. because it was sparking, the woman there was going to hand him a key in case something went wrong, because there was a large chest there...sort of like an ice chest.

But the young man had to go to the bathroom so bad, he couldn't stand still, so I took the key and watched the light fixture for him, a nurse came by and asked where the boy was and I explained the situation and she was very upset. She expected the young boy to do as he was told and not walk away, however, the light fixture began to SMOKE. All the other people in the place saw the sparking and smoking and began to walk outside quietly and deliberately trying not to fan the sparks into fire. I took my half round chair outside with me, and sat in the yard and you were standing by my shoulder, we watched as the house/hospital went up in flames, There was a black woman watching us as I was sitting in the chair. I said I felt "loopy" which to me meant exhausted or something like that, I was half laying down in the chair, and watching that black woman watching us. and I said, "we're never going to have another peaceful night are we?" You said, "You can feel loopy all you want, I'll be here,"

JMason4557: Oh Darling...it is all involved with my material. It is about the nature of creation and about the Great Change. ...more..the computer you are going inside is in my head, and in the spirit world of knowledge.

Dee777: WOW!

JMason4557: I wish I could explain it all now, but its too much. I will be telling you.

Dee777: ok. let me tell you my vision.

JMason4557: Yes, please.

Dee777: I was laying on the bed thinking about traveling to California for a vacation and driving up the coast, when a woman came and sat down on the bed with me, She appeared on my right side. She reached over to her right with her hand, and brought back a round crystal ball about an inch or more in diameter. It was sort of a crystal green. There was either a protrusion coming down from it or that was a shaft of light. She said, "What is this for? Self-protection? She flipped it over so the ball was still in her palm, but the protrusion/shaft of light went up through her fingers, She said, "This is the way you hold it to use it." As she faded from view, I felt a loud hum in my left ear and the blinds rattled,

JMason4557: Wow! What do you think it means?

Dee777: I don't know, but maybe I should look for a crystal ball like that.

JMason4557: Yes. Good idea. Can you tell me what the black woman in the dream looked like?

Dee777: Hmmm! I would say she was in her 30's or 40's. maybe about 5'5 of 5'6. Just a regular black person, normal weight .

JMason4557: Pretty? Do you remember her clothing?

Dee777: I don't recall anything special about her. No , she wasn't pretty...very plain I would say. Short knee length dress, dark colored. Her hair was short...I think with picinniny type braids or those braid they wear now...about 3 inches long I think .

JMason4557: I think she is the Mother Goddess in this time cycle, like Kali has been appearing as a black woman.

Dee777: She was sitting quite a distance away watching me. She didn't mind that I was feeling loopy either. What a dumb word. I've got the key to the blue chest .

JMason4557: In my writing about the Tree of Life, I used some quotes about the Dark Sterile Mother," and how it relates to the change, and the idea of Kether moving into Daath.

Dee777: what about the light fixture smoking and the house burning up? It was an old house...like built in the 20's or earlier. tall with an attic. It feels like we were going to rebuild the house.

JMason4557: I think it is about the earth change. The house is the earth...the physical reality. Each person's "house" will be burned by fire...but the new reality will replace it. It is a symbolism for the change.

Dee777: good

JMason4557: Yes, we are the "builders," co-creators. Yes...good.

Dee777: we were just watching it happen. There was no sad emotion with it. It was almost like it was inevitable.

JMason4557: Yes...it is wonderfully good. I am sending a fractal.

Dee777: good. I watched the people in the operating room walking out...they didn't want to fan the sparks into flames. There were two women there who put on pink jackets which had white sort of striping but the stripes weren't even in width..kind of wavy striping. They dressed identical to each other. They looked like twins.

JMason4557: That fits too.

Dee777: They moved slowly but deliberately ...slowly Does that make sense?

JMason4557: Yes.Please look at the fractal now.

Mandelbrot Set Formation (jpg)

JMason4557: Then go here:

Dee777: I've got a painting on my web page that looks like that but it's got butterflies painted on it. It's gorgeous. I put it on both web sites.

Dee777: okay. so what exactly is fractal again?

JMason4557: The "Butterfly Effect" is part of fractal/chaos theory, and very symbolic...and about Transformation. I'm sending another picture.

JMason4557: Carlson's Fractal Gallery (3-D Looking)

Roger Hamstra's Silk Purse Graphics: Fractals

Computer & Fractal Art - Roger Hamstra

Dee777: I fell in love with it the instant I saw it.

JMason4557: Look at these later. The star?

Dee777: These are gorgeous The mandelbrot. They used a word in my dream that I didn't even know. Interesting.

JMason4557: There was an 8 foot circle out along a tram line in the formation. I had started to write about the symbolism of the Mandelbrot and Chaos theory 13 months before the formation appeared.

Dee777: who created the Mandelbrot in the first place, Honey?

JMason4557: The 8 foot circle in a computer-generated Mandelbrot is out along the "tip" or projection. In my speculations, that represented the planet earth. A coincidence had happened where a similar shape was formed by something dropped into water...it formed a similar pattern, with a single round drop of water up in the air..like the earth was in your dream.

Dee777: yes! that's it.

JMason4557: After the crop formation appeared, I remembered that I had made a printout of that area some years before. I found it...it was the picture I sent of the star. It is the Unity Star, and was associated with Horus and Bel Marduke, who were sons in trinities. It was also associated with Apollo. Another speculation is that it is associated with the worship of the scarab beetle. It is shaped like the body of the mandelbrot. It rolls a ball of mud around, and plants its seed therein, as the Creator rolls the earth around with the Cosmic Seed of Man. Hon, gotta go now.

Dee777: ok sweetie. have a wonderful day.

JMason4557: Benoit Mandelbrot discovered the pattern through using his intuition. The crop formation appeared near where he went to college, on August 11, 1991. The eclipse of 1999 will be on that day. Bye honey. XXX

Dee777: Bye. Love you! XXXX

JMason4557: I love you too. XXXX see ya tonight.

Dee777: ok! XXX

JMason4557: X bye

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8-12-97 Dream: I was at work at my new job. I was there all day and working hard, but by the end of the day I realized I still hadn't done anything for the company. I had my hair in rollers and realized I'd better get them out before the boss came in. I went to the bathroom to comb my hair out and instead of being blonde it was dark brown and glossy. The more I combed it the less curly it got until it was straight exactly like it is not except darker. I had to go meet a friend who worked in the next building but I knew that if I tried sneaking past the building outside everyone would know it was me by the clothes I was wearing which was large blue and white checks. So, I tried to go through and building and couldn't find my way. There were so many people leaving work and I forgot my master keys to the doors. So, I went down to get the mail and brought it back upstairs. There were lots of duplicates of metaphysical catalogs. I also found lots of Christmas cards and I kept thinking it must be Christmas until I realized they were from last year and I had saved them. I half woke up and went back to sleep. Now I was in bed feeling guilty for not getting up and doing my job. I finally got out of bed and discovered my neighbor woman doing a plumbing job I should have been doing and she was trying hard but doing a bad job of it.

I told her I'll be right back as I had to get dressed. As I woke up my dream voice said, "It's 9:09:28". I rolled out of bed, went into the livingroom to look at the clock and that's exactly what time it was.

by Dee

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9-12-97 - Dream: I was getting ready for my trip and dying my hair black. I started at 6 p.m. on the clock. It was taking a long time and while I was doing it, I had visitors.

Joe came in some fashion and we exchanged words of love. I couldn't remember seeing him, so it could have been a phone conversation or on the computer.

My Mother and Father came. My Father was like a presence. I did not actually see him. My mother sat on the floor dressed in black. Her hair was three toned, black at the roots, brown further up and blonde in the center. My Mother just smiled. My Father wanted to know who I had told about the trip. I thought about it and said, "Almost no one, but I told my ex-husband first." My Father was pleased with that and they left. R.R. arrived and began cooking breakfast for himself. He cooked things I don't have in my house - toast, eggs, and bacon. He ate it while I was rinsing my hair. It was now 6:30 p.m. on the clock. I went into the bathroom and turned on the water. It gushed rusty orange, then went clear - I rinsed my hair but it never got wet and the clothes that were piled neatly in the sink never got wet either.

I went to comb my hair then and the hair was two tone. It was black except for a pure white triangle in the center of my head. There was no hair at all in the front of my head. Then I noticed I was wearing a green scarf with curlers under it in front and felt stupid that I hadn't taken the curlers out. I combed it out and it was now all brown and standing on end and then went back to normal reddish color.

R..R. finished eating and after I complained about having no hair, he showed me the back of his head. It was shaved except for a black section down the back center like a mini mohawk hairdo.

He then pointed out a small bookcase too me. He said, "There are 36 individual books here for children. Then he reached into another bookcase and handed me three books. He said, "Here! Read these...the three bears ...Sun Bear, Jean Bear, and ... (I woke up while he was saying the last one and didn't get it.)

by Dee

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10-3-97 - Dream - I was at a large company and I was in charge of supervising maintenance. Lee, Maria (a Mexican woman) (from my UFO group) and I went to the 3rd floor and got a vacuum cleaner. Lee said he would carry it downstairs. He slid it down the railing. I found a guitar leaning against the wall and picked that up along the way.

I got down to the 1st floor and discovered 3 men (Executives) having a discussion in the middle of the stairway. I hurried Lee and Maria back up the stairs to the next landing where they wouldn't be seen and had Maria guard the guitar. I had Lee vacuum the 2nd floor. I ran into the bathroom because I discovered I was naked from the waist down. The bathroom turned out to be a lounge instead of a bathroom and I made a big deal out of telling that to Maria.

by Dee

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10-3-97 - I was at A.C. working on the 4th floor. Three men came down the hall looking for a specific woman. They followed me into the bathroom and continued to talk to me despite the fact that there were other women in there. They finally arrested one woman only to find out she was an undercover cop herself and she had a hidden radio in her hat. She accidentally let it fall out of the 4th floor window and they were watching it float down.. I could see the hat and it had a feather on it and it was beige.

I walked down the hall and we heard a tremendous crash outside. We all ran to the window and saw a car crash outside. It was so violent, one of the cars was thrown up into a tree. I heard someone say the accident happened because someone dropped a hat.

by Dee

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10-4-97 DREAM - I went down to 61st and Center Sts with a woman to have my car looked at to see what was wrong with it. The man there realized the car had been worked on there before. He was going to determine if it needed to be replaced or not.

From there I went with the same woman and Becky. They wanted to look at jewelry, but that seemed a waste of my time and I met some other people I decided to go to the fair with. A man named Norman decided he wanted to go to Capital Drive.

I escaped from his car at a garage when he stopped for gas. I got to the bathroom and found I was naked. I ran from the bathroom to bathroom to hide myself until I made it somewhere on the East side where I got another car

As I drove on Center St. a grey car pulled out in front of me and blocked my car. So, I came to a stop so I wouldn't hit him, he pulled out a machine gun and started to shoot at me through the windshield. I shone a flashlight in his face and he couldn't hit me.

I escaped and went up to Capital Drive where it was dark. I forgot to signal my turn and I didn't have my headlights on. I was surprised I didn't get arrested. I drove back down to Center St. where another car pulled in front of me and started to shoot at me through the windshield. Again I shone the flashlight in his face and he couldn't get me.

This happened 4 times total. Each time the shooter was Oriental.

I then got out of my car and ran up the stairs to escape but the Orientals followed me. I saw the boss man Chairman Mao and some of his henchmen coming up the stairs. He intended to kill me personally.

A tall, thin, Chinese man and a tall, thin, Chinese woman came down the hall acting like they were drunk. They blocked the stairway where Chairman Mao was coming up.

The Chinese woman began to sing a Chinese religious song which by tradition forced Chairman Mao and the others to put their hands up in the air and close their eyes. When they closed their eyes, the tall, thin, Oriental man told me to run to the right down the hall and go into another room and use the Pickar technique to escape.

by Dee

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10-23-97 -DREAM - I was living in a new apartment and discovered that the bathroom was in the next building over. I thought it was real strange that my apartment building didn't have it's own bathroom. I intended to look for it later. I went into the bathroom and discovered it had 12 foot ceilings and the walls were light green. I could hear people's voices from other bathrooms when I was in there.

When I came back out of the bathroom, I said to myself, "I'm not going to want to go outside to the bathroom all winter." I went into my apartment and found I was living with many women. I asked one what time it was and she said it was 12:30p.m. I was shocked because I thought Joe had just left for work and he leaves at 5:30a.m. "How could it have gotten so late?"

I was rushing around trying to get dressed and asked another woman what time it was. She said it was 10:30a.m. That felt a little better but I was still late and I still had to put panty hose on. I was trying to find the right pair without runs and finally found a pair that had beige slacks on the inside of them. I finally found a pair and reached down to put them and discovered that I already had some on.

There were two woman wrestling on the bed behind me and one woman was trying to strangle the other one with a blue satin jacket around her neck and face. I was worried about the woman being strangled but saw that she was still smiling and laughing so I let it continue. When the woman finally got up I was that she was not as she had appeared. She was ugly and had her hair cut like a man. I was really disgusted by the change in her.

A man came to demonstrate a carpet cleaner and I could see a wet streak on the brown carpet where he had tested it, but I didn't think the carpet was dirty to begin with. But a woman took a white flowered skirt and wiped it over the wet streak and said, "Look! It didn't leave any stain on my white garment. We should use him."

I asked another woman what time it was and she said, 9:30a.m. That was better but I was still late.

I ran out of the apartment and wanted to take a shortcut through the hallway where I worked on the 1st floor. A black man came in and was leering at me, suggestively. He kept following me so I ran away uphill yelling, "Help! Help!" He just laughed.

Then I tried to take a shortcut through the 1st floor factory, but big square agricultural threshing machines were being brought out through the tunnel, so I couldn't go through the tunnel. The machines were orange/brown and square and really big Each machine had a two man crew, one to drive it and one to direct it. Every which way I turned, a machine was coming my way. I was becoming trapped by the machines. Finally, I was completely surround by these huge machines and trapped and feeling a great deal of fear, the morphed into white washing machines that were triangle shaped. There were 6 of them.

I was completely surrounded and scared half out of my wits. One man said, "All you have to do is touch it, and it will move. I put my hand out and the machine instantly moved backwards. I as elated and the machine moved backwards out of my way and I continued on into work.

When I got upstairs, I saw two women coming up the stairs as though they were one. Their feet moved in unison. They were dressed in orange paisley material. As they whirled around the corner to the left, the leftmost woman threw off the rightmost woman onto the floor and she lay there like a beached whale.

I went into my office and discovered that I was on time afterall. All the offices were decorated for Christmas. I found m gifts which were already purchased and prepared and put them under the trees in my office. Two little black boys sat there expectantly and I said to them, "It looks like it's going to be someone's birthday!" And we were all happy.

by Dee

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10-26-97 - DREAM - (I named this one THE EPIC SCARE)

I was in a big city. I was lost or looking for some place. I went down a hill and turned a corner. I saw an open car repair garage and went inside and asked if I could use their telephone. He said, "No! Everyone is sleeping and you'd wake them up."

I saw many men sleeping on the floor in various positions. I said I understood and turned to leave. The door was no longer open and I couldn't get out.

There was a white stairway leading to the top of the hill. I asked the man if he could unlock the door and let me out. He said, "No! I've only been able to make it half way up the stairs for years." There appeared to be about 36 stairs and he could only make it to 18 which he demonstrated for me.

The big open door I had come through on the way down was now closed and it appeared we were now sunk about 6 feet under the ground. The windows were at ground level up that far. I asked him if he could open the door and let me out. He said, "No! If I open the door, all the dirt will fall in. I said, "Can't you boost me up and break a window and let me out?" He said, "No! I can't damage the door." I said, "Then I'll have to do it myself" I sort of flew upward and out the window because I refused to take "No!" for an answer and refused to be trapped in that hole.

I went to my apartment where I lived with my new husband. (I don't know who it was)(His face at first was Ralph - a Jehovah's witness, but then morphed according to his behavior and moods. His size and stature also morphed as his moods and attitudes changed.)

I liked my apartment. It was pretty large and had several other rooms besides the livingroom. (I didn't see the kitchen or bathroom)

Right next to the door, I discovered 4 other doors about 1 foot wide which led into other people's apartments and the doors were all open. These doors were 1 East, 2 South, and 1 West. It made me feel very vulnerable and worried that these people could just walk in and take anything they wanted.

The door to the hallway was also open as well as the apartment across the hall and people walked in and out at will. It made me nervous. I heard a voice in the bedroom and saw that someone was drunk and rolled up in a dark blue jean type sleeping bag and blanket and moaning. My heart sank. It was Edward, my ex-husband. He had found me and moved right in.

I went into the livingroom and called the police. They came and rousted Edward, but they didn't arrest him and didn't make him leave because he hadn't done anything wrong.

I stood side by side in the livingroom with my new husband who looked like nobody I knew at this point and waited for the confrontation between the two men and me.

Edward walked over to me. He was about 6'2" tall, blonde, crew cut hair, younger than I've ever seen him, and piercing light blue eyes with no pupils in them that I saw.

He said, "Does he give you deep kisses that last 25 seconds?" I said, "No!" in a timid scared voice. He said, "Okay!" His head had turned sideways to the left, his body had turned into a blue and white being of wood as he spoke.

The confrontation was over and Edward decided he was going to live with us. I was too scared to confront him again.

I had gone into another room or to work. My husband came in to complain about my ex-husband making a mess in the apartment and not cleaning up after himself. I said, "Mr. Perfection never does anything for himself. Everyone else has to make it that way for him."

Edward appeared in one more room to make a long religious statement, again in his morphed blue and white wood being body and I was scared of him but cannot remember what he said.

by Dee

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10-31-97 - DREAM - I was going to clean the house and I looked over at the vacuum cleaner. It was a tank type like a fat silver bomb shape or torpedo shape. It's handle and wand and hose stood on end with the head up in the air writhing and threatening me like a snake about to strike.

I felt threatened but refused to be intimidated. I went over to it and grabbed it right behind the head and proceeded to tie the hose into several knots. Nevertheless it managed to squirm its head loose and bit me once like an electrical jolt on the back of my left hand. I shoved the head down the front end of a water pipe so that if it tried to strike again, it would electrocute itself.

I then spent some time showing a guy how well the cleaner cleaned the rug like a carpet shampooer. It was very spotty cleaned. It wasn't good enough, so I took it down to the basement garage. A black neighbor named Bud (means 'herald') (Note: In the next dream this same guy says his name is Nash - short for National and was musclebound)

I shoved the cleaner all the way across the garage floor and he took it away.

I then met another old black woman friend whose name is Marcella (means 'warring') She and I were friends - then turned enemies over a man's affections. She lived in the same building as me but way over on the other end. I decided to go see where she lived and use her bathroom. She took me into a long series of twisting hallways and past doorways that were hard to get past.

When I got inside her apartment, it was huge. The floors were dark brown wood, all the furniture was dark brown wood and antique. It seemed quite dark, but the rooms were very large and there were so many of them. I told her she had a wonderful apartment. She said, "I have the whole deck". I looked out one door and there was a huge concrete terrace with walls around it with doric-like pillars under the railing.

In another direction, the huge door went out to a huge parking structure where hundreds of cars were parked and in the westerly direction were also hundreds of cars parked.

At that point it felt like we were in the middle of a parking garage and I no longer thought it was so great and I asked where the bathroom was because where I thought the bathroom was, was another parking lot filled with cars.

by Dee

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Subj: 10-8-97 THE MAGNIFICENT DREAM
Date: 97-10-08 12:37:00 EDT

Let me preface this dream by saying that I don't think this dream was meant just for me, but for 'everyman'.

That means you should pick out the part you feel comfortable in, put yourself into this dream, and do your part too. I believe that this dreams explains all the reasons why I am where I am now, why I've gone through everything I've gone through in life We can all find our places in this dream.

Love, Light & Joy,

Dee

10-8-97 - THE MAGNIFICENT DREAM

I went to the hotel I was going to manage. There didn't seem to be any bosses to ask questions of, but there were lots of people with needs and who needed help. Nobody was being fed to start with. I went to the kitchen and found meat half ground up for sausage, but the machine was dirty, the sausage half dried up. I cranked the handle once and it was a mess, the old dried up meat was mixed with the new meat. I knew I'd have to throw out all the old meat and start over fresh.

For every task that needed a machine, I saw 100 machines standing there waiting to be used to do the job, but there was nobody doing the jobs and the machines were old and antiquated and not up to the task of the modern day life style.

Every time someone came up to me, I had to find a solution to the problem, find a machine to do the job and find a person who could do the job. This went on for hours and hours and I saw hundreds and hundreds of types of machines. They were all white and all lined up waiting for workers to turn them on to do their job.

I went upstairs and looked out the window where the sun was shining brilliantly. I felt like I had been asleep for years. I heard water running in the bathroom. I looked at the clock and saw that it was 9:30 a.m. and my mother was in the bathroom getting washed up to start the day and she had needs to be taken care of.

I went back downstairs feeling quite naked and undressed for work. A woman brought me a beautiful heavy brocade, multicolored robe to put on that one of her ancestors had worn. It was really heavy but when I put it on, it fit perfectly like it was made for me, and it felt wonderful to wear it.

Three women came up to me. One of them was black. They began to sing a song about God and how God had said he would provide a wagon for every task that needed doing. In my mind I knew that I had had a dream earlier in the night about a wagon my children had brought me full of books and I knew that if I looked in the Concordance to the Bible I'd find the answers to my dreams in that way because the symbolism was in the Bible.

I took the black woman by the hand, and she in turn took the hand of the next woman, and that woman in turn took the hand of the next woman. They continued singing about God, and I led them to the next room where my baby was being cared for.

I went into the room where my baby was and asked for the baby. The woman caring for the baby had him wrapped in a black towel. I took the baby from her to hold him. She started to hand me all kinds of other things to care for him, a pink diaper bag and hundreds of bottles of formula.

I said, "No! You can keep all those things and throw away all the old formula, I will be feeding the baby from my own breast and nurse him back to health.

I told the singers to stand there and keep singing their songs and carried the baby with me to the kitchen where people were lining up to be fed.

There were workers appearing now also, and I gave each one a small task to do and overall the first step towards feeding the people would get done.

I heard a lion roar out the window and saw a magnificent lion roaring, sensing danger over the hill which was quite near. I knew there wasn't much time to get done what had to be done because something was on the other side of that hill coming towards us that we needed to be prepared for.

A man came and asked me for help. He said he needed a train engine to perform a particular task. I told him that all the trains we had were too old for the task, but I'd get him a new modern engine to handle the job.

At that moment, I knew why I had spent the last 11 years learning how to problem solve, because no matter what the problem was, I knew how to find the solution to it. I asked the man to bring me the yellow pages from the phone book, intending to find a train engine manufacturer, to make a new engine for the man.

Then I asked another person where the light switch was for the hotel and I went over and pushed the button and all the lights came on. We were now ready to start the day's work.

EOD

Love, Light, and Joy,

Dee

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11-1-97 - DREAM - A man came to give me very important information. He dressed himself in black pants like Joe's pajamas to give it to me. It was number 6339 and consisted of printed words and music many pages long. The man fed it into my computer. It was VERY important.

After I received the information, I was to be arrested and taken somewhere. I escaped by saying I had to go to the bathroom, but I knew I'd have to return.

I left the building and walked downhill to a big store where they sold clothing and jewelry. In the first department they were selling dark blue clothing and a black woman was trying it on. I went to the next department where they sold jewelry and I wanted some I could wear with either dark blue or light blue.

The jewelry was beautiful ranging from silver to crystal to blown glass figures of Christ and the colors of jewelry ranged from dark blue, down through light blue to white to clear. I couldn't decide on one piece because it was all so beautiful. Many were crucifixes of Christ. The woman suggested that I buy a gold lame purse and she showed it to me. I told her I already had one like it. (I really do)

I left the store then to go back up hill to meet the man to go wherever I supposed to go. While I was climbing the hill someone kept telling me to hurry because something was going to blow up and it was almost time.

I had to get around a big trench in the ground surrounded by concrete and topped with a big wire fence.

I finally made it back up the hill. By now, I had forgotten the words and music the main black and white had given me, so he came to give it to me again. I saw the numbers 6339 and the scanning of the document began again. I began to wake up as it scanned and I knew I could read it out loud, but it was slipping away.

I woke up angry because I couldn't bring this beautiful piece of important information back with me.

by Dee

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11-1-97 - DREAM - I was in a large public building that had apartments in it. It was my job to inspect the apartments and made sure they were ready for new people to move into them.

This was Saturday night and I made arrangements with the current tenants to show their apartments on Sunday morning at 10::00 a.m. thought my usual hours were 9 a.m.

There were contracted workmen in the hallway doing major repairs discussing how some people couldn't work in spaces that were 4 or 5 inches wide and wanted to know who had made the last major screwup. Damage was so bad that no one had figured out how to fix it yet. I saw a hole in the wall that was about 3 feet x 3 feet with a black screen over it. I had to admit it was a woman who had done the damage and her name was Mary.

I had to go to the bathroom out in the public hallway by the front door and when I got there I heard a man screaming. It frightened me so much, I ran back up the hallway as fast as I could and it seemed slow motion. I felt as though I was the half-crazed man myself crying out in agony.

To get back into the main hallway, I had to go through 6 arched doorways to get through without making oneself into a squashed image of oneself. I had to rip the curtain from the door to open the door. All the doorways were back to back so that by opening one, you still had the rest to contend with. Each of these doorways had a curtain on it of a religious figure bigger than life yet obscuring the door itself. I managed to get 5 of them open and the last one had a picture of a huge eye pasted on it. I had to pull the picture of the eye off the door to find the door itself and yanked it open to find myself inside the building which was now a chaotic shambles of its former self.

The crazed man had beat me there somehow and tore all the furnishings into shreds everywhere I looked.

I came upon a stunned woman and asked her if 911 had been called. She said that the man had hurt his hand early in the morning and had been treated for his injuries but now the anesthesia had worn off and he couldn't stand the pain.

I realized that so much damage had been done by the half-crazed man that it would never be he same again.

The image that came to mind was of Christ with nails driven through the palms of his hands.

by Dee

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1-6-98 - DREAM - I was at my New Berlin house out in the yard sitting under the apple tree. I looked down at myself and saw that my pink dress was too thin and see-thru and I would have to go into the house and put a slip on under the dress.

(I can't remember if I did this) I then looked down at my dress which was now a brown suit and again it was too thin and see-thru and I would have to climb the hill to the house and put a slip on.

I climbed the hill which was steeper and higher than normal. I went into the house, thru the kitchen, up the 4 steps to the hallway and past the bathroom whereupon I encountered 3 narrow gates to the rest of the house. I was trying to figure out how these gates worked when my three sons, Mike, Tom, and Bob came. (they were young teens)

I could see beyond the gates that they had completely stripped all the walls and carpeting out  and the entire house was full of electronic equipment. I started screaming at them, "I was promised that there would still be room for me to live here."

by Dee

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1-20-98 - DREAM - I was at a very large place like a hotel. They were putting on some kind of lecture when they were going to show a film. The program hadn't started yet. I actually was sleeping in the front lobby by a gasoline pump and people were being interviewed by television crews right outside the window.

I didn't want to be seen like that, so took off down the hall and ended up in the auditorium where the film was going to be shown.

On a long, narrow table, 4 film canisters were lined up. Being very curious, I took canister #4 with me to the bathroom. It was very heavy and I wondered how anyone could carry two at a time. I sat down on the toilet intending to look at it while I was sitting there. One of the female film presenters came in the bathroom to ask me if I knew where a particular person was. I quickly hid the canister #4 under my dress while she talked to me. I was still sitting there like that when I woke up.

by Dee

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1-30-98 - DREAM - I was writing my mother. N.M. came to visit and my brother came over. I told N.M that my brother Marty had all the Seth books. Marty said he didn't know if he had them anymore. I told N.M. that Marty had more books that I had. I felt proud of that. Everyone went outside to play baseball but me. I had to go to the bathroom then and there . There was strange man and woman I didn't know living there. The man was in the bathroom and threw him clothes all over the place. I had to kick them aside to close the bathroom door, which was a swinging door that opened both ways and didn't lock.

by Dee

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2-14-98 - DREAM - I was living in the city. My husband wanted me to go to the store with him. We actually got through and I said I needed to go to the bathroom first before we went up and down the aisles to pick out the food.

But, when we pulled up to the store, I found out my test score for something electronic. My score was 1.63. had something belonged to my boss and I had to take it upstairs before I shopped. I excused myself and took the electronic object upstairs. As soon as I got there, the phone rang, and Laura (An ex-co-worker) was expecting me to start working right then. I didn't even know I was scheduled. had to put her off for 5 minutes, so I could go back downstairs and tell my husband I had to work.

When I got downstairs, I heard some co-workers say they were going to interview S. B. for the Manager's job. I blurted out. "Oh! S.B.? I know him. (He has preceded me in one job and got fired and I replaced him. In the next job where I was Manager, he was hired to manage another building for the same company) They wanted to ask me what I knew about him. But I had to go upstairs and work, so I went back upstairs.

In the hallway, outside my door, numerous people were sitting on the floor gambling and playing card games. Right up against my door, they had piled garbage which I had to help someone move before I could in the door. The door was glass rather than wood. I just barely got inside my door and my bosses showed up and walked right in. I had no privacy at all.

by Dee

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2-18-98 - DREAM - I was 5 p.m. and I was anxious to see Joe at his new apartment. I called him on the phone at 874-5374 = (11) and got Robin (an old friend) I then tried 874-5323 = (11) and still didn't get him. So, I went to his apartment and found his clothes all over the place. I started helping Joe pick up the clothes. Joe was in the bathroom when I got there. We hung his clothes in the closet. There was something large in the center of his closet under a yellow blanket, but hung the clothes on either side of it.

Several of Joe's friend came in to thank me for helping him and hugged me.

NOTE: Joe had a very similar dream at the exact same time about doing his laundry and having trouble with it and needed help because his clothes were all over the place. In his closet was a yellow washing machine.

by Dee

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6-13-98 - DREAM - I was with Joe and we were in California, but we were at someone else's house. This place was huge and had a very large banquet type hall. We were there on Joe's birthday, but it wasn't just for his birthday that we were there, they were honoring him for his artwork because it had become known worldwide.

We were happy being together and for the honor, but I was having a problem. My psychic abilities had developed to the point where I couldn't always tell the real from the unreal.

Joe and I were sitting by ourselves in a room prior to the banquet and up on the ceiling, at the center point where there was a circular nipple shape-like decoration like some old houses have where the center lights have been removed, some tiny movie stars and singers began to appear and put on a show for me. Bobby Darin and Frank Sinatra were two of the singers. I was watching this tiny show and I said to Joe, "You can't see this show up on the ceiling can you?"

He said, "No!" I felt sorry for him for missing the wonderful entertainment, but then I went to he bathroom and combed my hair and when I came out, I was in a hallway and saw a young teenage girl in another room. As I got closer, she moved away from the door and I began to worry that it wasn't real. I could still see the girl's presence by her shadow and her voice, but the closer I got to the door, the farther she moved back. Finally, I reached the door. In my mind, I was still worrying whether she was real or not and she came forward and began speaking to me and asked me if I had seen her friend Victoria. (means triumphant) Just then, another teenage girl came down the hall and the two girls greeted each other warmly and I began to feel a sense of relief that this scene was probably real because they were full size people and having a normal conversation.

I then went back out into the banquet hall where people were gathering. I saw a strange looking older man in a child's high chair and though everything else looked normal, I got a queasy feeling again that this wasn't real. I looked for Joe. I spotted him sitting on a chair down near the end of the tables. I got down low to speak to him and wanted to tell him in a whisper what I was worried about. As soon as my words came out of my mouth, I knew instantly that none of what I saw was real because my voice boomed out so loud, and with such a loud echo that all the people at the table, in unison, and with other electronic type markings in the air showing fast movement, swooped down in their chairs in reaction to my voice. At that point I didn't know if anything was real, or if we were even in the place it seemed we were.

by Dee

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Monday morning, December 8 ,1997

At the beginning of the dream I received a phone call that my Father was dying in the hospital -some reason he was in Salt Lake City and I had to fly out there.

When I got there somehow I lost all my money and could not rent a car- I was in a parking area near the airport and was praying for help- and then concentrated and a car appeared out of mid air before me- as what I thought was suddenly created. I got inside the car and found a yellow note saying that the car was fully paid for - showing me the receipts.

So I got in and headed toward the hospital. The car seemed to go very fast- I would fly by buildings quickly and had a hard time keeping control of the vehicle. So hard that somehow I missed Salt Lake City al together and ended up in either another state or southern Utah. I was driving down a highway beside a large river. I stopped at a restaurant and was asking a lady directions- she didn't know how to get me back to SLC and she said maybe this nice Mormon boy can help you? Then I saw an LDS missionary walking toward me- first I wondered why he was alone since its a requirement to travel in pairs. When he found out I was a Mormon he was getting on my case about not being in church then he asked me where I got the car and I told him how I got it and he didn't believe me but accused me of stealing.

Then another LDS priesthood leader claiming to be a Stake President came over and was talking to the missionary so I couldn't hear them. And then the leader said they would help me back to SLC if I come to church with them- I told the leader who I was and he said he knew me- then I realized it looked like the Bishop I had when I lived in SLC and he started having me tell the missionary about my gifts and spiritual experiences.

I went to the church and found all manner of strange people there- some men were following me around which were obviously homosexual, and then a short bald man which reminded me of Yoda told me he could show me what I most do and that he was a psychic. The short bald man took me in the restroom and locked the door so no one could disturb us. His eyes got wide as if he was staring into space and then he said I could heal my father- that I was to go across the great river but that there would be people to stop me and other obstacles to hedge up the way. He also said I needed to go get my companion, and I said "She is back home", and he said "No your other companion is waiting for you." Then he pointed to a book on the bathroom counter- It was called "A Journal on FreeMasonry." and he told me to take it. I looked over the book but did not take it after all. I saw that someone had written all over the inside pages and scribbled out sentences and paragraphs and wrote down new sentences.

Then the strange men started chasing me out of the church and I got back in the car and headed to the large river- there were three large bridges going across. The lanes were set up strange and kept changing- all of a sudden I would have oncoming traffic coming right at me - everyone was going somewhere in a hurry but it was all unorganized and I almost crashed a couple times. Then I came to a toll booth but I couldnt reach the ticket so I had to get out of the car. Everytime I tried to grab the toll ticket it would move out of my reach until I finally jumped up and grabbed it. Several people were mad at me as I was blocking traffic.

Going across the bridge was very hectic when I got to the other side there were forests on each side- then a police officer on a motorcycle stopped me for speeding- I told him I was not speeding- but he insisted on giving me a fine- Then I realized everyone was getting fined- I came under and overpass and my Father and Mother and brother were in a car heading out of Salt Lake City- and they said it was in great danger and they were fleeing the area- so my brother got in my car and we followed my parents. It was strange that my parents were back together again, since they are divorced.

We came upon a major car accident just as it happened- but somehow we got around it. We then stayed at a shelter for awhile with all these poor people and they were sleeping on the floor.

We then headed east- we were back on the east coast and I was warning all my family members of the destruction coming and was telling them how to prepare- my Father's sister made the comment that we were lucky to be Mormons because we could just go out to Utah and be saved.. I shook my head and said "No! That place will be destroyed very soon - the Lord plans to clean his house first."

:End of Dream:

by anonymous

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12-13-97 - DREAM - I lived in a big apartment building and went to visit some people downstairs for awhile who had children. We had a pretty good time talking and playing with the kids. Then I went back upstairs with one of the little ones following me upstairs. I then wanted to go down to the lobby to get something and went to the elevator. I pressed 1, got on the elevator and went downstairs. I did something, then went back to the elevator to go back upstairs. It wasn't working, so I was going to take the stairs instead. I went past a room where a guy named John jumped out of bed and started to holler at me, "Where the hell have you been?" I said, "Why?" Did we have a date or something?" He said, "Follow me!" and took off down the hall back toward the lobby. In the lobby, there were a lot of people all dressed up. We went past them and went around a corner where he led me to a small meeting room. He went in ahead of me so I had to open the door myself. I opened the door and there stood my entire family - minus the tiniest grandchildren and my mother and father. My daughter presented me with a beautiful white Pointsettia plant and they all hollered Merry Christmas and Happy Birthday." I said, "You've all been waiting here for 4 hours?" and they said, "Yes!" in unison. I even remember my brother and sister being there. My Father sat by himself on the left on a bench. He said, "Well, my plane is due for take off so I have to leave. A short Asian man went over to my Father and fitted him with some thick blue goggle type glasses to which he fitted an air/oxygen type thing, then fitted a blue face mask type thing over his face. Then he stood up to leave.

The next thing I knew it was morning and I had to go to work. I got to work and found another girl sitting in my seat in the Engineering Department. I asked where I was supposed to sit. They said they thought there was a place for me way down near the shipping department.

When I walked all the way down the hall to the other end of the building I found my office. It was carpeted in brown and it looked like a bedroom with a desk in it. The boss was a guy I remember being drunk in other dreams though he was sober now. He said he was hoping for a young chick for a secretary, then he noticed I was wearing stockings and high heeled shoes and saw my legs and said he had no complaints. He said he spent most of his time at the bar next door anyway, so all he required from me was coffee and some sweet dessert that looked like a long chocolate eclair with yellow frosting on top. He said, "Let's go bar hopping and get acquainted." I said, "Okay! But I'll drive the car." and took the car keys out of his hand and put on flat black shoes. He said, "Okay!"

Suddenly an alarm rang and red lights started flashing. He said, "Follow me!" and we went down into the sub-basement. The hallway lights were off and dark but the red alarm lights and sirens were going off everywhere.

I don't know if he expected me to be scared, but I wasn't because I had been head of maintenance for 8 years and had inspected all these rooms before. We went down a side hallway. I saw someone go into a bathroom on the left. He said, "The problem is in the water pumping station."

We went through a small anteroom, then he opened the door into a huge room where we were now underneath this gigantic bowl which was rounded underneath and stood on pedestals on the concrete floor. I could see at a glance that water was beginning to seep through the bottom and it was in danger of breaking loose in a massive deluge.

by Dee

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12-13-97 - DREAM - I had my apartment keys and the main key was magnetic. The door would unlock just by touching the key pad with the tip of the key in a certain way.

I had to go to the bathroom really bad, but I couldn't figure out which way to hold the key to open the door to my apartment. Then, when I went down the hall toward my apartment, I saw that the door was already open and I felt really stupid for suffering for nothing. I went into the apartment to go to the bathroom and found myself in the neighbor's apartment instead. I could hear her and her daughters talking really loud, though they were in the bathroom and didn't know I was there.

So, I tiptoed back out of the apartment back out into the hallway and I was back by my own door. I felt very confused.

by Dee

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12-17-97 - DREAM - I was working in a large company We were moving from the 1st floor to the 3rd floor. We took all the white cabinet doors with us. I was out in the hallway and some men came by who were also moving their offices upstairs. They were talking the white doors which were gilded with gold with them. That made me know it was okay to do what we were doing.

The accountant came by and delivered a ledger for our new business. She was in a hurry so she put it on the floor in the hallway. It was about 6" thick and 3 feet long and 1 1/2" high. The cover was gold and so were the edges of the pages. Our business contract was on top.

I had to go to the bathroom and decided it would be easier to run to the bathroom which was right there and then pick up the ledger. I opened the door to the bathroom and the man with the white door followed me into the ladies room. He had passed the men's room to follow me, so I had to remind him that he had followed me into the ladies room. I then went back into the hallway and picked up the ledger to take it with me.

by Dee

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Subj: DID YOU HEAR ME CALL YOU?
Date: 97-12-19 16:51:52 EST
From: Dee777

I just got back from the strangest experience. Left at 12:25p.Came back at 1 p.m.

I found myself in a combination school room/court type place. There was a huge machine on the wall that shot out white light which created the scenes to deal with.

They brought in this little black guy who at some point in the past had a fight with me with some huge black machetes. They brought him in and had him in some kind of stockade place and had me watch to see my reactions. They told him he could pick up a machete if he wanted to. He seemed a little reluctant to do it, but he did then. The guy went to pick up this huge machete which they had hanging up in a rack on  the wall. He tried to pick one up and he couldn't. I was already reacting when he tried.

Then they gave me the same opportunity. I tried to pick up the machete from the rack they provided for me, and at first I couldn't pick up the machete, but then I forced my strength to pick it up out of the rack. It was so heavy, it felt like it was magnetized to the rack, and I just barely had it out of the rack and the weight or the magnetism made it impossible to try to lift it high enough to hurt anyone with it. I dropped it on the floor. By the time I had it that far, the guard in the corner, sitting at the student's desk, was getting to his feet to make sure I didn't hurt myself or anyone else with the machete.

There was a HUGE computer screen in front of where I was. I've never seen one that big. It was wall sized. I could change the scene in the room by clicking on the controls with the mouse just like with my own computer.

There were some colored marks on the floor and when I used my right hand that had held the machete, to touch those spots, it felt like it was hypnotized almost without feeling - like paralyzed, but when I reached out to some other marks with my left hand, it was normal. EXCEPT, when I reached out with my left hand, I lost my balance a little and put my full weight on the floor in A WHITE LIGHT BEAM. I felt the energy coming from that light beam that was incredibly strong. It wasn't painful, but not exactly pleasant either. I said to myself, "Now, I know what Michele felt this morning.".

I went back to the computer with my left hand still tingling a lot. I clicked on the computer to contact you, and was talking to you briefly, but I had a cross connection with a guy who was in an upper room. I called him Tim. I was telling him the machete guy story at the same time I was telling you.

The guy from upstairs came down to make sure I was okay before he left on a trip. He was going somewhere in Wisconsin. I know the guy. I've seen him before. He wasn't the Tim I thought I was talking to though.

I then left the room and went to a section where there were little rooms where people kept things, the bathroom, laundry, etc. It seemed I was in charge of this area. I heard a doorbell ring and went to an outer door to let some other people in. I small Spanish woman brought in this huge woman who was about 6'5" tall, probably weighed over 350 pounds.. She looked pretty scared to be there. So, the Spanish woman introduced her to me and I took them back to my area.

All of a sudden, I found myself back here and feeling great.

So, it was just a dream, hey?

I was impressed just the same.

Love, Dee

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Date: 97-12-24 Dream... "I took a nap this afternoon, and I had an important dream. However, once again, it is difficult to remember it all so I will try to connect the pieces as best as possible.

"*DREAM* - I am not sure where I started out, but I was in some type of building, which was the size of a house. I believe that I was with some type of "commander" (maybe military?) and at least one other person. We were looking at a map. The "commander" was identifying a route that I needed to travel. As far as my starting point, it seemed like Kentucky or somewhere close although I am not exactly sure.

"I asked the "commander" some questions about the route. There were symbols along the route, and the ones that I had a question about were all of the same type. I asked if they were "stop signs" or else he responded that they were "stop signs" when I asked. I also verified that I needed to turn "right" at each time (stop sign) - he said that I was correct. However, he also seemed annoyed at my questions of detail because he had already showed me the path and thought that it was enough - I did not need to know what the "details" were, at least according to him.

"I believe that the route ended in Rhode Island. I also wanted a ride up to the "fork" which I believe was at the first "stop sign." Either a vehicle was available for use or one was coming soon so I wanted to wait because I would get to the first "stop sign" sooner. The "commander" said "no" to the vehicle and that I would have to get their on my own.

"One other thing about the map. As I looked at it I got the feeling that it might "not be the same" when I actually arrived at my destination. It was not so much that time had passed. It was more like the time-line had actually "changed" and a new reality was attempting to manifest itself in place of the existing one (like a war or something).

"So, I took off running along my route. I was thinking as I was running that I should have kept exercising (ie. running) in the past, but I had not kept it up as I should have. Needless to say, I could tell that I was out of shape as I ran. As I got close to the first "stop sign," I came upon a filed of women dancing, as far as the ye could see. They were all very bright in their auras, and they all looked very beautiful. They were a pleasant sight to look at. They were kind of dancing like ballerinas. I was somewhat disappointed in myself as I have not been "conserving" my energy as I should have been and therefore was not as "bright" as I should have been.

"Somebody let me through a fence by removing a wire or board or something. Once I was past this first "checkpoint," I was finally allowed to get into a vehicle, it was like a military jeep or something. There were also about 12 "checkpoints" or so (in total).

"I was sitting in the back seat of the jeep. A friend of mine who was in the military with me in California, was also in the back seat with me. Those 1 or 2 other people in the front seat (one was the driver, of course). Anyway, my friend seemed angry at me for some reason. I thought maybe he was mad at me because I did not keep in touch with him, but I am not sure of the exact reason.

"I was telling him that I had gotten out of the Air Force in May 1996. I also told him about what I had been doing since that time - he either was not interested or did not believe me. It also seemed like I had "never" left the military in the dream (I may have been in the past before I got out of the military).

"It was either "back in time" to when I was in the military, or it was part of some "alternate" time-line - perhaps this was related to the "alternate reality" that was trying to manifest itself, but am not sure. The alternate reality was like a war or something, like I mentioned before.

"At some other point in the dream, although I am not sure of the exact sequence in which it occurred in the dream, another military friend in the past was in the dream. I know that he is now out of the military also. He was laying on a bed next to me or something. I was on my back on the right side. He was on his stomach on the left side. He seemed very sad - almost crying.

"...Now comes the important part of the dream. It seemed like I was in the neighborhood where I grew up. I was 3 houses south of my house, which is on the south end of the street (the other house). The house is on the west side of the street. There is only one other house south of this house. Behind that house was a "slough", which is now a recreational park.

"Anyway, someone (a friend) was telling me about this evil entity that struck fear into the "hearts of the people." I somehow had thought a thought, put out a thought, created a thought, or said something once about this evil energy or entity that gave it "power" - although it was very "minute" in the degree of power at the time. This thought had been in the past, which would have been the present (now) if I was in the future, which was a possibility.

"Anyway, from this small thought, this entity had grown larger and more powerful over time. It was the "fear" (the thoughts of the people) of this entity that were feeding this entity the "energy" that was making it more powerful. Basically, I knew that the entity would cease to exist (or have power) if the people would only stop fearing it - but they were too scared to stop (at least at the time). I saw this evil entity of energy in the sky. I was standing in the yard of the house, and I was looking high up in the eastern sky.

"I saw the entity from the point at which it was first created (ie. from my small thought). This was either in the past or the present. I then saw as the entity had grown over time from its small beginnings. It was now very large, making itself more fearful to the people, which only further increased its size by their fearful thoughts. This was either in the present or the future. I had seen the entity grow from small to large. As it grew, it approached us in (from) the sky (we were on the ground - my friend and I).

"I was not scared of it, and it receded. However, my first thought had somehow helped create this thing. Even though I was not afraid of it, many other people were. I now knew that I had to defeat this thing that I had somehow helped create. I may have already done this in the past, and it had manifested itself in the present, or I was doing this (not necessarily yet) in the present and it would manifest itself in the future if I did not do something now to stop it. This also ties in with the alternate reality and/or war trying to manifest itself.

"Basically, this thing had become so powerful that it basically ruled the lives of the people on Earth - they were so scared of it that they could not stop thinking about it, which if they did, would cause the entity to shrink in power and/or dissolve itself into "nothingness." The only thing keeping it going was the fearful thoughts of the people...

"Also in the dream, although once again I cannot place it in the sequence of events. This event was in the backyard of the house we were at. It was likely there were many people buried in the backyard, where the garden once was - perhaps from the war?

"Finally, 2 restaurant scenes were in the dream. I believe both scenes were at different restaurants. One scene was with my brother and my wife. We were at an Italian restaurant. At one point, I had taken some things off the top of a dessert - kind of like a full pie or cake or something like that. Another scene (in the same restaurant) was us sitting at a table. One of our pastas (mine) was purple or something, but the color was covered by a red marinara sauce. We prayed before we ate. I was praying about how to stop this event., and I was still praying when there were finished praying and ready to eat. There were wondering what I was doing.

A final scene from this restaurant had to do with a bathroom. I was either going to use the restroom or just was my hands. I cannot remember. Anyway, it was being used when I approached the door so I waited. Soon, a lady opened the door - perhaps a restaurant worker - she seemed disappointed in me.

"The other restaurant scene dealt with only my wife and I. We were parked outside of a restaurant in the parking lot, maybe a drive-in (to-go?) restaurant or something that. I believe that my wife was in the driver's seat. There were also cars and people behind (on the other side of the parking lot).

"We eventually left, and we were driving down a road. We came to an intersection. It seemed to me that the road that we were on seemed to have a lane on the far left side (it must have been a one way that we were on) that had an arrow that allowed you to turn left at the intersection. However, either the traffic was too heavy or the intersecting road was also one way and you could only turn right (it must have been too busy if the arrow allowed a left turn).

"There also seemed to be a lane right next to this left turn lane (almost like a narrow bike path lane) that you could use to go "across" the road to the other side if you wanted to. However, it seemed like we were supposed to turn "right" so we did...maybe another right turn on the path that I saw at the beginning of the dream...?

"Also, the backyard of the house also seemed to be near or at the first check point. It seemed that this was next to the field where the ladies were as well as where I got into the jeep. I am not sure how this ties in with the intersection that my wife and I turned at in the end." End of dream log.

by anonymous

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12-30-97 - DREAM - I was in Milwaukee, living on 16th St. and needed to go to work/school on 12th St. The bus route had been changed so it went straight East through the alley to school. It had snowed heavily because it was winter, but the bus route was clear. I just missed the bus because I didn't know early enough that the bus ran that way. So, my son Michael agreed to drive me to school/work.

We started off in a pick up truck but it morphed into a refrigerator which we/I had to push most of the way there. Once inside, I pushed the refrigerator into the office where another identical but beat up and scraped refrigerator stood.

I went to see what my assignment was. A girl who was to have given me a job assignment said she had decided to do the job herself because it was so fascinating, so she gave me a bunch of work I was already an expert in and gave it to me. Then I went to find my desk and my office which had been moved to the 3rd floor in an older part of the building which had been previously hidden. I started to explore it a little. There was a bathroom out in the hallway and up three steps which was being scrubbed up by a couple cheerleaders who had nothing else to do.

I looked the other way up the hall and two workmen were polishing the floors and putting in new lights. I went back to where my desk was supposed to be and it wasn't there. Instead there was a stand up table only 6" wide,not even wide enough to put papers on, no file cabinet to file the finished work, no phone, etc. I became very incensed and decided to go outside and explore there.

Outside, it was a warm summer day. I saw my friend Nancy standing at a table in a garden with 3 sticks in her hands with hearts where the arrow points were. I took them from her and they were all dusty. So, I was determined to wash the dust off these Tantra hearts so they be used again. I began walking back to the office on Oriental Carpet rugs which were like runner type carpets on the path. with each step I sunk down to my knees into the ground/dirt/mud beneath them of the path. It was so difficult, I wondered if I'd ever make it all the way through the garden of flowers where I was. I finally made it back to the office building and decided to tell them that I was going to quit. They had nothing to offer me anymore. I looked at the calendar. It was blank and there was nothing in the future scheduled for me. So, I took the three sticks with the hearts and went to a computer screen where I typed in the word , "Tantra". Pages and pages and pages of links came up so I knew there was plenty of work for me to do there.

by Dee

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1-8-98 -NOTE: This dream was so real, I still can't believe it was a dream.

DREAM: I was working on the computer, then laid in the bed while Joe got ready for work. Joe left for work and I went back to sleep. Suddenly, Joe was home again and asked him why he wasn't working. He sad he had gotten to work and felt like being with me and making love, so he made an excuse and came back home just to do that. He got a little penlight because the light was low in the room and used it to look at my nipples in foreplay.

I looked at my nipples too with him, and it was such a turn-on to look at them so closely with the light while he touched them. Then be began more serious foreplay and I told him I wanted to go the bathroom and wash up a little, so I went to the bathroom and there was someone sleeping there on a little bed. I managed to get the washrag wet and soaped but felt the need to be in private to wash, so left the bathroom to find privacy. Everywhere I went in the room was another person, either sleeping or awake and I couldn't find anywhere to be alone.

I saw a little fish tank with a fake tree in it and it seemed to have bluebirds sitting in it's branches. The bluebirds both hopped and swam in the water being both bird and fish. they were so beautiful, I was mesmerized by them. The tree morphed into a white boat shape or there was another fish tank next to it and there were lines of bluebird fish swimming through this tank and it felt like love and the feeling of love came over me.

I finally got to the kitchen in my16th St. house. (This might be a separate dream) It was more like an office than a kitchen. there were several women there. It wasn't quite 9a.m. yet so we were talking about hairdos. One of them knew how to cut hair so we started talking about cutting hair.

I looked in the mirror and I was wearing a big, tall, pouffy dark wig of curls and the other woman said they loved my hair that way. One of the other secretaries came in on her way to her upstairs office. She was wearing a semi-short white lace wedding dress which was draped with lace on one side, white stockings, and flatheeled shoes.

I thought to myself, "maybe that's how you should dress when you work for the President." She left and went upstairs and the rest of us went back to talking about hair cutting. One of the other girls decided to have her hair cut too.

Another woman came in then, wearing along white wedding gown. She had gotten married the day before and wanted us to see her dress. We admired her dress and then as she was leaving, another woman came in, also wearing a wedding gown she wanted us to see. She wanted to know what we did in the office, and she sat down on a couch like this was the foyer or waiting room. It was now 9 a.m. and i asked what I needed to get my hair cut and the girl said I needed a sterile brush and comb and a scissors and a wash bowl with water in it. I said, "Okay," and went to the pantry to get the supplies. As I entered the pantry I gradually woke up and heard Whitney Houston singing, "I love you" and it was exactly 9.am. on the physical clock too.

by Dee

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1-15-98 - DREAM - I was in the kitchen of my 66th St. house. Joe went into the bathroom which was adjacent to it and started screaming at me about how filthy and disgusting the kitchen floor was.He said,"There are bugs and mice running all over in the corners. I hadn't seen it, so I looked and he was right. It was horrible. I saw bugs and spiders and little tiny baby mice all over the corner of the floor by the stove. Then I noticed all the other trash on the floor including blankets. I swept all of it into the corner. Then I asked who was brave enough to pick it all up.

We had a bed in the kitchen at this point and there was junk all over the bed too. So, we started a cleaning campaign and cleaned off the bed. A man was in the pantry and asked permission to throw away some trash from there too and I said, "Yes!"

Then we called in a "trash" woman and she came in and took away all the trash and tied the blankets in a knot with all the mice and vermin inside.

I looked then to see if all the mice and vermin were gone and they were, but I saw a little purple fish. I ran and got a little silver kettle and put water in it and we put the fish in it but it just swam right back up into the air again. then, I looked up and a whole row of purple fish were swimming in the air up by the ceiling and the front two looked like Minnie Mouse and Mickey Mouse and they were carrying little bouquets of yellow flowers and leading the parade and they came away from the wall and headed towards me.

by Dee

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February 23, 1998 - DREAM

My sister always hogs the bathroom, so I go on the side of the house frequently............my dream is exactly like real life....I knock on the door, she bitches that she's almost done, I go outside to whiz, except this time while peeing and looking at the stars, like I always do, I see a ufo, semi-concealed, behind a tree in my backyard.

In my dream, I am totally overcome with the the most overwhelming fear and dread, its so bad, I can't move, or think, just stuck there frozen. Its an indescribable feeling, and the dream is so real, its completely terrifying!

I just stand there, and I can see something inside the ufo, and it begins to drift to right, silently, and very slowly. then it seems that my vision magnifies, and I get a close-up of a grey. it doesnt do anything, just sit there, and stare right back.

The feelings I had described before are now doubled. then after what appears to be about 5 seconds, the grey un-magnifies, and I'm seeing the ufo, but I can make out the grey, in some kind of window, still staring, and all I can think is, it has absolutely no good feelings for me, everything is cold and evil. not hatred for me, but the way you feel when you step on an ant. just so cold! like its looking thru me!

It just keeps going, and drifts away, but until it gets out of my view, its still staring, and I'm too afraid to move, like moving may provoke something I dont want to happen. after its out of site, in my dream I run back to my house, and wake up before I get there.

by anonymous

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3-4-98 - DREAM - I was living in my 16th St. house. The time was 7:55 a.m. I saw two little boys about 5 or 6 years old. They were cutting through my yard for a shortcut on the way to school. They were wearing their pants inside out. I thought maybe that was a new trend.

My kids were ready to go to school except the youngest...Bill. He came into the room, wearing his pants inside out too. Around his mouth were all red marks. It looked like he had a disease. But the same time, an older man on television (which seemed like he was in the room with us. He had the same kind of red marks around his mouth and on his hands. He said he had been eating cranberries.)

Bill said, "Oh! I was eating cranberries too and I had to go to the bathroom and it got all over me. I said, "I'd better help you clean up, it's getting late for school.

I rushed him to the bathroom and gave him the choice of a shower or the tub. I said, "The tub will be faster just as he chose the tub. I turned on the water. The pressure was so hard that the little aerator on the end came off and the water was full force and shot way across the tub. The tub filled with water in mere seconds.

Bill had taken off his clothes meanwhile. I picked him up, after testing the temperature of the water which was lukewarm, and plunked him down into the water. The water came right up to his nose. We didn't seem concerned about that and I helped him clean between his toes. We made sure we washed between every toe. I washed behind his ears. I told him that if he did that every time, he'd never have to worry about it hurting from getting scrubbed. I then picked him up and put him back on the floor and he got dressed again. I then saw he had yellow crud coming out of his right ear. He said the doctor had told him that lots of people had stuff in their ears and they needed to clean them out. So, we cleaned the crud off the side of his face.

by Dee

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3-9-98 - DREAM - I was in the bathroom. I crossed my left foot across my right ankle and all of a sudden I started spinning off the ground and levitating while spinning. I got a really surprised look on my face and smiled and I raised up higher and higher. Spinning and spinning to the right off the ground.

by Dee

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3-9-98 - DREAM - Joe and I were in the kitchen. Joe had made coffee and we had both drunk some. Then Joe went out to the livingroom to work on the computer. I made more coffee then went out to the livingroom to tell Joe the coffee was ready. He was asleep on the couch. I had a hard time seeing at first on the left side of the room, but there was another man living with us. I thought he was asleep in bed but I saw an artists' easel set up with a light on it turned on. The man himself was in the shower in the bathroom. I kept hollering, "The coffee is ready, the coffee is ready" so he would hear me and a woman's voice answered from the bathroom so I knew the artists' girlfriend had spent the night with us too.

I went back to the kitchen which had a white folding door on it and the handle was like a small silver rod to pull on. I got the door open and went into the kitchen only to see that I was wearing brown winter gloves to use for gardening. I began to take the gloves off and put them on top of the refrigerator for safe keeping. I began to notice that the coffee pot was boiling down and I would probably have to make more coffee. The coffee pot then spit some coffee out and it left a trail of spots from my left shoulder all the way down my arm I thought that was kind of strange. I had never seen a coffee pot do that before. It was like the coffee pot was trying to get my attention.

There was a young girl in the kitchen, a relative of Joe's of some kind. She seemed very familiar with the house though we had just moved into it. She went into a room I hadn't seen before. It was up about 3 feet above the normal floor. I peeked in the door and saw her over to the left where a lot of empty boxes were stored. I asked her why this room was higher than the others. She said it was to keep the children out. I saw that the room was huge, at least as big as the whole house was in the other direction. There were many things stored over in the dark corners. I would need to turn on the light and explore it to see what we could use it for.

by Dee

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3-14-98 - 42699 - DREAM - I was with some people in a big building. A young couple was with us (me and Joe) and the guy went into the bathroom to get read to take his wife/girlfriend to a foreign voiced play in French. Meanwhile to show her appreciation, she secretly had been studying French and she stood outside a big glass window saying very carefully and slowly "P U L L E E Z" or something like that.

Joe and I went to another glass window where we were teaching people lessons and he wrote on the glass window in white chalk. "When you grow up to be the mother of the world and all you want to be, will you marry me?" I watched him writing the words and I had my own piece of chalk. I was ready to write, "Yes!"

by Dee

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3-19-98 - DREAM - I was in my New Berlin house. There were some outside contractors doing work on the house and in the yard and in the neighborhood. I was just about to go to the bathroom when one of the workmen came to the front door. He was dressed in green and blue work clothes - blue pants and green shirt. He aid that they were about done but wasn't quite sure how out lot lines were laid out; they wanted to make sure that when they inspect the land and made it perfect that they didn't extend into the neighbor's land. So, I showed him the lot lines on the north and showed him how they started at the NW corner and went all the way up the hill to the NE corner. That was the hardest line to determine. As I looked out the window with him, I could see that there were electrical and telephone poles and lines strung from the house all the way up to the NE corner. Some of the T shaped cross bars carried as many as 12 lines on them. 6 on each side.

He looked kind of amazed at how far the property line went. He said, "We may as well finish the papers now. He got a huge blue folder out that opened up towards the top. His name as contractor was way at the top. (I can't remember what it was.)On the bottom page were two places where I had to sign. I could see where my name "Dolores Bauer" (my first married name) was already on the top line and I signed my name "Dolores Finney" on the bottom line and on the top line to show who I really was. He signed it also. Then He closed the notebook and handed me my book of instructions. This book was like a calendar size that you carry with you. It was thick black leather.

His boss then came in and when I looked up, we were in my 16th St. house in the parlor by the stairway going upstairs. He said, "We are all done, the crew is just making the final touches to the livingroom". We opened up the sliding doors to the livingroom (they slid into pockets in the walls). There were two men standing on step ladders in the livingroom with lights in their left hand inspecting and ceiling and touching up the ceiling paint to make sure there were no imperfections.

They were just finishing up when Kevin from One Life to Live came in from the kitchen, saying, "Are we almost done? The women in the family would like to get the serving tables set up now." Many women in the family were bringing out trays of food to set up for a banquet. I walked to the front door with the workmen, the two bosses, clutching my book of instructions in my hand and waved goodbye to them as they drove up 16th St. to the north.

by Dee

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3-29-98 - MEDITATION - on GAP7. Voice - "Your mother is going to interfere with it." I saw many knives. Then I saw a woman with a thin sharp knife which was full of blood. She said, "This is the patient's knife." (patience?" I saw our daughter-in-law Lorna taking her son Ethan to the bathroom. He pulled away and said, "Let Dee do it."

I asked if Joe could help and I saw a lake behind the house. It was still...reflective water. It went out as far as the eye could see. "Still water runs deep", came into my mind. I asked if I had to do this right away. I saw a square with a round circle in it and a push button on top. The voice said, "No! You don't have to!" Then I heard the crack of a whip.

A woman shook her finger at a young boy and said, "I didn't tell you to take your clothes off. You disobey the rules." The little boy looked up at her and said, "We don't have rules like that at my house."

I said, "I think I receive information for another woman named Dee." The other woman said, "She receives MY information.

I said something about receiving balanced information and I saw a 2 wheel bicycle come rolling in. I reach over with a sharp "grabber" thing and pulled in a file with Joe's name on it. The file opened up and it said, "May the hearts of mankind be opened and joy fill them up."

by Dee

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4-8-98 - NOTE: This was an initiation. DREAM - It seemed like a bizarre nightmare. I went to a school where I've been before. I only went there because I had to go the bathroom really bad and I have an apartment there. I went inside and opened my apartment with the gold key (I actually had two of them because I manage the building). An old woman thought I was renting out the apartment and another woman who was a rental agent wanted to come in and I let them some in and see my apartment because it was immaculately clean, much to their surprise I guess. The woman who wanted to rent the apartment was of Middle Eastern descent person from the Internet)

The rental agent was telling me that we couldn't rent to blacks or orientals. I told her I already had done this and they were wonderful people. The Middle Eastern woman was very sweet and I went up to her and asked her if she was prejudiced. She didn't know what the word meant. So, I explained to her that it meant that you didn't allow black people or people other than your own kind to live with you and she assured me that she had friends of other races and nationalities and that was no problem.

There were two fat (obese) white women there who were lesbians and they told me they were looking for some new white women to join with them. I found one for them, but then I let them go their own way.

I went out into the hall where there was a long stairway that was divided into two stair paths...a left and a right. A priest stood in the center with a baptising font and said, "That's why we baptize infants in the center, between the stairs."

I went out to the main lobby and saw that the old woman had moved a door and behind it, the dust on the polished floor was thick and blowing. Some girls found a variety of tools to wipe it up, all of which would have been ruined by getting them wet to wipe up the dust.

I said, "Wait! I've done this before and told them I would take a string mop, tie a rag over it, get it damp, wipe up the dust and then throw the rag away.

I proceeded to do this but I had difficulty finding the proper piece of material. It seemed to have an Indian design on it.

At one point I climbed a chain link stairway that was supported only three-quarters of the way up to the next level and quit before I got to the top and came down again because I wasn't brave enough to go all the way up.

I then found a mop handle and a leather board with seeming jewels on it and a piece of cloth that had the Indian design but I didn't have the proper base to attach it to.

A calendar flashed at me by the mop handle. It said, "March, 1998". I knew that was past and I had done this before and I was failing the test.

I was trying to analyze this in my mind and said, "I will be back to do this again."

At that exact moment, the calendar flashed to "Eastway - 1998" and I knew I had passed the test as soon as I said I would be back.

(I still don't know what it is, but it has something to do with the Indian materials)

by Dee

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4-12-98 - DREAM - I was in my Murray Ave. apartment on the east side. I looked out the diningroom window and saw a delivery truck outside. It was some kind of supplies or hardware.

I didn't know who was expecting a package but because it was a business delivery, I went to the door buzzer and buzzed him in. I then went into the hallway to watch the elevator indicator to see what floor he went to. The elevator indicator showed that the elevator went up 12 floor as well as down 12 floors. (This was a 3 story building and I lived on the 1st floor above the street level)

The elevator went up to 12 and then came down really fast to 1. I noticed that the apartment doors were open on both ends of the hallway where the apartments were empty. I decided I would close them later.

I went back into my own apartment. All of a sudden the man came through my bathroom/bedroom hallway. He was delivering a new motor for a bathroom fan.

I then gave it to the maintenance man and said, "Now you have something to do." I said it like he had nothing to do before that.

by Dee

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4-18-98 - VISION - I saw myself in the bathroom and a white cat jumped up on the top of the toilet seat.

Some people started talking to me but the language was unintelligible.

I saw the Green Bay Packers team all gathered together on the field. They were all clapping their hands together and cheering.

NOTE: I'd been willing to think that the Packers are going to be Champions again. :-)

by Dee

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4-24-98 - DREAM - It was 4:25 p.m. I was in school in a classroom. We teachers were writing 1's all the way down the page and we were expecting 100 girls to come into the classroom at 4:30 p.m. for a class that would last from 4:30 p.m. to 5 p.m. I could hear the girls coming down the hall..walking in unison like they were marching. It sounded ominous until I realized it was the girls.

The girls and I all had to use the bathroom before the class. The girls were all milling around in the hall and would not come into the classroom until exactly 4:30 p.m.

by Dee

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4-25-98 - DREAM - I was in New Berlin but it seemed some rooms in the house were in other houses I lived in too.

I can't remember exactly how it started but we met three young men from Canada. They seemed to be 16 or 17 years old. They seemed like nice boys and I became particularly fond of the shorter blonde boy. My husband took him to where he worked and he was offered a job in two seconds. I asked him where they planned to stay that night. He said a word that sounded like "ceremony" but I knew he meant a place where people stay who have no home. Even though we didn't know these boys we offered to let them spend the night. The blonde boy said it would be up to the oldest boy what they did and it seems like he said the boys name was "Terra Cotta" or something like that.

The two darker haired boys went off downtown, but the blonde one stayed with us and when I told my kids it was time to start cleaning up, the blonde boy pitched in and worked harder than my own kids did. (My kids were sitting out on the lawn and not participating. I said to them, "It appears you don't appreciate what you have.")

I was standing in the kitchen and my youngest son Bill came in and his feet were covered with strawberries from walking in the strawberry beds. I carried him over to the sink and washed off his feet and called him a pig. He denied walking in the strawberry beds but the evidence was clear enough.

The blonde boy continued to help me clean the kitchen and then we went down in the basement and we cleaned the basement too.

I went up into the livingroom and saw that it was clean but a long low table blocked the doorway and the orange/red carpeting had round circles impressed in it like crop circles so I knew the livingroom needed more work yet.

I went back down to the kitchen and I saw my husband and all my kids coming down the steps. Mike, Ken, and Tom were wearing white tuxedos, the others were dressed normally. My daughter was wearing a purple/blue dress.

I asked where they were going. My husband said they were going to a wedding. I asked who was getting married. He said, "Louis ____" a friend of my father. (long deceased)

The man's male relatives were there and asked if I was coming too. I said, "It seemed I wasn't invited, my husband deemed it that way by not telling me about it.

They all left and I and the blonde boy continued to clean and guest started to arrive from the neighborhood. Some of the guests needed to use the bathroom and they had 5 toothbrushes and didn't know where to put them. I laughed and said, "I have cabinets that don't have anything in them. I opened up the upper cabinet which was empty and laid the 5 toothbrushes on the shelf.

This included a disabled woman we had to set up the TV set special for her. I turned on the TV set and I saw a pale green screen with a UFO hovering on it. Then the screen switched to a map of Wisconsin and the picture was still pale green. This whole thing slid over to the left and the picture was of some animal characters, a lion and some others. They were cartoonish.

I was able to drag the characters around the screen with the clicker thing like it was a computer mouse, but I could get Wisconsin and the UFO back. I tried changing the channel but nothing worked, so I let the disabled woman watch the lion and the other animals play acting.

I then turned my attention back to the blonde boy and was asking him about his family life and how his mother felt about him leaving Canada to seek his fortune. He said he didn't have a mother and got real sad. So I asked him about her and he said she had left the family many years before and he didn't have any contact with her. I felt real bad for him and kissed him on the cheek and wondered if he'd like me to be his surrogate mother. I felt I had more love to give than I was using raising my own kids.

He seemed appreciative to have the attention and the love.

The other two darker boys came by then and Terra Cotta decided they couldn't stay the night and they'd go downtown and stay at the men's shelter.

I asked the blond boy if he was going to work the next day and he said, "Yes!" and I offered to help the other two boys as well.

I said, "Don't forget about us now, please. You know where we live," and at that point I knew our address was on 84th St. (I never lived on 84th St.)

by Dee

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4-28-98 - DREAM - I was in a big, beautiful house... it had no furniture in it, but it was a huge place, lots of light (seemed like daylight, maybe lots of windows, though I don't remember seeing any), and light colored walls. There were other people living there, but no one seemed to notice me at first. Then one of the people in the house gave me a bright red Scottish Terrier. This dog was telepathic. It was very polite and devoted to me. It asked me (telepathically) if it was all right to play with other dogs, or to go outside and use the bathroom. I thought it was very considerate to ask me, but it made me feel kind of bad. I told the dog that it could do what it wanted, it didn't have to ask me everything because it wasn't my slave. I loved the dog, and was very glad it was mine. I wished it would act more like a normal dog and stop saying things to me, but I didn't want to tell it so because I loved the dog and didn't want to hurt its feelings.

by anonymous

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5-3-98 - DREAM - It was December 24th. I was living with several women and we were preparing for Christmas. Some of these women had been collecting beautiful Christmas oriented objects for many years and had them displayed in round glass fronted cabinets which were very expensive and lined them up on the mantle piece.

I was concerned about the safety of those objects because the state would let my ex-husband #2 out of prison for Christmas and knowing his past bad behavior, I was expecting the worst.

I was so afraid that I tried making alternate plans to go to sleep in a different room or even the bathtub, but knew he'd find me in the bathroom for sure. I even thought maybe I could rent a room just for the night somewhere else in the neighborhood. I even thought abut asking a couple women to move to a different apartment somewhere else, but it was too late to do that. I opened a closet door and discovered a half drunk old bottle of liquor or beer hidden up on a shelf and I was shocked.

That meant he was probably already there and I hadn't even seen him. Stranger yet, nothing had been damaged or destroyed.

I concluded finally as I was waking up that the whole problem was all in my mind.

by Dee

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5-13-98 - DREAM - I was at my 4800 N Pt. Washington Rd. address. I didn't have a car and needed to go shopping, so I called a taxi cab. When the cab arrived, the driver was a good looking blonde guy. We pulled around the corner and I could see a huge derrick moving earth next door to the south of us. I thought to myself, "I should get out more, I didn't even know they were doing that."

He pulled around the corner going north on Port Washington Rd. going north. All of a sudden I noticed we were going backwards. Then he let go of the steering wheel, climbed over the seat into the back with me.I didn't feel any fear, but I was trying to figure out how this was happening.

I could see the steering wheeling making little movements left and right. At that point we were along the curb. I figured we'd just keep going backwards until we hit something. We weren't going fast enough to get hurt I didn't think so I didn't attempt to open the door and jump out though it crossed my mind. The man didn't try to hurt me, he just observed me to see my reaction to what was going on. I decided to just sit there until we ran into something and then get out.

I was amazed because we were driving around people and obstacles like holed in the road that were being fixed in the road with workmen in orange hats standing around. I looked at the steering wheel again and it was moving back and forth. I thought maybe there was a small monkey driving or a midget who could see into the rear view mirror, but I could see nobody. We drove backwards more and more blocks and finally reached an area where there weren't many buildings. The car then ran backwards over some grass where I saw a bridge. a black woman ran behind the car and we just missed her and ran into a short yellow pole or something.

The man seemed stunned and I opened the car door and started running towards a bus I saw coming. I got pretty far before I saw the guy get out of the car and limp away from it. I was running pretty fast, but I saw him coming up behind me. I had to pee really bad and I almost missed the bus. But he had to let a lot of people off so I managed to get on and stand on the steps right by the door. I had to pee so bad, I just let it go and it ran down my legs over my feet and out the door of the bus. Unfortunately, the old white lady standing next to me got some on her shoes too and when the people moved back in the bus, she noticed her feet were wet, but I didn't say anything.

I looked in my purse then for change for the bus ride and couldn't find any. It was a very tiny purse. I said out loud to the driver, "I can't find any change." The woman next to me helped me look, and while we looked, my purse turned from black to white and got larger and larger. We soon spotted some dimes and then I found a nickel. But when I picked up the dimes, they turned into diamonds, and the nickel turned into a white/silver buffalo. The bus driver didn't seem concerned. As I walked back in the bus, I noticed it was a gambling casino and shopping mall.

Suddenly, I had to pee really bad again and I got off the bus at a real shopping mall to look for the ladies room. I had to walk up a steep hill inside the mall. I saw the men's room, but where the ladies room should have been, a man came out the door. I kept walking and came to some shops and I knew I had gone too far. I really had to go bad, so I decided I would go back to where I saw the man come out and use that bathroom. I was in agony by the time I got there. I pulled the door open and woke up at the same moment. I really had to go pee bad and jumped out of bed.

by Dee

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5-24-98 - DREAM - The dream started when I was going into a huge schoolyard on 70th and Greenfield. The schoolyard was immense, but only 1 story high and had no windows at all. I had to cross the whole outer courtyard of the school to get to the door which was hidden between two buildings in a kind of alley way.

Inside the building various scenes took place. I cannot remember all the scenes but the most memorable was when I picked up a blond woman wearing a beige rain and shine coat. I held her upsidedown and whacked her head violently against the wall several times as I carried her to the bathroom. She was not a heavy person (not like a person would be in real life) I entered the bathroom and dumped her head first into the bathtub and at the same time offered my hand to an older woman to pull her out of the same tub and had short reddish hair. I helped wrap a white towel around her. Though she was naked, I didn't see her body...only her bare shoulders and arms.

I then went home which was just across the street on 70th at the old A-C building. (where I used to work for 10 years) In that building I wanted to go up to my apartment which was #307. There were several elevators. I had to hurry because I was already late for work which started at 8 a.m. and it was almost 9 a.m. When the elevator came it stopped about 1 foot below the hallway of floor. It didn't have a door...it just suddenly appeared. The elevator was full of people but I got on and turned around and faced the opening. I don't recall that it went up at all, but I was then laying on the floor of the elevator which had green carpeting facing a huge bedroom with two double beds in it. The only protection the bedroom had from the prying eyes of people on the elevator was a long pink fringe of string hanging over the opening of the elevator door. I picked at the edge of the fringe which was knotted and undid a knot. I then noticed that all the other knots were already undone except one.

It was time to get to work which was just across the street (where the school was). All I had to do was walk across the street, but the elevator turned into a bus and I and some other woman were taking the bus to work. The bus went west and I thought I would just get off at the 1st stop, but the bus kept going and I knew we had gone too far. I figured we could get off and get a bus back on a transfer or walk back. But we didn't have transfers so we got off the bus to walk back.

We were now on 84th St. and had to walk south to Greenfield Ave. and then east to 70th St. to get back to work. As we walked south on 84th St. we came to a bridge over a river. But as we got to the bridge, it looked like the ocean with huge waves on it. As we crossed the bridge we were on the same level as the water and where the water was coming to the beach, the waves were tumbling over and becoming snow banks. This event so puzzled me because I had never seen ocean waves turn to snow. But then I saw that the snow was melting quickly like it was spring and little cartoon-like birds were singing a song about being on the shores of Gitchi Goomi.

I woke up feeling really happy.

by Dee

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GOD WEARS SUSPENDERS AND PEOPLE ARE TOYS?

A Great Toilet Dream - the Earthchanges

by Dee

6-3-98 - DREAM - I had two dreams within a dream. Inner Dream #1 - I needed to go to the bathroom. I walked down the hall and saw the door was closed. I knocked once and opened the door because I couldn't see anyone through the crack in the door. I opened the door and saw my son Bill and two of his friends, kneeling around the oval-shaped bathtub which was more over towards the center of the room. (They were about 7 or 8 years old) They had stopped up the tub with numerous colored rags and towels and were running the water into the tub, pretending to drown numerous toy people. I started to holler at them. "Haven't I told you not to do that before? I believe this is the third time. You know that three times is all you get so now you have to be punished."

I let all the water out of the tub and removed and rags, towels and toy people. I went into their bedroom and got up on their bed, preparing to jump off the bed onto their toys and destroy them. I started to count down, 4...3...2...1.. and woke up from the dream, but I was still in MY dream. In the second inner dream, it was not so clear, but in that dream, I was counting UP alphabetically and got up to the letter "P" which I thought was very significant. I woke up in the dream, but was STILL dreaming.

(The outer dream)

I was moving from one side of the street to the other side of the street in the 2500 block of North 16th St. I was taking care of an apartment building/house for another woman. I had to go to the bathroom really bad. My husband volunteered me to give a lecture on dreams which I was totally unprepared for. I was doing all these things at the same time.

I decided to tell the two 'inner dreams' to the lecture group because they were fresh in my mind. With that decision made, I decided to run across the street and look at my new house. Unfortunately, the 7 silver keys I had for the front door, I left behind at the old house and I couldn't get in the door without them, so I needed to go back home and get the keys.

This was yet early in the morning, about 8:30 a.m. The children were gathering on the sidewalk to wait for the schoolbus.

Meanwhile, my neighbor asked me to take care of the building while she was out on an errand. I agree to do this.

She said she would show me how to use the black telephone, which also monitored the lobby for guests and visitors. #333 was to speak to people in the lobby. #777 was to listen to what they had to say. I pressed #777 and there was no one there except those children getting ready to go to school. I could hear them talking in the background.

She had a candy exchange program for the kids in the morning. She provided a series of black containers with candy in them and the children would come in with a handful of candy in exchange. The children who came in while I was standing there were coming in with handfuls of candy that looked like silver people (the same kind my son was trying to drown in the bathtub in the inner dream) The kids didn't want this woman's candy in the little black containers, they were exchanging "people" candy with each other by the handfuls. These kids were so happy to be able to do this.

Meanwhile I had to go to the bathroom really bad. I found three bathrooms in the house/apartment but there was a child in each one and each child was sitting inside the toilet bowl which was devoid of water, (they were long and narrow-oval-shaped) and they were playing with the little silver candy 'people'.

I had dressed in a brown dress to go across the street to look at my house and felt that was not an appropriate color to give the dream lecture in, so I had to change clothes too.

I went to a room where I started to change clothes and as as soon as I was sitting there with no pants on, several young men came to a counter-like area with a window and demanded to be helped with some problems. After making some lame excuses, I eventually had to tell them that I didn't have any pants on and couldn't stand up in front of them. They left me alone long enough to get dressed then.

Finally, one of the bathrooms emptied out and I ran to the bathroom to do what I needed to do. No sooner had I sat down, my husband brought in all the people who wanted to hear my dream lecture while I was sitting on the toilet. I told them the two 'inner dreams' about the letting out the water from the tub, the counting down to 1, the punishment, and the counting up to the letter "P" and that it related to the coming earthchanges and how soon it would be.

The people all left then, and I was standing in the doorway when the door of the apartment across the hallway opened up. A huge man appeared, with a dark, 1/2 grown out stubble of a beard, wearing a sleeveless T shirt and trousers with suspenders. I soon got the idea that he was in charge of the whole thing. He came over, held out his hand to shake mine and said, "Congratulations! You have done well and I hope you will be happy here.!" I shook his hand and thanked him.

I woke up and instantly heard a telephone ring in my left ear. I mentally said, "I am ready for a message."

I began to see a small graveyard. It was oval-shaped. A white arm and hand appeared and began digging a deep hole in the soil and bringing out objects which I eventually recognized to be the baby Jesus laying in a 'cradle' and surrounded by baby animals. I then saw another oval ring next to it and inside that ring, a full sized lamb and lion were laying down inside it...side by side.

by Dee

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7-5-98 - 12:10 a.m. DREAM - I was visiting someone. There was a piano there with a thick beige book on the music rack. The music was in the last 1/4 of the book an was written in all whole notes, played very slowly, with long sounding notes. The piano reverberated the notes and it sounded like an organ.

When I had finished played, I closed the book. Some girls came in then and wanted to know if I knew how to play. I said, "Yes!" and they said they wanted to hear me play something.

At first I hit a very discordant chord, but then I found the music in the book and I again was able to play the piano like an organ again.

I then went out in the lobby and sat on the couch waiting for Joe to come back from somewhere. While I was sitting there, I had a long tube which was see-thru but hollow. I was pushing this long, long tube farther and farther down my throat which made the tube go down the circuit to the other end of my computer circuit where the sound and information came from. In the office where the computer was, 3 women were working there. They saw the tube come out at the other end of the computer. One woman said to the tube,"Hello Dolores!" The sound echoed in my head really loud. Then the other two women saw the tube and they all three started saying, "Hello Dolores! Hello Dolores!" and their voices echoed in my head. It was so loud, I couldn't stand having all three women talking at the same time, so I started pulling the tube back out of my mouth and it was coiling up on the floor in front of me It was just too much sound for me to handle.

There was a young man, dressed in a light brown suit sitting on the couch next to me. He struck up a conversation. I told him the story of the tube going to the computer and the too loud sounds like it belonged to someone else. I was too embarrassed to tell him it was me.

It was time to leave there and it seemed this was a place where you had to be over 55 to live there. There were a lot of people sitting around, including the manager who said she had just come back from vacation. She said she didn't want to work anymore and wanted to be on permanent vacation. In my mind I was thinking that I hoped she would quit because then I could apply for her job.

The people were talking about their rent was going to go up when their leases ran out. One man had his wife sitting with him and she had a job at which she had gotten a 10 cent an hour wage increase. He wanted to know if he rent would go up. I told him that their total financial picture would be re-evaluated when their Lease was up and their rent might indeed go up.

Another woman who was a nurse said that her wage-increase had been 10 cents an hour and wanted to know if her rent would go up. I gae her the same advice, that her financial situation would be evaluated when her Lease was up and her rent might indeed go up.

When we were leaving and going down the stairs to the door, I could hear an old woman bitching how she never gets to go anywhere. She was bellyaching and bellyaching that she never go to go anywhere and this was while she was going down the stairs going somewhere with the rest of her family.

We were standing at the bottom of the stairs laughing at her, because she kept complaining that she never got to go anywhere while she was actually going somewhere.

I went to visit my mother and father. My father had had two heart attacks in recent days, but he had forgotten what the pain had felt like and was doing okay and walking around like normal.

My mother said that the day before, my Father had not come downstairs at all, and she hadn't gone upstairs to feed him either. She had just let hi lay there because he was supposed to come down every day.

I was with my family then. We were visiting a house and it was time for the children to go to bed. Before they could go to bed they had to go to the bathroom. I seemed to be temporarily in charge of this little boy and I could feel that his pants were wet. I took him to the bathroom and opened the door and discovered an older woman was sitting on the toilet going #2. I kind of said, "Oops! Sorry!" but she was done and left the room. I pulled down the pants of this little boy who morphed into a little girl. I held her on the toilet and she did #2. I then took some wipette type things to clean her butt. I got her ready for bed. While I was doing this another woman came into the room and saw me cleaning the little girl's butt. I was hoping that the woman didn't think I had done something naughty with the little girl just because I had wiped her butt in getting her cleaned up for bed.

We went to the opposite side of the same house where I and my children were climbing this huge ornate and plush carpeted stairway. It was a stairway that curved up to the right. The carpet on the stairs was royal blue. The steps were not even, some treads were narrower than others. It was difficult climbing the stairs. We were more or less crawling up the stairs using our hands as well as our feet like climbing a mountain. Someone made the comment that only my children had the right to go up that stairway because they were of the right bloodline. Their cousins wouldn't be allowed to go up there because they didn't have the right mother.

When we got to the top of the stairs, it was very plush and ornate, persian tye carpeting, very thick and rich, and the rooms were huge. Someone commented that there were 60 rooms up there and I was hoping we'd get to see them all.

I came to a young girl about age 2 who seemed to be my daughter. She was sitting there spitting out a piece of candy. She had wanted to eat one that was shaped like a peanut and actually had peanut butter inside of it; and the one she had put in her mouth was just solid candy with NO peanut butter in it.

Later, I was with this same girl. She was driving a car and I was the passenger. (She was a young adult now) We were driving north on Teutonia Ave. She wanted to know how to spell the word 'peanut'. We were driving past a string of restaurants with other words like PIZZA, PITA BREAD, but I knew there was one with the word 'peanut' but we had driven past too fast. I told her to go around the block and I'd show her the sign that said the word "peanut." T

This neighborhood was very dark and I was afraid that something might happen, but she drove with confidence. We made a left turn onto Center St. We couldn't go around the block because 14th St. was a one way street going north. So we proceeded to 15th St. and made a left turn. I told the girl who was driving that my Father lived on 16th St.which was just one block over.

I then noticed that it was no longer dark but bright and sunny. The street was newly paved and there was a bridge ahead we had to cross.

We had to stop dead in our tracks though because in the center of the bridge were two young men, beating each other over the head with hockey sticks. They must have been from opposite teams because one was dressed in red and one dressed in blue.

We were too scare to go past them, so we turned around to go back. Our car had morphed into two secretarial chairs with wheels on the 4 legs. Behind us though, was a trio of hockey players with sticks, all dressed alike, but there were two boys and a girl between them.

We were scared because we didn't have any sticks to defend ourselves with.

I turned and looked back at the first two hockey players who were not standing arm in arm in the middle of the bridge.

I turned the other way and saw the trio of hockey players advance towards us in perfect unison, they skated in a line with their bodies moving in a curving S shape as their feet rolled across the pavement towards us.

I thought our best defense was to just stare at them in the eyes and as I did, I saw a reflection of myself but it was like it was a face from a different lifetime because the shape of the nose was different, straight and not sloped like mine is now and the hair was darker. The trio of hockey players and we two, my daughter and I, kind of slid past each other until they were on the bridge and we were back on Center St.

I wondered if these young hockey players had come across the river from the East side, and what their purpose was for coming across the river.

by Dee

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7-6-98 - DREAM - I went to visit my friend Alice who had moved into a retirement type rooming house with two other women. Her room was on the 4th floor so I climbed the stairs to her room. She didn't go with me. She told me her room was the 1st one on the right at the top of the stairs.

When I got up there, the 1st room on the left was the bathroom and someone was in it using it. Directly across from the stairs was a small room, which seemed to be decorated all in gray. That's the way I more or less expected a retirement room to look.

To the right, there were two humongous rooms that were barn-like and not very enclosed from the weather it seemed, more like porches.

The 1st room seemed to have kitchen-like appliances in it and narrow table covered with a white cloth. I was curious to see what the view was from the porch. I worried that in winter it would be very cold and in summer, very hot.

When I reached the railing and looked over, I saw that it didn't overlook an outside scene, but an inside game preserve type place which was 4 stories down. It was all enclosed and provided more or less natural habitat for exotic birds and fish.

There may have been small animals also, but when I saw the exotic birds and tropical fish which were multitudes of other-worldly-type colored feathers and scales. I was enthralled. The vastness of the animal preserve to be indoors was thrilling to see.

At that point I was thinking that people on the first level could see this exotic place and how fortunate they were.

But, my reverie of thought was broken by some men who pushed their way in behind me and next to me. They had long guns like rifles and took extreme pleasure in using these exotic animals and birds and fish which were one of a kind, for target practice.

These were not the type of birds or fish one would raise for food, but just to enjoy their exotic beauty.

I was appalled to see this happening and that it was allowed to happen. As I was thinking this, some birds with long yellow beaks like ducks came up from below and started attacking us in the only way they knew how...with their beaks.

I got bit on the butt by one and the only way I could prevent another bit was to hold the bird's beak shut with my hand as I ran to get away from the place.

by Dee

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7-9-98 - DREAM - I was in a place that seemed like where I worked, but I was in the bathroom getting ready for work. I had to hurry because people were waiting for me so I took my makeup case into the office and began brushing my hair. My hair felt longish and fluffy like I had a lot of it. I picked out two small red pins with which I was going to use to pin it back from my ears a little. I headed back to the bathroom and one of the men went with me. He put his hands on my shoulders which felt like he wanted to steady me for a shock.

Two other people were in the bathroom looking in the mirror. The man behind me and the other man exchanged glances and the other couple left to make room for us. Gradually, my male friend led me in front of the mirror. I looked at myself and began screaming, "That's not me, that's not me."

The woman looking back at me in the mirror had really short dark hair, was about 6" shorter and had a long prominent nose. I woke up feeling really shocked. Who was I?

by Dee

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7-10-98 - DREAM - I was with an older woman and we were driving up a steep, steep hill into Nevada...like Donner pass. We got to the top of the hill and the light at the intersection was green, so we made a right turn and continued on driving. I made a comment that I like it that after you traveled the same way several times you began to feel at home because you knew where all the corner drug stores were and the grocery stores. (bathrooms :-) )

She agreed, but where we were didn't look familiar. There were so many stores of different types, the road and the buildings were pure white. Then we noticed that there were hundreds of red, Christmas bows hanging down from the ceiling and numerous short red pillows standing up on the floor. I said, "Oh my gosh! It's all decorated for Christmas." The way got narrower and narrower between the pillows and there were women walking around everywhere carrying packages, so we stopped to ask where we were. A woman said, "This is Mall of America."

The woman I was with said, "Gosh! I must have made a wrong turn back there at the border on the highway. One sign said "Nevada" and the other said, "Mall of America." and I thought I was going to Nevada.

by Dee

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7-12-98 - DREAM SCENES - (cannot remember a whole story) There was danger from flooding from a plumbing pipe. We were able to cap if off sufficiently and prevent the flood.

I had been doing laundry for other people. All I had left to do was to iron two shirts, but there was so much interference from other people, I was trying to decide whether to iron these two multicolor plaid shirts on the 1st floor where I was, or to take the ironing board and the iron to the 3rd floor where the man's HOME was. I decided I could finish the ironing on the 1st floor. I held up a shirt I had finished ironing. This one too was multicolored man't shirt. It was all water-stained below the chest level.

I was in an apartment with a woman and we were going to look at another apartment for rent. she said, "It seems awfully dark". I knew one wall was all glass windows. I told her, "That's because it's a garden apartment on the lower level." While I was waiting for her, she was in the bathroom which was down 7 steps on a lower level.

Following seeing the water stained shirt, we were standing there and a huge, horrific wind came out of the furnace grid which was on the baseboard by the floor. the grid which was brown began to shudder and flap violently and made a horrific noise and finally blew off. As it did, eons worth of dirt fell on the floor - all brown crud dust. We knew we could clean it up and everything would be fine.

I went to the store and bought myself a makeup kit. I opened it up and it was full of hundreds of colors of eyeshadow and rouge and multitudes of brushes. I was thrilled with it.

I went out on the street and met a woman on the corner whom I knew well. Instead of giving her a Christmas present, I gave her $25 in cash. She was perfectly content with that. She was waiting to catch a bus, so I crossed the street and continued on my way.

I came to a set of shelves on which Christmas presents were being stored for people until they were picked up. There was one there for me from my brother. It was wrapped in green tissue paper. When I first opened it, I thought all it contained was 3 oval bars of soap, yellow, green, and white/pink. I was very disappointed at first, but as I opened it further, I saw a makeup case and it contained hundreds of colors of eye shadow and rouge and a multitude of brushes just like I had just bought. I was thrilled to received it.

I was sitting in the house waiting for the right time to do something, thinking I needed my husband and family to do it with.

A young girl was there who had become motherless. I took her in my arms and cuddled her and comforted her.

While I sat there, my husband and two sons came home. I was dismayed to see that all three of them were injured in one way or another. My husband had a cast on his right foot, one son had no apparent injury, but I knew there was something wrong in his heart area, and the second son had a cast on the left foot. I knew then that I would have to do project myself anyway, that they would be of no help.

I was outside the house, standing in the driveway with plans to go to another state. I knew how to get there and that if I waited, a car would pick me up and take me there, and that if I went now, I would have to walk. There was a dark forest between me and main highway and there was like a red warning flag hanging on one tree, so I decided to stay where I was until a car was provided. I was VERY disappointed.

by Dee

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July, 1998 - DREAM When I first moved down here, I was having recurring dreams about natural disaster and being at my parent's home and a huge snow storm or tornado was on the way. During the dream, I would find myself at a huge university/mall, driving around on very snowy streets and trying to manage a very big car in a lot of heavy traffic. Once I would get out of the car and into the actual university/mall, I would be looking for a bathroom, because I felt like it was going to close at anytime and I wanted to use it before it was not available.

by anonymous

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7-13-98 - DREAM - I was in a city in a VERY large building. Various floors were different uses. I wanted to go to floor 7 but the elevator didn't go to any odd numbered floors, so I went to floor 6 and proceeded to walk up, but 1/2 way up there were a complicated series of railings which you had to climb over and through and I couldn't do that, so couldn't get there that way. I went back down to floor 1 and met a black woman and a white woman. The black woman told me she could take me where I wanted to go, so we got on the elevator and zooped up to the floor.

I discovered we were on 134. I didn't want that floor either, so went back to floor 1. I was supposed to be working, but for some reason, couldn't keep my pants on. They were off completely at first and I needed to complete some work and deliver it to another location. When I stood up, I realized I DID have pants on but they were sliding down in back so I had to keep hitching them up.

I completed the project and delivered it. It was a typed sheet which was a reward for good work done.

I was asked to help someone complete an application for something. He had brought in multiple small photographs and they all needed to be put in order and assembled in a folder, I set him to doing some of that work and went on to do some other work.

Then I had to go to the 7th floor again and just pushed the button for 7 instead of fooling around with going to 6 or 8 and walking up or down. To my surprise, where I pushed 7, a complete wall slid over and I was instantly on 7 right where I was standing. As soon as I took a step forward in this hallway, I saw a shift of perception and I could walk forward and actually be on the 7th floor.

I was hunting for a bathroom, but all the rooms I was going by were classrooms. The rooms were empty now, but each room had a separate desk or work station for each individual where they would learn to do just one thing in that room. The rooms I could see into were huge and held what looked like 100 work stations per room.

Then I noticed that this floor was also segregated by religious persuasions as one whole wing was labeled CHRISTIAN.

I got half-way through that floor and came to a door I thought might be the bathroom. I pushed it again and it turned out to be another elevator lobby with many people waiting for the elevator to go down. These people were all really happy and welcomed me to join them.

I still needed to find a bathroom, so went back down to floor 1 to look for the bathroom.  

On floor 1, I met people who were crippled and slow. They were admonished to move over to the side of the hallways and not block the way of people who could move faster.

On floor 1, I seemed to find a place I called home. Here, my real life Father came and 3 old cronies of his came to visit. They were so old, they must have been in the 100's of years old. My Father took them out into a garden that was at the rear of our house. While my father was entertaining them, I began to dance and prance in front of the mirror to see how beautiful I was. I wanted to see my whole beautiful naked boy, but I didn't want the old men to catch me looking at myself, so I would only flash on the upper half or lower half at a time.

Then I saw my Father walking in the garden with the 3 other old mena nd I took a chance on looking at my whole beautiful naked self in the mirror and struck a final model's pose in front of the mirror with a big smile on my face and woke up smiling.

by Dee

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8-1-98 - DREAM - I was hired to work as a secretary at a company where they expected me to do everything perfectly, but they said they would train me.

The boss showed me to my office which was right across the hall from his. It was more of a fancy cubicle than an office and my back was to the door so I couldn't see who was going by.

They gave me a typing assignment which was not that difficult but not being used to the typewriter I didn't do so well. So I hand wrote a letter of excuse, a long one, to apologize for not getting it right the first time.

The secretary was so impressed with my excuse, she begged me to teach her to write that good. I said that I would.

By this time, my hair was flying out sideways in all directions and my blouse was hanging over the top of my skirt instead of being tucked in. It was pale yellow and grey plaid.

Work was over for the day and I had accomplished nothing and by the time I got home, it was 8 p.m.

I needed hairspray and new clothes, so I thought I would make a panic run to the store before 9 p.m closing time.

I figured I'd get there by quarter to 9 and have time to run in and grab something and run back out before closing time.

BUT, I didn't want to go alone and nobody else was home to go with me. In my mind, I was picturing where I was going to go and actually saw the place in my mind's eye while I was waiting.

Meanwhile, I was just standing around in the parking garage, watching other people make bumbling mistakes trying to park their cars.

I had to go to the bathroom before I left also, but didn't have a key to the closest building entrance either, and knew that if I drove to the store, I'd be dancing around with anxiety instead of shopping. But, I couldn't figure out a way to get into the building either.

Finally, someone came along who I knew and I tried to get his attention to let me use his key to the building where the bathroom was, but he didn't have the key to that building either, and I woke up frustrated at my inability to accomplish any task.

by Dee

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Aug. 98 - DREAM - Once I saw Amityville Horror the possession at the movies and I slept with a bible after that until I was in college. I don't know why a bible - I guess I thought it would ward off evil (I am not "religious" but consider myself spiritual). This dream coincides with me trying to learn to sleep in a dark room without a nightlight, and keep in mind that I was 18 years old and away at college.

Early one morning, I am guessing about 5 am, I dreamed that I was at home, was going in the door with a friend (I forget who it was). I opened the door  and my cat was acting very weird. It was literally scared of me. I realized something was wrong and kept asking my friend what was wrong with me. They either didn't know or wouldn't tell me. Then, out of no where, my room mate at the time became possessed with the devil. She grabbed me tightly on the wrist - I remember it hurt - and told me "you are mine." I said no I wasn't and got away somehow. The room was the same, but I remember a yellow couch barring the bathroom door. Weird. This dream is also weird to me now because I dont' believe in "the devil" as an entity anymore. But this dream was very real and scared me so much that I awoke almost immediately and thought there was a presence with me in the room for quite some time. I couldn't sleep well for days.

by Nicole

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8-13-98 - DREAM - I was in West Allis, WI on 70th and Greenfield at a book store. I came outside to where I left my car to go home. In the parking space was a black with silver striped car that was an open convertible. I went to open the door and the whole car moved and made a sound like a tin toy. I realized that wasn't my car and then saw my car parked on the sidewalk.

My car was black with a silver stripe but was not a convertible. However, there was no passenger side door, nor was there a floor or seat where the passenger would sit. This was strictly a solo car.

I looked at it carefully to make sure it was mine, then walked around to the right side of the car to make sure I was taking everything home that I had come with.

It seemed more like a bicycle from the right side and I had racks with black puses and black satchels and books.

I walked around to the driver's side and the keys were hidden under a blue piece of cloth by the driver's door and practically fell out into my hand.

My friend Monica from my UFO group appeared then and I asked her to come home with me.

First I had to make sure the car ran okay. I put the key in the ignition and it started right up. It had real power.

The next scene popped in, we were already at home and I saw movement out of the corner of my eye. I said to Monica, "Did you see that?" and as I watched I had a live doll baby and the baby began to slowly inch it's way up the wall and began patting the cheek of a picture of a woman which was hanging high up on a wall. There was real love and affection in it's petting action.

My husband came home then and I looked around quickly to make sure the house was clean. It was.

I had to go to the bathroom then and when I did, I got the shock of my life. The bathtub was full of water, and the shower stall in the corner was full of water. The bathtub, the floor, the shower stall, was FULL of red and white towels trying to soak up the water, and I could see the water streaming across the floor toward the hallway.

Then I saw the shower curtain was falling down (It too was red and white exactly like the towels) and someone had cut in in two places with a scissors in deliberate destruction.

I was sitting on the toilet and needed to wipe myself and even the brown toilet paper (like paper toweling) was wet and useless.

I sat there helpless and screamed my husband's name... "J.B." I suddenly became afraid but screamed his name again in almost a shriek... "JB"

by Dee

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8-27-98 - I went back to sleep and now met a man and a woman dressed in black and white. I seemed to be dressed in the same black and white clothes. He had a long protrusion like a unicorn but it was by his belly button. He rammed the protrusion from his belly button through my body and said, "Now you are healed."

In the dream I woke up in a hospital bed and saw a flock of bright green pheasants out the window. They were strolling through the yard. I had seem many brown pheasants in my life, but these were bright green. Occasionally, one would ruffle it's feathers and it would shimmer reddish-brown, but turn bright green again. I was amazed at their coloration and at how many there were. More and more of them gathered together as they began moving toward the west.

Another girl patient was in my room and my young son Bob was visiting. I hollered to them, "Is this real or am I dreaming this?"

I knew the flock was getting ready to take off into flight and it would be too late for them to see the green pheasants out my window, so I told them to look out another window on the north side of the room where they would appear next. I said, "Tell me if I'm dreaming or not."

They managed to get to the other window just in time to see the green flock take off towards the west. "It's a sure sign of fall," I said.

The nurse came in then and I was sitting up in bed. I said, "I think I feel better now. It's time for me to go home." I reached up to the top of my head. It was wrapped in a scarf. I took off the scarf and there were dozens of rollers my hair and my hair felt wet. I said, "Oh! My hair isn't dry yet." I patted my head on top of the rollers a few times to be sure I was right.

I looked at my bed then. Under the covers, on the sheet, were little flakes of white. It resembled coconut, but I don't know what it was. I felt rather embarrassed about it, but didn't know what to do about it either.

I said to the other girl, "You want to listen to my radio?" I had a walk-man with me. She said, "No!" but the next time I looked, she had the earphones over her head and was enjoying the music playing and looked happy.

I had to go to the bathroom really bad, so went out into the hallway to find the bathroom. I ended up in a room where there were small toilets, but it appeared to be a kitchen and I thought it was very inappropriate to have toilets in a kitchen and refused to use one. Another woman was also looking for a toilet and sat down on one of the silver metal toilets that had double sealed metal on top and she laughed and said, "I look like Mary ____ or something."

So I left the room to find another bathroom. I wasn't finding any, so went outside. I was wearing a light brown sheath dress with a light brown jacket and went walking down the street. There were people everywhere. I saw new construction up in the next block and thought maybe the crew had a toilet with them. I walked up there and found only children playing amongst the framed in building.

I had to go really bad by now and thought maybe I could go behind some bushes. I found a spot just as a car pulled into the parking lot up hill from where I was. I had taken my jacket off and thought, "They'll know I peed here because I have my jacket off." But I was desperate, squatted down and peed." I shook myself off like a guy does so there wouldn't be any wet spot on my dress and stood up again. So, I walked back up the street feeling a lot better, but every guy I came to grinned at me because I had my jacket off and that automatically meant that I had peed outside.

I knew I had to go home now and met up with the other patient from my room and her mother who had parked her car outside our room. I got into the car and the woman looked backwards and began driving backwards at a great rate of speed. I decided I wasn't going to freak out even though the backwards speed felt bad, but she didn't go too far and I got out of the car to walk the rest of the way myself. I knew I was going to have to go back to the hospital and get my stuff I left behind, but decided to worry about that later.

by Dee

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8-28-98 - DREAM - I was at work in my Jackson St. building. I had a meeting with the boss on the 3rd floor. He asked me about the work of one of my co-workers. She was supposed to have changed locks on an apartment and had'nt done it. I held the two lock slides side b side to compare them. They were supposed to be the same and they weren't. He said hew as going to write her up for it.

I kind of felt a sense of, "I'm better than she is" kind of pride about it.

I then went down to the 1st floor where I spotted a huge wad of money laying on top of some coats. I grabbed it. I shoved it under my shirt to hide it. The man who owned the money was right behind me but I didn't want to give it back to him nor could I now admit I had taken it. The money kept trying to slid out from under my shirt and I had trouble hiding it from the other people around me. At one point, it slid out and I looked at it. It now no longer was green but was red-orange and was attached to a long newspaper clipping about bogus money. The man had been planning to take this money to the bank to turn it in as fake. I couldn't even use it if I wanted to.

I then found what looked like garbage in the hall. It was a small box of junk and a pitchfork with 5 tines on it. It belonged to an old woman.

I kind of hid in a closet to go through the stuff. There was an old stained deck of playing cards called, "Granny." It looked like some were missing but they were cute and I thought I could put them in my collection of old playing cards.

There were some useless pieces of used cardboard where she had removed sewing thread and needles in projects she had done over the years. There were a couple more little things I didn't recognize and then there was the pitchfork. It was old and rusted but still usable in my garden.

I no sooner picked up the stuff and I could hear the old woman behind me asking people of they saw her garbage. I didn't want to give it back, and I was feeling really guilty for that, but I still didn't want to give it back because I didn't want to be labeled as a thief.

I ran for the elevator but I didn't want to stand and wait for it and get caught, so when the door opened, I ran inside to hide without looking to see where it went or who was on it.

At the same time, another elevator opened up on the opposite side of the hallway and someone I couldn't see gave me instructions to install a Nintendo set on that elevator with 3 sets of buttons on it. I hollered "Okay!" across the hall just as my own elevator door was closing.

I then looked at my elevator driver. He was a tall black man with shiny skin and devious looking eyes. There was no walls on this elevator, just a floor to stand on and he showed me that you could look down into the darkness of the elevator shaft below. It was scary and I looked at the wall as we were passing a floor. It said 5B and then B.

I knew I was on the wrong elevator but I had to get home with my stolen stuff to hide it.

When I got to my apartment, there were small children and babies there who needed caring for, but I couldn't do it because I had to hide my stolen stuff. I was not only feeling more and more guilty for taking it, but I could hear the old woman coming behind me asking everyone she met if they had seen her stuff.

I hid the pitchfork in the closet behind some stuff, but the handle still shooed and I didn't have time to hide the handle behind the coats. There was a young girl there about 12 years old, wearing a long sleeved rose colored sweater. I asked her, "Quick! Do you have a garbage bag?"

She helped me pull out my own garbage bag which I grabbed and dragged into the bathroom. I was going to shove the stolen garbage in the bottom of my own garbage bag to cover it with my own garbage and hide it in the bathroom.

I shoved it in the bag, but I couldn't close the door because the baby needed changing and the two toddlers had strewn all kinds of toys around so I couldn't close the door.

So, while I was trying to quickly clean up the children's messes, the old woman was getting closer and closer, still asking people about her stuff.

I was forced to confide in the rose sweatered girl that I had stolen the stuff hoping she would help me hide it. I begged her to help me.

I was still hanging on her arm, begging for help when the old woman caught up to me.

She began telling us that her garbage had been stolen, then started telling us what she was going to use it for. She was going to balance the pitchfork on top of her toilet tank and cover it with Christmas stickers so nobody would notice that it was a pitchfork but would look like a cradle for the baby Jesus.

I visualized this while she spoke. As she continued talking, I could see into my own garbage bag. There was like a long music roll box with an outline of religious practices and philosophies. I almost pulled it back out of the garbage, thinking I ought to keep it but knowing that there was a new version out that had replaced it and there was no point in saving it and it would be as bad as the old woman trying to cover up the old rusty pitchfork with Christmas stickers.

I started to wake up, still seeing the list of old religious philosophies sliding past my eyes on a computer screen, I tried to make my mind go up to FILE-SAVE on the computer screen and was having difficulty doing this, so when the big bold statement came up: 'THERE IS A HAPPY ENDING!"

by Dee

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9-1-98 - DREAM - I was in an apartment building. I got hired by the government to spy on New York and New Jersey ET events so I had a special machine which got installed in my closet for reports to come in for those two states plus the Federal Government.

On my bedroom wall was a special TV only about ETs and other people could post messages about ETs.

No sooner did the stuff get hooked up, but people started coming in to interfere, take up my time with nonsense and take me away from my incredible TV computer which glowed green on the wall.

Also, a newspaper cartoon section began in the Sunday newspaper about ETs. I was clipping out pictures about ETs. I was clipping out pictures to use to scan into the computer, so I went home and asked my oldest son Michael if he would save his newspaper so I could collect them whole as well since mine were cut up.

Three sets of people came to visit which interfered with my getting back to my ET wall TV/computer.

Some young punk teens came...3 boys. A black boy from the group saw my secret equipment and he told the other two boys about it, but they were so caught up in talking about fast cars, they didn't get what he was saying.

Some men came over, three of them, like my Father, his brother and his son and they didn't catch on to what I was doing either. In fact, they turned off the light in the road, and were watching Star Wars movies instead of paying attention to the real thing.

A mother and her little toddler son came in and somehow he spilled green paint in big splotches on top of an orange blanket, so they had to use one of my bathrooms to try scrub the green paint out of the blanket in the bathtub.

Some other women people came then to discuss how my wringer washer worked then because they had never seen anything like it and my last visitation was by a man who wanted to tell me how to raise my pet bird. I had the bird in the bathroom where he had the most freedom I could give him outside of a cage and the man thought I should raise him in the other bathroom where he could have more red toys and rods and grids to sit on, but thats where the furnace was and I thought it was too hot.

Finally, the woman and her son were finished scrubbing on the paint on the blanket. It didn't all come out, but I looked at the other side and it didn't bleed through, so I spread the blanket out on the bed to dry and arranged it so it was folded in thirds in such a way that the paint spots didn't show, only the orange part.

Finally I got everyone out of the house so I could get back to my ET TV/computer which was still glowing green on the wall.

by Dee

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9-10-98 - DREAM - I was in my apartment, seemingly on Jackson St., in Milwaukee. My son Tom came to visit for the day and asked if he could bring a couple psychic friends over. I thought that was pretty exciting and would be fun so I said, "Okay!"

First a young blonde woman came in and we started to converse, but I wasn't hearing what she was saying because the radio was on, so I went to turn off the radio which was on the other side of the room. I came back and sat down and as soon as she started to talk, the radio was back on, so I had to shut it off again. As soon as I came back and she said two words, again the radio was playing. This time the radio next to my right shoulder was playing. I shut that one off and that ended the problem.

By now, Tom had brought several more people in. Two guys were over 7 feet tall. Tom is 6'6" tall and these two guys were way taller than Tom.

Two of the women also came in who were psychics and Tom explained that he had wanted the older women psychics to examine the two guys who were seemingly telepathic with each other.

The older women started with the younger girl. They went to stand in front of a large mirror and the younger girl started talking like a young child. I could barely understand what the child was saying. (Cannot remember either) Then she started speaking like an older man with a foreign accent. (Cannot remember the words) By now I was wondering if she was going to examine me too.

Meanwhile, one of the tall guys was writing on my wall in blue chalk. There was a date of March 1, 1996. He wrote under the date, "When you had the dream of the baby on this date, did you become more psychic?"

I knew I was going to have to check my dream journal and see what I dreamed that day.

Then I noticed that the same guy had drawn the outline of a huge mural on the wall in my livingroom. It was huge and covered the whole wall. In the background was a huge oriental temple and in the foreground were trees and flowers and in the center were 3 different beasts of burden. I was hoping it could all be painted in.

I was really excited by now, but I had to go to the bathroom. I went down the hallway, but one of the guys was already in the bathroom, so I started searching for another bathroom. I remembered I had a second bathroom inside the bedroom. When I got there, a young blonde woman was in there and just about to come out, but when I indicated I needed to close the door she moved aside but on the inside of the door, so that when the door closed, she was still inside the room. I was thinking to myself how stupid that was and I opened the door again and had to physically grab the woman by the arm and steer her out the door. Then I noticed that when I grabbed her arm, the girl had no lower arms or hands. I tried not to cringe when I touched her and hurt her feelings, but it was hard not to cringe.

I went outside then and an orange cat came along with a big yellow tropical fish in his mouth, like a triangle with a black stripe on it. The cat wanted to go into the building so I opened the door for it. I knew that was a mistake right away because the cat ran up the stairs and began eating the fish and immediately the fish oil began dripping through the ceiling onto the floor where I was standing and seeping through the wall.

The stairs and walls were all brown wood and I started climbing the stairs to get the cat and when I got half way up the stairs, the stairs disappeared and there I was, standing in the air against the wall way up high. I started freaking out and sliding back down the wall, but I mentally remembered where the stairs were and again started climbing them because I believed they were there.

When I got upstairs, I was seemingly back in my apartment but there was no furniture and no people and it was all brown wood. The room started flipping back and forth from real looking to cartoon looking, to real, to cartoon, back and forth. I knew it was time to get out of there and woke up.

by Dee

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9-22-98 - DREAM - I was working in a place where I lived. I was the manager so I only had to go downstairs to work. I woke up in the dream, but I had a hard time staying awake. The sun was shining, but something seemed wrong that I couldn't stay awake. I went outside and the sun was just above the horizon. It was just a bright ball in the sky, then it seemed to go backwards in the sky and the stars came back out again. I had never seen the sun do that before. I could see the sun was going to come back up again though, the rays were coming up from behind huge dark clouds. Then, the stars faded, the sun came back up and became a ball of light again.

I went back inside and worried that I wasn't going to be ready on time. I had my blue dress on but it wasn't buttoned.

I heard the working guys arriving...the maintenance men had arrived for work. I scooted back inside my apartment and darted inside the bathroom to try to button my dress. I got the top button done, but the middle button came off, and then the lower button came off.

So, I had to run back to my bedroom and get a different dress. In my room was an old fashioned looking clock that had a wooden frame around it like an old school clock, but down towards the bottom, it gave a series of odds for horse races. The bottom one said 0380 or something like that. I wondered if David, one of the workers would like to bet on that.

Instead of going to the office where they'd notice I was late, I went outside to see what had to be done. The sun was shining outside and people were trying to park their cars in the proper parking spaces and I noticed I hadn't finished moving all my furniture in yet. Two dressers were still in the gutter of the street by the parking space and were in the way there. So I went to get them.

One of the workers came over and asked me if he could help me. At that point I had just jumped over some rain puddles and had caught a glimpse of some frogs jumping off in the distance towards the west.

The worker told me that his wife had put some furniture on layaway and it was time to go get it. He suggested to me that I had better check my supplies and make sure I had everything I needed too.

He said his wife had been making payments for 7 years and it was time to go get their stuff. I looked over to where the furniture was that I was moving in. I saw what it was I still needed...a sewing machine.

by Dee

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10-12-98 - DREAM - I played a dual or triple role in this dream. I not only had two jobs, I had my own business as well.

To begin with, I come to my job and realized I hadn't been there in about a week and was behind with everything. There was things to catch up on, things to sort out, mail to pick up, keep to find, clothes to change and do all this without anyone knowing that I hadn't been there or was behind. So, while I did all the normally mundane things. I had to be furtive in doing everything and pretending like I was in charge of my activities and I pulled it off quite well though there was so much mail, I had to make several trips. In the midst of it, my sister, who is a Jehovah's Witness (they don't celebrate holidays) sent me huge piles of Christmas presents which included two huge boxes of wrapping paper, enough to wrap gifts for not only me and the family, but half a city block of people.

I went to one department where a black woman was working. She told me that I was supposed to show her how to do something but all I was interested in at the time was looking to see what kind of necklaces with gemstones that she had in the jewelry case.   I did that and moved on to where I had to change clothes.

I went to my bedroom, which I obviously shared with other women like a dormitory. There was a beautiful slim woman there who told me that while I was gone, one of the other women had organized all my clothes. I was astounded to see that every item of clothing had its own drawer with a label on the outside explaining what it was. At the moment I wanted a pair of size 9 underpants and I was able to go right to the correct drawer and pick out what I wanted.

Finding a place to change clothes was more difficult though because there were men in the bathrooms and they were 'busy' and I couldn't find an empty bathroom to change. At this point I was running around in high heeled shoes and a swirly skirt like a dancer and it felt great to be so agile and I recalled in the dream how beautiful my legs were.

It was during this part of the dream that I had to go past 3 men sitting on stools and I wanted them to admire my breasts which they could hardly miss dong as I had to squeeze past them quite closely where I was. The one I liked the most, I was no more than3 inches from his nose and after I passed him I saw that my blouse was unbuttoned and I had to quickly fasten the 3 bottom buttons before anyone else saw me half clothed.

From there I went to another place to make a delivery and was dismayed to find the place so full of people. I told them that I was hired to pain the apartment. It had high ceilings and large rooms. I could see it had been started and some yellow vinyl walls were being painted over with white. I was able to plan out how to finish the job but couldn't do it while so many people were there.

I was supposed to have a date and the box up on the wall on the upper level like a balcony remained empty and the guy didn't show up, but later, Bob Hope...the comedian...appeared wearing a comic blonde wig half askew and he and I had a comic repartee where I accused him of not showing up for the date and he made wisecracks about me not showing up either. (I realized after I woke up that Bob Hope's wife's name is Dolores and she once was a great singer and still does that on occasion.)

NOTE: On Oct. 24, 1998, the National Enquirer reported that a new book out has accused Bob Hope of keeping a mistress until he was 90 (he is now 95) and that his marriage with his wife Dolores was a sham.

When I got all my tasks done, I simply woke up.

by Dee

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10-15-98 - DREAM - I had a small canning jar with a couple small fish in it. I took it upstairs to the bathroom. I intended to just sit the jar in the bathtub, but when I got there, the bathtub was full of water almost to the lip. (The tub was rectangle and only 4" deep) The jar slipped and the fish fell out into the water.Then I saw that there were all manner of colors of tropical fish. They were swimming around in the water but some of them flipped out onto the floor and were flopping around. I tried to scoop them up and get them back into the water, but I couldn't do that without hurting them. But then I saw that they could get back up into the water all by themselves by climbing up a vine that was hanging on the edge of the tub. Seeing that, I decided to leave them alone, but then a huge triangle shaped bug jumped out of the viney area. He was so big and nasty looking, I ran out of the room to get a fly swatter.

For some reason I went to my neighbor's house to get the fly swatter. I was wearing my blue bathrobe and black penney loafer shoes and that's all.  

When I got there, I forgot about the fly swatter and was told that a psychic David Bondi was in the basement meditating. I ran down there to see him. He was in a room across from the door and was more or less leaning up against the wall covered with a brown blanket with just his head sticking out. (I never heard of someone named David Bondi)

I began talking to him like he knew who I was and I told him the prophecy of the young Mrs. Kennedy losing her child and demonstrated with my hands how pregnant she was when it happened - 4 to 5 months. When I did that I noted that my own stomach looked kind of pregnant too but not as far along.

As soon as I finished telling him the prophecy, he turned and walked away like he wasn't interested and didn't care, so I did the same and went back towards the stairs. By the stairs was the door to the laundry room. However, the doorway was blocked by boards and bricks with only an opening a few inches high. Certainly not high enough for a human being to get through.

Behind the stairway was an opening that was higher, but not a doorway, just a hole with broken boards. I was glad that mine was done because nobody else was going to be able to do theirs if it wasn't already done.

I then went back upstairs. At this point I had some large fish I was supposed to cook for dinner and they fell out of a brown paper bag onto the sidewalk. Dismayed, I bent over to rescue the fish and saw that one had been cut open and it's guts were hanging out. I was so disgusted, I couldn't bear to cut up the other fish, so I left them lay on the sidewalk for the birds to eat. They were all dead already so it didn't seem that I was doing anything bad.

I then gathered up my robe around me and started walking back across a big field to my house. I saw three women coming down the front steps of my house so in order to catch them and see what they wanted, I only glimpsed a peek at the carnival rides being set up in the field that told me it was almost the 4th of July. I also noticed that fresh ground had been laid out for this event.

I ran up to the women and told them who I was. They said that they were interested in buying house in our subdivision. I explained that I didn't know which house was the model house or where the office was but I assured them that there was one and indicated that it was up the hill and around the corner. (Our street was curved and uphill)

I went up the stairs on the porch to the front porch (door #1) . It was colored brown and locked tight. So, I went around the corner of the porch where there was another door (door #2) This door was white and wide open, so I went into the house.

I entered the livingroom and started walking through the house. Over in the corner, I saw water pouring out of the ceiling. I just screamed, "Oh my God!, the bathtub is running over." I ran up the stairs to the bathroom. Where the tub had been was now a bed and my daughter and her friends were jumping on the bed. I told them to stop and was going to ask about the water and the fish when my daughter's friend (Allison) said something sarcastic. (Her face was small and triangle shaped towards the bottom and just the sight of her made me feel angry) I can't even remember what she said, but I was so incensed by her attitude, I slapped her face. I didn't slap her hard and I know it didn't hurt her, so I slapped the other side of her face too. It wasn't hurting her so I was getting madder and madder. I grabbed her and held her upside down and started slamming her head on the bed. I still wasn't hurting her to my satisfaction and in my increasing anger, I felt like I wanted to kill her. I finally threw her down and walked out of the room with my daughter and told her, "You are never to play with her again. Understand?"

by Dee

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10-17-98 - DREAM - Joe and I moved into this new apartment building. I'm sure this was the same building at the previous dream. I was a teacher of the children here. We lived on the 3rd floor. Joe and I were in our apartment and Becky (my ex-daughter-in-law) came to visit. The door to the hallway was open and the couple across the hall was having a fight. A tiny little girl came walking into the apartment and came over to where Joe and I were sitting. Her name was Judy. Joe picked her up and she climbed over onto my lap and I held her. I wanted Becky to see her. Judy was a tiny child like in the previous dream. She had little legs and arms but a bigger head and thin blonde hair. Becky wasn't paying attention, just looking around the apartment.

I tried to get her attention, but then she went to the bathroom to "take a crap" and she  didn't see the child. The child left and then I had to take Becky back out of the building and we went down the elevator. The door opened on the 2nd floor and I could see on the 2nd floor was still under construction. when I came back to the building, I stopped at the little gift shop by the front door of the lobby. All three items were for sale and had been hand crafted by people who lived in the building. I had to move a black shiny bicycle to see the items . I couldn't get it to stand up by itself so had to lay it down.  

I particularly payed attention to two items. One was a stained glass candle holder. It was an upright box. The edges were made of thin sticks of wood. The walls of the box on the lower sides were opaque greyish white glass and on the top were various triangles of blue green, red and yellow. It was really pretty. One of th e other items which I looked very closely at a series of thread works similar to tatting. It was made of thin sticks frames and n between the sticks the thread work was done in intricate knots. The thread was very thin crochet cotton of bright blue. the price on the 3 inch one was $272. There were two smaller sizes and two larger sizes. The two larger ones were labeled "Ask for price". they were that expensive. I wanted to try to make this myself but knew I wouldn't remember the design. I thought maybe I could xerox the pattern but there were o the people in the shop and I couldn't sneak one out and copy the pattern.

The building maintenance man came in then and wanted to make an appointment to  come upstairs. He sat down at a table. I told him he was going to have to call before he came up. I had trouble coming up with the number because we had just moved in. I said it was 278-3874. I had to emphasize the 3 because it was trying to look like a 5. I told him he had to be there before 10 p.m. because the aliens came between 10 and 11:30 p.m.

I put the bicycle away before I left. I then went to the elevator. The door opened and a tall, thin, black woman got off. The elevator was dark inside. She said, "One other is going up with you."

I hesitantly got on the elevator not knowing what to expect. When I turned around to face the door the light brightened in the elevator and I saw a tall thin blonde woman standing to my right. Since I'm almost 6 foot tall myself, the blonde woman had to be at least 7 feet tall.

As the elevator went up, the door opened on the 2nd floor as it had on the way down. I told the woman that this floor was under construction but was surprised to see how much work had been done since I went down the elevator. They were in process of putting pink insulation into the walls of the rooms now.

The door closed and we ascended to the 3rd floor. The door opened and we both got off the elevator. Ahead of us were brightly lit showcases full of jewelry of gold and silver. I particularly noticed a pair of earrings that were made of many long strands of gold linked together and it glittered in the light. The woman admired the jewelry and I said, "This is nothing!" You should see the showcase down this way...pointing down the hall toward where my apartment was.

At the same time, I noticed that there was a railing beyond the showcases where one could look over at something several stories down. (In several other dreams there were exotic animal places.) This time I didn't look because I heard someone screaming from way down the hall towards where my apartment was.

The man was screaming, "Aliens! Aliens! Aliens!" From that I knew it had to be 10 p.m. but I didn't want to confront the screaming man. (Note: I wasn't afraid of the aliens, I just didn't want to confront the screaming, out of control man) So, I rant into an open closet where the light was on. I tried to shut off the light but it wouldn't go off and I tried to shut the door and it just swung through. The door was shaped really weirdly. It was narrow on the top and really wide at the bottom, with one side on an angle like a trapezoid.

I could hear the man coming down the hall still screaming, "Aliens! Aliens! Aliens!" I ducked down behind a dresser-like thing with drawers in it, hoping he wouldn't see me if he came into the closet, but he ran all the way into the closet anyway, and I had to stand up and calm him down. when I got done explaining that everything was all right, he started singing the line from the song that goes, "Life is just a bowl of cherries."  

NOTE: I told Joe about the glass candle holder. He asked me if I could draw it and I  said, "Yes!" He wants to make one. I went on the computer and found on-line instructions for tatting, macrame, and string art. Now we are in business.

by Dee

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10-21-98 - DREAM - I was in the same place. The events themselves were shown to me in a VISION to be a river of lights going by and I could barely type fast enough to record them all.

Because of the involvement, I was asked to go with the President of the U.S. to Madison to make a speech about this. I agreed to go. The President was supposed to arrive at 6 p.m. and we were to leave immediately for Madison which would be a 4 hour plane ride. (4 hours might represent 4 months) (NOTE: It only takes an hour to get to Madison, WI from Milwaukee, WI. Madison is the Capital of the State. Madison might represent Washington, D.C.)

My cousin Shirley and my daughter were invited to go along and so were Joe and his relatives. I had never been on a plane before and was nervous about it but was okay about going because it was with the President and I would feel safe enough.

I was ready to go and had my bags ready to go including suit bags, but things began to go wrong. My cousin Shirley and my daughter didn't show up at all and didn't call. I tried to use the phone and it was tied up by some insurance people.

It was now 5 minutes past 6 p.m. and the President hadn't arrived either. I was thinking it would be easier to go in the morning instead of this hassled trip, but I couldn't use the phone to change the reservation.

It was now quarter past 6 and it was rumoured that the President's plane had landed but he had stopped for a dalliance on the way to the hotel where I was waiting.  Finally the President was arriving outside the hotel and I decided I'd better go to the bathroom first before we left. Everyone else had the same idea at the same time. The waiting lines for the bathroom were so long, the hotel provided chairs in the hallway for the ladies to sit down while they waited. The men didn't seem to have that problem.

I decided I could wait and picked up my bags to go on the trip. I became aware that we were going to go by car and T.J. would be driving and we'd be able to get to Madison in 3 hours instead of 4 by plane.

by Dee

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Date: 11/10/98 1:37:41 PM Central Standard Time
From: dreamlink@earthlink.net (Bryon Smith)

For the past several days I have not been writing my dreams down for one reason or another. Many of them have not been overly interesting. Then Sunday night I had two dreams that came true the very next day. My wife had one dream that also came true.

In one dream I dreamed that we were living in a double wide trailer house on the edge of a big hole. Someone had come literally destroyed our bathroom. Removed the bathtub and the toilet. Moved the good old toilet under a shelf where it couldn’t be used and installed a second one under the sink where it could not be used. I was really upset. I went looking for my wife to show her the damages.

I can’t remember if I did find her in this dream but went back into the restroom as if I were showing it to someone. There was a false wall where the tub had been removed. I leaned on it and fell right through it. The wall and all fell away into that large hole on the back side of the building. I managed to grab onto some dirt and things as I slid down and finally caught myself. I was about 10 feet or so below the building and about 50 feet above the bottom of the hole. I started to climb back up when the dream ended.

Second dream I was talking to the mortgage banker and he told me it was going to cost us right at $2000 to refinance the house.

Dawn’s dream, she dreamed the mortgage banker wouldn’t even talk to us.

Monday we went to see him. I told Dawn about my dreams while we were on our way. She asked me if we should even bother to go and I said that we should at least go see what happens. We did and he told us it would cost us $2000 to refinance our house. Then he told us that the company that holds the mortgage on our house all ready has lower interest rates but to get them you must call them and ask them for their lower rates. Better deal all the way across.

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The rest room being tore up means "no real rest or satisfaction" in relation to our course of action.

The big hole in the ground behind the house represents the hole we are in financially.

The business of the $2000 was right on the money and given that I know nothing about these things and no one had told me how much it would cost before hand I find this interesting. My dream knew the exact price of refinancing the house.

Her dream was also right since this man didn’t actually consider refinancing our mortgage for us.

Bryon (dream-link.org)

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11-23-98 - DREAM - I went to a house and was taking care of a baby. The woman there had to gather all her friends while I did this. I was told that an old woman had peed in her pants because she couldn't make it to the bathroom. I went in there and the pee was in a puddle half an inch deep and four feet across. I helped her to her feet so she could get changed into dry clothes.

Then I told the woman who owned the house to pull up all the carpet and get rid of it. The whole thing was all ratty looking anyway.

by Dee

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12-6-98 DREAM - (This is weird) I went to work part-time t o make a few extra dollars. I got a job in an office which I think was on 92nd St, but not positive about that. I don't even know what I did there, just hung around and have no idea how much I made per hour.

The boss came in. I think his name was Paul. He looked like kind of a shady character. This is when things changed. Now that we were preparing a quote for a party they were going to have for someone. I got the idea it was political. They seemed a little inept at doing this. A woman came in and sat in front of the front window on a chair while the rest of us scrambled around figuring out what this party was going to cost. The main secretary climbed up on a ladder and started remodeling an upper room that was long and narrow.

The bosses birthday was coming. I have him 6 cards myself. Other people were giving him cards that were sparkly on the outside, hundreds of them. Mine felt inadequate at the moment. Everyone wanted to give only the best.

Suddenly they told me that the bookkeeping was being moved to Bellevue office. I didn't know who was going to replace her, but suddenly after I did only one small calculation for the party, the offered me a $4.50 per hour raise and told me I would have to train on Bellevue. I knew I'd have to get my brown car but it would only be temporary.

The boss wanted to win an election and didn't know if he could win. I looked at the map and suggested that if he moved the precinct lines he had a better change because it divide the properties of party lines better.

For some reason they were measuring the upper room with 6 menstrual pads and they were full of blood. I thought maybe I had my period and didn't know it. They had to be matched up two by two. Nobody went alone...only two by two nd they measured the upper room with 6 limp pads and I knew I could do better if I doubled that number to 12.

I hollered, "Party!!!!!!" My boss all of a sudden seemed to like me better, but I felt ill at ease because arranging parties was not my idea of a great job.

I went outside to go home and I was still standing on th porch when I heard glass break around the corner. All of a sudden, I saw 3 thieves standing there and knew they saw me see them.

I felt I needed to hide so they wouldn't try to hurt me because I was a witness, as I ran back inside the building. Things seemed to go a little wild now. One girl there needed to go to the bathroom and couldn't find it. I knew there was one way at the back through a long hallway where there was a secret apartment. There was also an older black woman who got scared about the 3 thieves too so I sent her back there too to hide.

Now, I felt like I was where I belonged. I was giving orders and saving people from what seemed like sure disaster. I herded the people through a long dark hallway way to the back, pulled their ratty looking coats off of doorways where they were hung up. The black woman said she didn't need her ratty looking green coat, but I told her that if she didn't take it, the thieves would know someone was hiding back here.

There were some rooms where I could see the lights were on, but I chose the darkest room to hide in. I didn't even turn the light on and herded these people into the room to hide. There was a younger, chubby guy there too. I didn't know who he was but I let him stay.

Then I ran out front and hid the entrance to the secret hideaway room with a pile of C.D.s I ran down the darkened hall and saw that the light was now on in the room and the carpet was red. Loud music was playing and they welcomed me by singing, "The Queen of the Red Room!".

by Dee

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12-29-98 - DREAM - I was living on Jackson St. It seemed that I had been ill or in the hospital and the maintenance crew and some other people had packed all my stuff to move me from apartment 118 to apartment 311 or 310. They even had an entire outfit in white for me to change into before I moved upstairs.

I also had to go to the bathroom before I moved upstairs.

One of the maintenance men went with me when I went upstairs. It was obvious I was managing the building and picking up little pieces of trash as I went. On the 3rd floor, two little girls had arranged a series of stones and rocks on the carpet where it wasn't fastened down even on the floor. This was their way of protesting the imperfection of the carpet. I picked up all the stones and rocks and carried them to my apartment.

I wanted to go to the grocery store but my Father was making a speech in the Great Hall and I didn't want him to know I wasn't listening to it, so I was trying to plan how I could get to my car in the parking lot without him seeing me.

by Dee

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1-1-99 - DREAM - Dee - I cannot remember how the dream started, but I was in a huge building with corridors and I wanted to find a bathroom. I ended up in a room where men were standing by their beds in almost full body casts and I knew I was in the wrong place. I wanted to find my own apartment and I was in the hallways and elevators with a variety of extremely short chubby women. I finally found my own place and I wanted to change clothes. I was hunting and hunting for something to wear and couldn't find anything. In my memory, I could remember having the clothes, ...pretty pastel blouses skirts and dresses, etc. But they were all gone. Finally, I realized my husband had taken them all and I got so angry, I went to find him to accuse him of stealing my clothes. I didn't actually see him, but saw a long lump under the bed covers I assumed was him. I started accusing him of stealing my clothes. I was getting angrier and angrier and I finally said, "Why did you steal all my clothes?" The voice from under the blanket said, "I wanted you to know what it was like to be 'normal'!" I said, "Since when is it 'normal' not to have more than one blouse and one bra (which I was wearing). I was so angry, I started slamming doors and knocking stuff off cabinets and tables in the kitchen. I opened the door to leave and go out into the dark hallway and then realized I didn't have my keys, my purse, or my shoes. I almost went back to find them, but realized that as angry as I was, my husband could have me locked up in a mental hospital and have them give me a shot to calm me down. I then went out into the dark hallway without anything I needed to feel safe and secure.

I woke up with my chest all hot and burning like I was going to have a heart attack. I was so angry. It reminded me of all the times I had been angry at him when I was actually married to him back in the old days of the 60's and 70's when I had to beg him to let me buy underwear even though I deserved it because mine were full of holes. I still feel angry when I think of how much under his thumb I had been. (That was the least of it. Believe me!)

As I was laying in bed trying to calm down and thinking about the dream, I heard Joe, who was laying next to me, calling me..."Honey! Wake me up! Honey! Wake me up!" This was not the first time Joe had been in a lucid dream he could not wake up from, so I jostled his arm and he woke up instantly.

by Dee

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1-14-99 - DREAM - This was a totally sad dream. A job I had done for a woman was over and I was being let go. I actually don't know what I did there at this large company except that I made a web page. Everyone seemed to be angry at me for something I had said but nobody would tell me what I had said. The boss I worked for never told me how much I was earning and I had no money. The room I spent the nights in was a bathroom that I was locked in. One woman who felt sorry for me slipped two dollar bills, some dimes and a small pile of used stamps under the door to try to help me out.

I managed to get out of the building at one point and went walking down the street. A farmer had left a small wagon with the last of his harvest by the side of the road for anyone to take. I looked in the one bag.Everything in it was unripe. I saw tomatoes, bananas, and corn, all so far from ripe they couldn't be eaten. Also in the cart were many watermelons which I didn't bother to look at because I wouldn't eat it anyway.

As I was walking away again an old man I knew from Milwaukee picked up the bag to take it home. My daughter-in-law Becky came along and took it away from him. At that point I picked up the bag again and everything was hot like it had been on a barbecue.

I went back to the office to get whatever was there I could take with me. I saw two coats, one brown tweed and one brown fur. I left both of them there. I was looking at the desk to see if there was anything there and a young girl came up to me so angry at me for what I had said. She got so angry she started to cry. I went over to her and put my arm around her shoulder while she cried. I saw she was pregnant...maybe 4 or 5 months. I had my hand on her stomach and her baby was kicking really hard. I asked her what was the matter. She said, "You told me he didn't love me."

She was speaking of the father of the baby. I said, "No! I never said he didn't love you. You ARE loved!" At this point her skin was very dark. I felt she represented another time and place. She said, "I thought I had nothing left to live for." Just then her baby kicked her again really hard and she got a big smile on her face and she knew she could live for the baby.

I went over to a table and sat down to contemplate what I was going to do next.

A short swarthy man and his short swarthy cohort came over and asked if I had another job to go to. I said, "No!" He said, "What were you paid here?" I said I didn't know. He said, "That's what I figured. I have a job for you.!" I said, "Oh?" He said, "Yes! I'll pay you ____" (like lira or some other foreign currency) It sounded better than nothing to me. I agreed that it was okay. I said, "You want to give me your business card so I know where to go?" He handed me the card.

It said, "Frank's Part Time Delivery Service." The address was on it and I was trying to make it out but I knew then as I held the card that it was a cover for something else and I started having visions of what I was really up against. I saw LUXAN as the place I would work and that my job was SPY and I saw CD, and then the logos of hundreds of companies I would be expected to spy on.

I woke up as these logos continued to flash in front of me.

by Dee

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Date: 01/14/1999 11:20:57 AM Central Standard Time
From: drmlink@ipa.net (Bryon Smith)

Dream that was sent to me and since it is about what we have been talking about lately here it is. See what you think.

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I had a dream this last summer and I was hoping you could shed some light on a possible meaning of this dream. First of all this dream is recurring though I'm not sure how many times I've had it, it has definitely been more than once. Also each time I have the dream it seems there is more revealed to me.

It takes place at this old farmhouse in Michigan where my mother's parents used to live, except the yard and barn are a little different in the dream than in real life. The yard is much smaller, along with the barn; and the barn has ivy growing all over one side. The dream starts with me standing in the front yard around dusk. I wander inside the house where my parents and aunts and uncles, from my mothers side of the family, are sitting around the kitchen table, in very dim light, playing cards. I wander back out to the barn and while looking at the side covered in ivy see a door which is not normally there, yet in the dream I know where it's at. I open the door and walk into an old unused bathroom. The water in the sink works, but there is no water in the toilet. It is at this point which the dream ended previously. When I had the dream this last summer I looked in the toilet and there was water, but it was very stagnant. I look at myself in this mirror which is also very dirty, then proceed to go to the bathroom. I walk back outside the barn, and notice a small crowd of people in the front yard. I walk over to where they are and realize that they are all looking up at the sky. While trying to figure out what they are looking at I see a bright light in the sky. I ask what's going on, and the person beside me nonchalantly replies that it is the end of the world. Suddenly I realize that the moon is unbelievably close to the earth, it seemed less than 30 miles away, and all of a sudden lots and lots of meteorites start flying through the atmosphere and hitting the earth. I run inside where all my relatives are still calmly playing cards and excitedly yell about whether they know what is going on outside. They calmly reply that they do and continue playing cards. This is when I woke up. When I woke up I had this unbelievable weird feeling-goosebumps, watery eyes, hair standing on end-and was wide awake and very excited. I remembered everything so explicitly as if there was some monumental importance to it. That same say I talked to at least 3 people about the dream experiencing the same weird feelings, and at this very moment while writing this letter I'm experiencing the same indescribable feeling.

Hope you can help,

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Quite a lot of people are having dreams of impending doom in earth’s future. I have had and still occasionally have dreams very similar to the one you describe here having the same basic meaning. The future holds certain disasters for us. Repetitive dreams like you mention are calling for your attention, as they are very important.

I can analyze your dream step by step and tell you the meaning of each set of symbols if you like. I can also condense it and give you the basic general meanings of certain selections of symbols.

The house and relatives you see is symbolic of different attitudes of different people, some of them are very close to you, relatives, family and friends. They have heard the warnings of impending disasters but they are unconcerned and intend to worry about it when or if it happens rather than to prepare themselves for it. A big part of the reason for this attitude is because they have heard so many others give warnings like this for so very long and yet nothing has really happened to fit the description of the disasters being foretold. It’s like saying, “there’s a prophet on every corner warning us of impending doom, yet where is it?” These people are frequently in the mind that if there is a God let him show himself and then we will believe. What they fail to understand is that disasters at a certain point in time were seen and foretold by prophets of God thousands of years ago. The people in that lifetime never saw these disasters manifested so they became unconcerned and complacent. What they fail to comprehend is that in the spirit there is no time as we understand it, only events that bring about change in the physical world.

They are at a table in the kitchen, which means they are discussing these things since kitchens and tables are symbolic of places where information is made ready and then consumed, or taken in and considered. They are playing cards as to symbolize they are literally gambling on their future and taking a chance that all will be well. Perhaps it won’t happen in their lifetime, who knows, Right?

The barn is significant in that barns are symbolic of places where people keep things. Things of all kinds and in this case since your dream is speaking about the “end times” or times before the great prophesied disasters on a world wide scale then your barn also deals with past records. You are entering the barn through a door that isn’t really there in real life. This means you are taking a rather unconventional approach to the concepts the dreams are dealing with. You enter not through the front but through the side door. Meaning that you choose who you talk to about it and not everything you consider will be made public at this point in time. The front is the public place and the back is the private place and the side is simply in-between public and private.

The restroom can represent two general symbols. One is that of “rest” or taking a break to gain some relief from the situation the dream is talking about. Another meaning is to cleanse ones self, either spiritually or physically or both. Mirrors give us the general meaning of “reflection.” This can do with taking a look at our own selves to see us as others see us or they can be indicating that we need to reflect on things the dreams are trying to tell us and consider them more seriously. (The exception to this mirror rule has to do with viewpoint dreams and this dream is not a viewpoint dream.)

The subject your dreams are dealing with is not a new subject at all, in fact it is a very old subject and the barn shows you that records have been made long ago about the very same subjects. Prophecies to be precise, about a time when disasters will hit the earth and affect the entire world in a very negative way. The prophets who saw these things in their day had no recollection of time. They had no real idea when these things would take place but they knew it would be in a time just before the great battles that were foretold and these were to happen shortly (a few years perhaps) before the return of the Savior.

When you come out of the barn you see people looking toward the sky and you want to know what’s going on. These are people like myself and now you who have joined them curious and who have been given these dreams and some insight into the future.

They are looking upward toward the sky and this symbolically means they are looking toward the heavens for answers and for signs. The moon itself is a symbolic heavenly symbol and being large and close to the earth means the time is drawing near when these events will unfold and manifest themselves in reality. Distance in dreams is directly relative to time. The closer they are the less time is involved.

…Bryon (dream-link.org)

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1-15-99 - DREAM - I was walking in an apartment building as manager. I was going around with my clipboard and pencil and paper making notes of things that weren't working.

Besides being a good dream symbol, I was looking for a working bathroom and only finding those that had no working toilets.

I heard some cops talking over a CB type radio that they were going to arrest someone for smoking out in front of the building. I thought that was a little extreme, but there was nothing I could do about it. That was the Law. As I walked outside, there were many people walking around the grounds...whole wedding parties. I didn't see a bride, but bridesmaids in shimmering watered silk gowns that actually glowed, walking alongside groomsmen in tuxedos.

I needed to get to another building and didn't see a sidewalk so took a shortcut along with many other people through a beautiful area of shimmering powdered white sand and then had to walk through huge wide beds of gorgeous flowers of white and pale yellow which were bordered by higher beds of flowers of rose colored flowers and greenery. Only one problem here, there were canyons of green that went way down into the earth and I could hear continuous announcements over a loudspeaker to avoid those areas. It really was dangerous and I made a note to have that fixed.

I said to myself, "I never appreciated concrete." It was really difficult to walk through all those flowers no matter how beautiful they were because I was in such a hurry.

A woman commented to her friend, "Won't all these flowers be damaged by us walking through them?" I assured her that they wouldn't be harmed. They were there for that purpose.

I continued on, searching for a bathroom and heading towards my office which was on the 3rd floor was at the other end of the complex.

Because I was way at the north end, I decided to take the freight elevator which maintenance used. When i got there, maintenance was working under the elevator in the pit and had light bulbs stacked up on the elevator to deliver to places where they had burned out.

I met several secretaries I know well from A-C and Simpson Electric. They were on their way to lunch break and there was a bank of food machines on this end of the building.

As I got on the elevator I had to really stretch to hit the large blue rectangular button for the 3rd floor. The girls told me that the 3rd floor had been remodeled. I was expecting nice...not what I found.

I was really in a hurry because I had to go to the bathroom so bad, so I was really rushing along. When I got off the elevator, the whole area had been remodeled into an area where people could gather, in a white cafeteria and get food. It had both little white tables and a counter area with stools. There were a lot of people up here.

It was past noon and I was anxious to get to my office. Past the cafeteria was a huge outdoor area with railings on the edges where you could look out tat the scenery. There was a huge fountain shooting up water in the center. Lots of people were up here sightseeing.

Where I was headed was the building left way at the south end. that was all that was left of this huge office building I worked in for so many years.

I finally got to it and opened the door. I hadn't realized it was so far. I must have dropped my clipboard or something. I put my hands down and my slacks dropped to my ankles. They were way too big for me. I pulled up my pants, feeling a little embarrassed but nobody saw me.

I was a little shocked at what this "remodeled" office area was. It was dark...stark...unpainted...poured concrete and a hard concrete floor.

The people I saw here were all 7 feet tall. One woman walking towards me was overheard to say, "I thought they said these were "finished offices." It was like the inside of a factory that has blast furnaces in it. It was really awful.

I still had to go to the bathroom so bad, so that when I met my old friend John DiTrappani who passed on in 1983 or so, I just said, "Hi John!" and hugged him quick and let go to move on quickly. He said, "I'm Christ!" (He used to weight 400 pounds) I noted there was a smaller woman dressed in a light blue robe and light beige gown behind him. I didn't see her face. I said, "I've really been wanting to see you for a long time, but I've really gotta run." I hugged him lovingly, but quickly. He said, "That's what everyone says!" I laughed and quickly moved on, looking for the bathroom and woke up.

(I really had to go bad.)

by Dee

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2-5-99 - DREAM - I met a woman and her daughter who were giving a demonstration in public for awareness of a disease which they both had. They both looked like they had a face full of small pimples. I remembered seeing a book in the library about their disease. So, I gave her the book and she was able to cure the disease.

I went with her to her house, and in that house was a man who was being held captive by his mother, but he kept himself captive actually by attaching his thumbnail to the bedpost at night with a thin chain. He could have broken that chain, or refused to attach it at any time but mentally he couldn't achieve that because he didn't believe in himself.

I thought I could help him like I helped the woman, by moving in with him, but I didn't discover how really mentally bad off he as until it was too late and I felt like a captive myself. His appearance became like _________(the comedian, all screwed up)

I had to go to the bathroom really bad but the man decided to go to the bathroom himself. It turned out that there were three bathrooms in this house, the mother's, the Father's and the sons.

The mother had suddenly left the house or died and the man was running back and forth from bathroom to bathroom, using them all himself. I was so desperate, I ran into the Father's bathroom and sat on the toilet. Too late I noticed that there wasn't any toilet paper. However, the man, the other woman and her daughter were there, so I asked them for toilet paper. The man had a roll of brown paper toweling but I wanted regular white toilet paper. They were all standing in the bathroom in front of me. I told him to go into the other bathrooms and look under the sink and find a new roll of toilet paper. He came back in a moment with a long tangled stretch of toilet paper wound around his left wrist. I didn't want to be too choosy, but I noticed as I unwound the toilet paper from his wrist, that it had typed words on it and lipstick lip prints all over it. At that point I didn't care. I used most of it to wipe myself, leaving a small piece left over in case someone else got stuck in the same predicament.

At that point the man left the house and went next door to get something from a neighbor. The woman, the little girl and myself were going to stay with the man. He had a king-sized bed and I began to make a place on the bed for the three of us women/girls on the bed on the opposite side. I saw the man's face out the window at the neighbor's house and it was all grotesque.

I instantly had a change of heart and decided that I would help the woman and her daughter escape from the house and his influence.

I hurried her along out of the house. At first I thought the daughter was asleep upstairs and I'd have to go rescue her, but she managed to get ahead of us and ran free out into the sunshine on the broad green lawn outside.

The woman, however, was very reluctant to leave, saying, "But I like it here because I'm on the basketball team." I assured her that she could still play basketball if she wanted to and we ran out into freedom and I woke up.

by Dee

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2-12-99 - DREAM - I was in a house that had three bathrooms. I knew other people would be jealous of that fact.

My sister and her family were staying with us. Someone went into the corner bathroom which was on the left and didn't turn on the light. I thought it was my sister. As it turned out it was her and her baby daughter.

I went into the center bathroom which was right next to it. It was a huge bathroom with blue flowered wallpaper. (It matched the basement walls of a previous dream) I couldn't remember cleaning this bathroom. My sister had baby clothes laying all over the floor.

I sat down on the toilet and peed. I wondered why my sister didn't use this bathroom. Then I noticed that the toilet paper was gone. There was no roll of paper on the hangar. Then I knew that was the reason. I bounced on the toilet seat and shook off any drops of pee left on my body, stood up and pulled up my pants.

I went out into the other room where a radio was playing. It was playing a fast song. The announcer said that was for Italians. Then he played a Gene Autry waltz and played it real slow in three-quarter time. He said that kind of music was for slow thinking people. He listed some other types of music for other types of people...can't remember them.

My sister and her husband Ralph and I and their doctor were out in a hangar-like area next. My brother-in-law Ralph had to fly to Florida on a Texas-Southwest Airline plane and he had overheard the pilot and a mechanic or someone who would know said that some repair hadn't been done and were leery to fly that flight to Florida. It was the 1st flight of the morning on a Friday.

I told him I wouldn't take that plane then. I told him my famous Boeing story from 1985 when I lived in Washington State. A tenant of mine worked for Boeing in their repair department.She said that she wouldn't fly in Boeing planes herself because Boeing postponed way too many repairs on their planes that were requested from the field.

I refused to fly on any Boeing planes myself after that.

Anyway, the doctor gave some pills to Ralph and Ralph disappeared while he was talking to me. My sister and the doctor did not know the pills had that kind of effect. While I was standing there, passengers were getting off a plane asking me where they could find certain people by name. I can't remember any of the names. I just gave them the hitchhiker thumb and pointed to the left around the corner.

by Dee

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2-21-99 - DREAM - I and a whole bunch of people and kids were taking a small open train from one part of town to another. It was like the train had to be held together by sheer will. There was a whole bunch of kids who had no parents and my own small daughter was sleeping and then I discovered she had smeared grape jelly everywhere.The train was about to start and a friend volunteered to help get my daughter ready while I cleaned up the grape jelly from a kitchen galley area.

The train was about ready to leave and my daughter still did have her shoes on. I told her to carry her shoes which were brown combat boots. We all had to run to use the bathroom before we left too and it took some time for each of us to find a bathroom in time.

I scrambled to help some other kids to get into the train cars who didn't have parents and we all seat belted ourselves in. Even the seat belts were rickety and you had to hold them together with your hands.

Bear, from One Life to Live and some other kids were fooling around and climbing under the seats on the train cars. I noticed that under the seats were webbing like spider web dream catchers. They were very fragile.

The train started off and went around a huge bend to the right. We had to hang on for dear life as we went around the curve. We were not outside, but inside a building. I noticed that many of the kids didn't have shoes on. Some were sticking their feet down to the floor and I had to tell them to keep their feet up. There were only silver bars under the train cars...no floor.

Finally, we went into another room and the whole train started falling apart. A lot of the cargo cars separated from the front of the train. I was hanging onto the car ahead of me and I finally let go and let the front of the train go on without me and stayed behind with all the other people and a car load of canned peaches and pears which all fell to the floor and rolled towards me. I noticed too that many of the young girls had broken radios and stereos along and all had been left behind.

A guy nodded to me that I might like to keep a particular nice looking gold boombox for myself, but I declined, already feeling guilt for even considering it.

My old friend Meera came along then and handed me a little compact case with a tape in it. She said, "I think you should have this. It's a seminar by Babaji." It was playing when she handed it to me. It was a love song playing. I began to see the words on a piece of brown paper. I couldn't read all the words because I had a hard time focusing on a whole sentence at once, but the gist of the song was, "You know that I Love You.! I thanked her and we all pitched in to get ready for the next train run.

The last thing I saw was my piano and my son wanted to place a train rail section on top of the piano bench to sit on. It didn't look very comfortable but we let him have it.

by Dee

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2-23-99 - DREAM - I was at my 16th St. house. My mother, I, and a couple women friends were there alone. My father and three of my sons had gone to a seminar somewhere though I thought my father was ill. We just sat around chatting.

We went upstairs at one point when I thought it was bedtime. I remarked to my mother that the beds were empty and she reminded me that my father and my three sons had gone to the seminar.

I had forgotten. I was laying on a bed diagonally. It was a king size bed. It was a motel bed. It felt so good. I thought, "We should go to a motel just to use the beds, if for no other reason."

We went back downstairs to the livingroom. My father called on the phone and asked if we women would like to come up to the bar on 53rd St. because they were having such a good time. I was bagging up all the candy at that point to put it in the freezer. I ran short of plastic bags, so used a bean bag that had chocolate covered peanuts in it or something. I knew that would all wash out later and stuffed it full of candy.

My mother asked if I was ready to go. I didn't want to go alone, because 53rd St. was a dark neighborhood. I told her that a friend of mine had told me that if I ever wanted to go out that I should call her. She only lived in the next block, but I didnt't have her phone number.

So, my mother, I, a friend named Diane who was visiting and my daughter were going to go. My mother and the three of us women. My mother asked if I was ready. I had to run upstairs and put on stockings and shoes, comb my hair and put on lipstick. I noted that Diane was wearing a long brown dress. I was going to go to the bathroom was using it.

I was almost ready to go. I knew it was very late already and there wasn't much time left to party before the bar closed at 2 a.m. but it was worth going, even so.

by Dee

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2-26-99 - DREAM - I was working on a web page, about aliens which isn't unusual at all, but this page had Nadia's e-mail name on top of each page SLIPTHALOS -

hahaha, ROV at work?

From there I went to a woman's apartment who was like Nadia. I didn't really see her, but we were out on a balcony commenting about mental stability and the railing on the balcony were like piano or accordion keys standing on end. I made sure they were all even before we left.

Then I met a guy for a date. He looked familiar at first. I think it was Richard Kind, the actor comedian. When we met, we were walking fast in an underground parking garage. He was going to take me to a theatre to see a play, but when I looked in the mirror, I had two zits on my face and I told him I had to stop in the bathroom and put makeup on my face.

When I came out of the bathroom, then I had too much white makeup on my face. When I looked in the next mirror, I tried to wipe some of it off but knew I'd have to wash it off. There was too much.

We decided to go through another section of basement. The door opened and all the people inside were doctors and nurses and had super white faces more so than my own makeup. We laughed and continued on looking for a bathroom. Half way through this area, a doctor grabbed ahold of Richard's hand and asked him if we'd be willing to participate in a connsensual sex test.

Richard said, "Yes!" I couldn't imagine what this was. The doctor opened a big door and there was a room beyond with a blue glowing light in it. I could hear guys laughing in the room like it was a bar.

Then they separated Richard and I. They took him in the room and kept me outside. I said, "What's he supposed to do, do himself?" They said, "don't worry" and closed the door. On the outside, on the wall, 4 names came up, a movie star, my own name, and two other women's names. These names started rearranging themselves until finally they stopped with the movie star name on top in black, my name second in white, and the other two names under mine. So, I felt good that I was the 1st real person preferenced.

Richard came back out of the room then and we hurried on through this area, then came outside where it was cool and raining a little in the nighttime air. We were right by my own office building and I thought we could cut through my own office building to use a bathroom in there and not get wet, but I reached down to my pocket. I was wearing blue jeans. I didn't have my office key with me. I still had to get the excess makeup off my face so we decided to head for Richard's apartment which was up a block on the other side of my office building and I woke up.

by Dee

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3-4-99 - DREAM - I was in New Berlin. My ex-husband was with me. We were standing at the top of a hill at our neighbor's house by the driveway. It was pouring rain and the water was running down the driveway like a river. I laughed and said, "I just feel like wanted to be a kid again and slide down the driveway." Instead of telling me I was stupid for wanting to do such a foolish thing, he sat down and slid down the driveway himself. That encourage me to do it too and I sat down and slid down the driveway in the river of water. It was really fun.

By the time I got down to the bottom of the driveway he was gone and I saw the people across the street coming out of their house and a cop was arresting the father and putting him in a paddy wagon. I was expecting them to make fun of me; and instead they had their own tragedy to take care of. Just then, I saw my ex-husband coming along the street. His best friend had his arm around him and his arm was in a sling and his arm was bandaged and his head was bandaged and their was quite a lot of blood by his elbow. I was really shocked because I didn't see him get hurt.

We all walked over to our own house. There were other people with us. His arm bandage was getting bloodier and bloodier and his leg was getting bloody. I said, "I think you are cut in more places than just your elbow." He denied it and more and more blood was oozing down his leg and arm. I said it again and he denied it and shook his arm and blood spattered out all over all of us. Splats hit me in the face and I felt sickened to my stomach.

I got really upset. I said, "You are cut in more than one place and you'd better go to the bathroom and look." He didn't want to but turned around to go up the front steps of the house. The rest of us were headed to the back door. Instead of going up the stairs he sat on the wall by the steps and blood was flowing down his leg. I yelled at him, "Go to the bathroom!" He slumped over sideways and I screamed, "Go to the bathroom!" He fell over and I woke up.

by Dee

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3-5-99 - These are 2 dreams and nothing makes sense.

I was going to go to a rummage sale and was out in the parking lot at the back of our station wagon moving things aside so we could buy new things and place them in the middle.

Right next to me was my friend Barbara. She was blonde...long straight hair. She was making the identical motions with her hands in her car at the same time I was. Our families gathered around and marveled at this coincidence.

I had to go to the bathroom before we left and went to the bathroom. When I got up, I was wearing bluejeans that were light blue. I was trying to pull them up and walk at the same time. I saw a woman across the street behind her house where I wanted to go. I was going to walk around the right side of the house and she was working on the lawn on the left. The beach was beyond. As I walked I noticed that my underpants were so big, I didn't know how to pull them up. I got my underpants up, but now my bluejeans around my waist were way out from my body and I was like standing in a cup of numerous yellow vertical threads.

NOTE: Maybe this means I'm going to go on a diet. :-)

by Dee

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3-11-99 - DREAM - I was driven to work by another woman. When we got there, the nightshift was leaving. Some of them even had their kids with them. They all looked tired and glad to go home.

On the way in, we passed a whole bunch of women, waiting for interviews to be hired. We deliberately smiled as we went by so they would think we were a friendly sort of people

I had to go to the bathroom really bad and the farther I walked, the less clothes I had on. Finally I was naked and I hadn't reached the bathroom yet. Embarrassed, I reached for the firs thing I could put on to cover myself with. It was a thin summery cotton see-thru flowered pull-over dress.

I quickly pulled it on myself and then noticed that most of the other women were wearing very similar dresses and there was nothing to be embarrassed about. We were all the same.

When I went home, it was getting dark. I was still out in the hard and heard a loud noise like a door clam and heard heavy giant sized thumping inside the house. It sounded like someone walking very heavy.

Outside, the whole yard, in fact the neighborhood was piled with fresh dirt. It looked like someone had come in with an earthmover and dropped dirt everywhere.

I cautiously went up the stairs which were also full of dirt and opened the door. Inside the door, also was full of dirt, all the way up the stairs to the second floor.

At this point, I thought to myself, "This has got to be a dream." But then I went into denial and tested my senses and surroundings for reality and decided it was too real to be a dream and then got mad. I opened the door again and yelled into the sky, "You bastards!" I went back inside and called my kids names. Michael answered that he was there. There was too much dirt piled on the stairs to attempt to go upstairs so I yelled up the stairs to "come down!"

One of the kids came down carrying a doll. I took one look at it and knew we were in trouble. It looked like Chucky, the monster doll from the movies.

I grabbed the doll and tried to destroy it and couldn't. It got away from me and did acrobatics flip flops all over the floor showing me how agile he was. I finally got ahold of him again and tried to throw myself on top of him bodily to pink him down but nothing worked. Each time I managed to get some little part of him off of him like clothing or glasses that too became animated on its own. It was a losing battle.

I can't remember the dream ending. I think I was still struggling with the loose parts when I woke up.

by Dee

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3-12-99 - DREAM - It was graduation day and we were all lined up outside to have our pictures taken. It was to go quickly, as the line moved along, you stopped, turned your face left, no posing, no smiles, etc., and moved on. The line moved quickly until it got to me. The line stopped abruptly. The photographer had gone to lunch. I and everyone behind me was now inside the building by a reception area that was oval shaped with counters and built-in desks. Each person had a telephone and was talking on it. Nobody hung up and no phone rang. It was deadly quiet in the room. It was decided that we would all eat lunch, then continue the photographs. All the boys were standing in line outside, all dressed with white shirts. I think they had white slacks on too. Some little boys came running in looking for the bathroom. Meanwhile everyone's mother had arrived for the luncheon and each girl would sit with her mother. I saw my mother, she was wearing alight green watered silk dress. She had on a corsage and was carrying a gift for me.

She didn't see me so she turned around and headed toward a counter to put her gift down. I called her several times, "mother! mother! mother!" but she never heard me and didn't turn around. Finally, I touched her should and she turned and finally realized it was me standing there. Dinner was announced. My mother said she didn't hear me calling her because she was breathing heavily and couldn't hear. She said she wanted to go home because she wasn't feeling well. I told her we were all going to be sitting down and she'd be okay. She said, "Okay!" and everyone got their plates served to them in a line like the photographs. I was next when they ran out of food. Even my plate was only 1/4 of the size of everyone elses. Finally I took my plate and headed over to the galley, hollering, "food! food!" The cook stood there with chicken carcasses and no meat left. He was hanging chicken necks on a hook from the ceiling. He said he didn't have anything left to serve me. The next piece of meat was sliced beef and he didn't want to give me that because the girls had gotten chicken. I said, "Well! Howe about 1/2 a piece?" He said, "No!" I said, "1/4 piece?" He said, "No!" but then relented and gave me 1/4 slice. So I asked where the potato salad bowl was. He said, "Over there on the floor." I went over and looked and there was a couple sliced of potato salad left in the bowl so I scooped them into a plate. So I had 1/4 slice of beef and 4 slices of potato salad. By then everyone left and I woke up. I never got my picture taken, nor ate dinner, nor got my gift.

NOTE: My mother suffered a stroke on Saturday, March 20th. It wasn't real serious physically, but mentally it knocked her for a loop and she doesn't know much about what's going on or where she is.

by Dee

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3-19-99 - DREAM - This was about Indian crafts. They were really neat but then I discovered that the crafts I was looking at was made in a factory and they gave me a tour of the factory. There were 3 machines manufacturing sheets of plastic like "Plastic Wrap" and all the machines were in 3's. One man showed me a kitchen of sorts with three different sets of gas burners. He said that we should never touch these burners because you couldn't see gas burning.

I COULD see the gas burning but I knew better than to put my hand on a gas burner whether it was off or on.

I had to find a bathroom then. There were so many people there, everyone needed to use the bathroom, so I had to stand in line. When I finally got to the bathroom and was sitting on the toilet, I was looking at all the pretty dresses the girls had changed out of when they put their nightgown on and I realized how much I like petty colorful cotton fabric. I was taking too long in the bathroom and I hadn't done anything but look at the fabric and look in the mirror and see that I wasn't as fat as I thought I was and that I really did look pretty.

I left the bathroom so the other girls could take their turn. I went back in another room where I saw my photograph in it three times each one taken at a different time in my life, each one with a different child in my arms. Here too, I noticed that I looked really pretty and wondered if others saw me that way too.

It was bedtime then and we all had to share bedrooms. One of the really beautiful girls went  to bed with this really huge muscular guy. He ended up sleeping on the floor between our bed and I put my feet on him and wondered if he felt humiliated. He didn't protest at all.

I wrote a prophecy about him on the floor in toothpaste or something like that. It was about his relationship with women. (I can't remember what it was.)

I went out into the kitchen where the family was gathered. We were waiting for my brother to come home from the war. He was standing out in the hallway talking to someone. There was a curtain like a library bookcase between us and him so we couldn't see him.

He finally came through the door and there was instant recognition of my brother's face, but that's where the resemblance ended. He was a huge man around 7 feet tall with a massive body. While he was talking to the others he came and stood by my side like he was trying to merge with me. This was a sexual feeling and he whispered to me, "You feel it don't you?" I did, but didn't want to acknowledge it because he was my brother. He kept insisting and insisting that he had to have sex with me. There were plenty of other women around so I couldn't figure out why he chose me, who was so much like him. It was considered incest and great guilt went with that no matter how I felt. Then too he had just come home from Europe and could be carrying some disease from there. I wondered if I dare suggest using a condom. with a condom I could see the point of sex at all. Yuck! He went to the bedroom and I made an excuse that I had to go to the bathroom first. So I stayed in the bathroom and never came out.

by Dee

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3-21-99 - DREAM - Edward was in town. I can't remember what I was working on but when I was done he was going to get some ice cream a mile away with two other people. I had three cars. It almost like they were parked in a bathroom with stalls but anyway they were parked in tight spaces.

He was going to go get the ice cream and I wasn't sure if there was enough gas in the car just in case he decided to go joy riding which was something he might be likely to do.

I had just gotten one car so he wasn't going to use that one. That was the one I was using. So we looked at the gas gauges on the other two cars to see how much was left. He had to give me a boost to get close enough to read the gas gauges. One car just a little less than 1/2 full yet. The other one had a little more than 1/4 left.

Even though it was only a mile away, I decided I have to give him $5.00 for gas no matter which car he took just in case he decided to go joy riding. I had to risk that he'd buy booze instead of gas for the car.

by Dee

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3-22-99 - I woke up and got mad because all night my dreams was a long string of visual jokes or weird situations that were senseless and had no value in analysis. The moment I closed my eyes I was seeing a web page with Native Americans links. What gave it away was a link that said, "http://www.greatdreams.com/ROV.gif"

ROV is the jokester/prankster light being I work with along with the ETs. The moment I woke up there was a loud series of fast knockings under the floor where my hand was by the edge of the bed.

Here are some scenes from the night:

I had a car that was charcoal gray. It was so short, it rolled right under other cars. I figured I could ride in the car if I ducked in time.

I was headed west along a wide highway. I was on the left side of the road walking, dragging the car behind me. I planned to cross the highway before I got into the car to drive it, but I saw a car coming from the East and I didn't want to be seen so I hid behind some bushes. There was a blonde woman driving an extra high jeep-type vehicle. She was obviously looking for me and drove right up to the edge of the road where I was hiding. She said, "Hi! I'm an actress and I'm dingy!" I said, "Well! You are certainly doing a good job!" That hurt her feelings.

I went to a school where three chubby black women were arguing out on the playground. After I went upstairs to the music room, they came upstairs and stood on the other side of a music cabinet which I can only describe is like a long tall pig trough. It was full of music books. The three women got close together and started to sing together. They sang the sweetest harmony.

I had to go to the bathroom and walked up a flight of beige carpeted steps. I didn't see any toilets in the bathroom but there was a long bench to sit on. I had seen a couple men out in the hallway and I didn't want them to see me because the door was open. I sat down on the bench and noticed that the whole back wall was mirrored. I looked over too where my reflection should be and saw my reflection as one of the men as my own reflection. That sort of freaked me out and as soon as I realized that my reflection was that of a man, it changed to the other man's reflection.

That freaked me out so I had to leave the bathroom. I went to he stairway and grabbed onto an ovalish shaped towel rack or something. It popped off the wall and the two round things that held it on the wall popped off and rolled down the stairs, so I had to go down the steps and get them, and then climb back up the stairs which now seemed to be twice as high. So, I climbed all the way back up the stairs and put the rack back, then went back down the stairs to the music room.

This time I saw hundreds and hundreds of copies of thin music books with Oprah Winfrey's name on them. There were so many copies I decided to take one with me.

I woke up and ROV knocked on the floor under my hand again.

NOTE: These black female gospel singers made a guest appearance on the One Life to Live Show that same afternoon.

by Dee

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3-25-99 - DREAM - (I've become the Queen of the stupid dreams) I was in a car driving south on 16th St. and we passed three women waiting for a bus going the same way. I knew who they were and felt a little embarrassed that we didn't pick them up. I felt even more embarrassed when we got where we were going and those same three women were standing on the porch where we went and they got there ahead of us AND they had seen us go by and told us that they were upset by that. They made it sound like they were kidding but I wasn't sure of that.

While we were in that house we watched a TV show where five women wore yellow blouses and a panel had to judge which contestant had the best one. I didn't want to tell them that I had been a judge at that contest when they taped it the Friday before so I knew who won, so I to watch it all over again.

Then we went into a huge gymnasium type place. My friend Bonnie, my daughter Jeanne, and Roseanne Barr were there and they did a series of floor exercises together in tandem. It was pretty dumb. I was able to push them across the floor with my foot.

Then a boyfriend of Bonnie came in and had three pieces of linoleum which he laid out on the gymnasium floor. It was a red, yellow, and black squared pattern but each section was different.

He and I laid under the edge of one section while he told me that some guys had sold it to him and it was too small for his kitchen and he felt like they had scammed him because they wouldn't take it back.

He saw Bonnie coming back so he said we had to hurry and get out from under the linoleum. So he and I rolled over to the other wall to hid so she wouldn't see we were together, but my butt was too big and I couldn't hide well enough. So she saw me and pushed on my butt and I slid all the way down under the bench where I had tried to hide behind.

This guy's name was Elliot (means 'believes in God') and I found that out because he and I were judging exercise contests and were carrying clipboards with our names at the bottom. II had had to go to the bathroom and there was no room in the women's bathroom so I went into the men's bathroom and saw his clipboard laying there.

From there I went into a smaller room to wait for something and my son Tom came through with a tall blonde woman. He came over and hugged me and kissed me on the lips while the woman stood there and watched. When he stood up again I commented to the woman, "Part of his job is to kiss the beautiful customers!" and smiled. I could see he was in love with this woman and she with him and they walked away together through a door.

I commented to the woman sitting next to me, "I guess he's all grown up now." She commented back, "Yes!" They all do eventually."

by Dee

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3-29-99 - DREAM - I had something stuck up my nose and I wanted to pick it out. went into the bathroom and looked in the mirror and pulled out a large metallic look leaf with a very sharp edges, so it was totally bloody. As I looked at it, it grew larger and longer, like a big oak leaf.

by Dee

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1999 - by Bryon - I have had prophetic dreams about the land being overcome by the water at different times in the past. Some were clearly prophetic night visions while others were more like dreams. These kinds of dreams and night visions started a long time ago, years ago but they have never ceased. Every so often I have one similar to this and must ponder on the meaning. Is it symbolic ? Is it literal ? Is it a combination of both ?

The first and most powerful night vision about the West being overcome by water was many years ago and I remember it like it was just last night. In it I flew as fast as lighting to the West coast where I found the land ripped apart as if by an earthquake.

Smoke filled the air. I saw both new and old East/West rail road tracks ripped apart.   I saw the air filled with smoke and ash. I saw fires along the edge of this high mountain where there was fresh dirt as if the land was ripped apart. I saw a few men fighting to stop the fires. As I hovered just a foot or so above the ground I saw palm trees through the smoke and a few houses that were along the top of the mountains. I saw children wandering around saying "I can’t find my home, I can’t find my family."

There was nothing I could do but observe and ponder on the meaning of the things I had seen.

Then as quickly as I had come I flew back to my house in IL and through the bathroom window and right into the kitchen where I found my father who was God and I told him "Do you know what I have just seen ?" And he said that he did know all these things and they were in the future for our world.

I did not get a day or time only "in the future" and other dreams and night visions of similar things in different places.

Then one day I was watching a TV show where some people said they had received dreams and visions and saw maps of the United States of America being overcome by the ocean. Some said this was caused by earth quakes and some said by a comet hitting the earth. One said it was a combination of both, that the earth quakes were caused by the comet or something hitting the earth from space. One women and one man drew their maps and they are selling these maps and perhaps some of them you can get from the Internet, I don’t know. The maps were very similar but not identical.

The East, West and South coastal areas were submersed in water. The coastal cities and towns were under water. Many millions of people were killed in these events. LA, New York, New Orleans and almost all of Florida were under water. A huge section of the central U.S. coming up the Mississippi River was under water.   Massive areas of Texas was under water. Islands dotted the Western areas where California, Oregon and Washington States once were. Huge areas of Mexico were totally submersed in water.

Some of the people said that aliens showed them these things. Others said it was angels who showed them and others like myself said they saw visions and night visions and dreams where they saw prophetic messages concerning the future of this world. Some of them even gave dates as being around the year 2000 when these things would take place. Some even said the rapture mentioned in the Bible would happen about the same time as these events.

I do not have the answers or miraculous insight into these night visions and dreams which I have seen or the messages which were given to these others who have seen similar things. I can only honestly testify to the fact that I have seen similar things in powerful night visions and in crystal clear dreams that have impressed upon me feelings of great concern. An urgency to share what I have seen with others and prayer to God for the understanding of the things we have seen.

The other things I can do is try to speculate and analyze the symbols and make a guess at what these things might be trying to tell us. Because of the images I saw in the first night vision and how I saw the land torn apart and the rail road tracks ripped into I believe much of what I saw was literal. That at some point in the future the coast lines of this land and other countries of the world will be submersed in water. I believe it may happen so quickly that millions of people will be taken by surprise and not be able to move to safety. If the rail road tracks are symbolic in any way then they represent these things to be preset and fixed so that events that will come can not be changed by human effort.

If by the Prophet Joseph we may say that if a dream comes to us speaking of the same thing more than once, or three times in that case it is fixed and can’t be changed then once again we have reason to believe that what ever these dreams and visions, angels or aliens are speaking about will take place and there’s nothing we can do to stop it. We can only prepare for it and move to a safer place.

To join the Dream Link Group send a message to this link.

Thank you

…Bryon

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Subj: Michelle - Bathroom Dream 5-11-99
Date: 05/11/1999 7:21:23 AM Central Daylight Time

Mickkeee: morning Dee,. Both you and Joe were in my dream last night

Dee777: really? please tell

Mickkeee: ok.. it was really weird.  Me and Paul were going to visit you and Joe. You lived together with this young skinny woman with short black hair on the 35th floor of a HUGE building in New York City. The thin woman with the short dark hair was your daugter.. or daughter in law.. but I know she was related. Anyway.. you lived on the 35th floor of a building that had like 67 floors and it was very modern on the outside. I remember floor 37 and 34 were shopping malls and when we got out on your floor... it was no longer modern.. it was more like an old farm house inside. It was nice... all heavy wood and tile. And you and Joe asked us to sleep over. I don't recall exactly what happened.. but you and I were going to go shopping. Paul kind of goes away for a while from the dream. You and I go shopping at the mall on the 37th floor but its like we don't get there. We end up outside somewhere on the street and we go to a pet shop and it's really runned down inside.

Tthen we realize that my friend Mickey lives in NYC and I wanted to introduce you.. cause you both had horse dreams on the same day before but we can't find him because he's off trying to buy a flute. So we go back to your house to sleep when we get in the elevator for the 35th floor, some gay guy gets in with us and he says do you want to go straight up or do you want to spiral up?

And we both said spiral up. So he pressed a button and as soon as he did the elevator started to go up.. but it didn't just go up.. it started to SPIN really fast like one of those rides in a carnival.. we were stuck to the walls of the elevator and we were getting sick to our stomachs. Then we get to the top and you said to me that he had to make spaghetti and meatballs for Joe and Paul for supper. You told me to get the meatballs out of the fridge but there were only sausages in the fridge so I started to cook those.. and I was really dizzy from the elevator.

Then Paul was there again and he told me to go lay down cause I was not feeling well and I did in this HUGE bed. It must have been 12 feet across with all these pillows on it in row at the top like 10 people slept in the bed. Maybe it was 20 feet. It was BIG!

When I woke up in the morning to find that EVERYONE was in bed together, you, me, Paul, Joe and the woman with the dark hair, and I wasn't feeling good so I walked into your bathroom and sat down on the potty.... and you knocked on the door and said you had to use the sink and did I mind if you came in.

I said.. I'm on the pot.. if you don't mind, I don't mind and so you came in and started to put on makeup. Then the woman with the dark hair came in and started to fold towels or something without asking. Tthen JOE came in and I got really embarrassed.

Joe stood there like there was nothing embarrassing about my sitting on the potty..

At one point you took a urine sample from me... (but i don't recall giving you one).. and you did a pregnancy test with it. Then you gave it to joe..and he did a different test. It was about 4 inches wide but 8 inches long and he dipped an end into the sample..then he said.,"Hum.. the lines are coming together.. this is good and he showed it to me. There were 2 pink lines on it like a graph...one started in the middle and went up. It went up at a slope then to a point and came down a bit. Another line that started near the bottom when up at the same slope..then came down again.. the top one came down sharper so they meet at a point. I said to Joe ..they are not supposed to come down. He said..sometimes they have to in order to meet. don't worry... meeting is more important.

Then Joe started to talk to you and me about the meaning of the white animals and then the dream ended.

I woke up with morning sickness and spent the next hour in the bathroom.

NOTE:  Mickkeee had this dream while I was uploading the bathroom file to the internet. Mickkee is really newly pregnant and awaiting word on how far along she is.

NOTE 2:  All the while I was putting this file together, our toilet was stopped up and wouldn't flush.  The moment I uploaded the file, the toilet flushed and continued to flush normally. A coincidence?  We don't think so.

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5-18-99 - DREAM - I was in a big house with some other people and I had to go to the bathroom to pee. I knew there was an extra bathroom in the extention to the house off the kitchen. To my surprise construction had been going on, remodeling the bathroom into another kitchen. It had a light blue and white linoleum floor and was about 1/2 done. The crew was not there at the time, but their tools were there so I knew they'd be back.

I went back to the regular part of the house and ended up in the diningroom where a man was doing a radio broadcast at the diningroom table. I lay down next to the table (like I was in bed actually) and the man who looked rather like Jerry Springer was telling Abraham Lincoln jokes, knowing I used to be Mary Todd Lincoln in a past life. I was laughing like crazy hoping I wouldn't pee my pants.

Just as I was waking up, he asked me, "If you had to choose, would you pick "Jesus Christ", or "advice" and why?"

NOTE:  I spent a lot of time thinking about that for the next few hours.

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11-5-99 - DREAM - I was in a house on top of a mountain. There were several people I knew there. One of them was 'John Sykes' from 'One Life to Live', one of the them was Joe's son T.J. (Thomas Joseph) and one was named David.

I was wrapped in a brown blanket on a couch and we started discussing the size of the blanket. I said it was a 9' x 9' square. To prove it, we laid the blanket out on the floor. T.J. said the room was 9' x 9' and there was an extra foot on each side of the blanket. I argued..."No! The room is 11 feet x 11 feet, so the blanket is 9' x 9' .

At that point, water was seeping into the room and covering the floor, so I had to take the blanket and a rag rug that was 3 x 4 feet and put them into a washing machine so it would be balanced.

I saw then that it was really windy outside and that a storm was coming up so I had better get the kids and go home.  My son Tom had feces all over himself including on his hands and face. I told him to go potty and wash his hands and face because we had to go home as a storm was coming.

He left the room and there was a golden child there. She was the daughter of a friend of mine...Diane. She had golden hair...golden brown eyes...and golden eyebrows.

I saw that the only toilet in the room (white) was a small child size training potty on the floor. I had to go to the bathroom myself before we left for home so all I could do was lean against the wall over the potty and hope I hit it when I went.

The golden child came over and squatted down in front of me and stared into my eyes and kind of laughed and said, "I just thought I'd see if you could go with somebody watching you."

I was trying to go when John Sykes came over with a roll of toilet paper. The paper was thick and heavy with green fancy print on it like a certificate. I said, "What kind of paper is this?"  He said, "It's made out of the congressional records."

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1-6-00 - This is one of the most bizarre real dreams I've ever had.

DREAM - I was sitting on the couch in the livingroom and everything looked normal. My sister called on the phone and said she had found a Cocker Spaniel puppy and I said I wanted to see it. She said, "Okay! I'll bring it over."  A moment later, my sister appeared on the front porch with the most beautiful black Cocker Spaniel puppy I've ever seen. She was holding it with a red leash and red collar. I was thinking, "Oh no! I wanted a white one." The black puppy was beautiful but reminded me of a black labrador puppy I once had that was very destructive to my furniture and chewed everything and we had had to give it away. But, I went to the front door to let my sister in. I had a soup cup of potato chips in my hand and decided I'd better put it up high so the dog wouldn't get it. The ironing board was also in the middle of the livingroom so I was delayed in getting to the front door. As I went to the door, my brown tweed coat fell on the floor and I kicked it behind the door because I was in a hurry.

I opened the door and this should have been a clue but I ignored it. My sister had a large mustache and wore a gorgeous mink coat. She came in the door with the puppy on the leash and brought a small dark haired woman in with her. I recognized the woman but can't name her. My sister said she had brought her mother with her. Duh!  My sister's mother should be MY mother, but this was someone else.

I let them in, closed the door and turned around. The house had changed completely. The rooms were 4 times normal size, and the walls were pure white, unlike the real house which walls were peach colored with my Dad's idea of paint wallpaper which was way ahead of its time.

None of the doors were the same, and what I noticed first was that the piano was gone. I got so distressed over the loss of the piano I immediately thought my brother had taken it (actually he did a long time ago) The whole family was there. My brother Marty came over towards me and I was in such shock, I said, "This is a dream, isn't it!" He said "No! What makes you think it's a dream?"

I said, "Well, the walls are all different, the rooms are 4 times as large, the piano is gone and the doors are all in the wrong place and even the stairway is gone." He quipped back, "Well, we just remodeled."  

For some reason that made a little sense. I looked around a corner in the room and there was the piano and I relaxed a little. From there I saw my Father, he was sitting in a blue car, rather relaxed and laying back. He said, "Why is music so important to you?"

I was going to tell him that it was important because it was so important to him that he spent 7 years of my life making sure I went to piano lessons and every week and standing behind me every week to play the violin with me, but I didn't get a chance to. The family started to tell me that they knew someone who liked to play the piano and started getting me all upset again.

I could see a shiny cabinet through a door and I thought it might be a bathroom (which we didn't have on the first floor).  I went through the door and saw that this was a large public bathroom with a green floor. I walked back and found myself in a hallway and looked up. I could see there was several floors above, the walls were all white, and there like white glass walls along the hallway so the light could shine through onto the walkways on each floor.

I kept thinking, "This has got to be a dream, this has got to be a dream!" Nobody else was acting like it was a dream. Everyone else was acting like this was normal.

I turned around in the hallway and started screaming, "Mama . . . Mama  . . . Mama!"  All of a sudden my mother appeared in front of me, wearing a pale green dress and looking like she did when she was 40 years old.  I hugged her and she hugged me. I said, "This has got to be a dream!"  She said, "This is no dream!" and started to evaporate again. I screamed again, "Mama!  Mama! Mama!"  My mother started to speak to me through the air like there was hole in the veiled wall between us.  She said, "I'm still here, but you have got to stop calling me!"  I was crying. "This has got to be a dream, I know its a dream!"  

"It's not a dream," she said and started saying some nasty noises to make me not want to call her.  But I felt her slip away and started screaming again, "Mama, Mama, Mama!"  She reappeared in front of me. She said, "You've got to stop calling me and making me appear like this. I've got to go now!"  

"No!" I screamed. Just tell me this is a dream! She said, "This is not a dream!" and again evaporated. I began to scream again, "Mama!" and she started saying nasty noises again and made me stop screaming her name. I had to let her go. The noises stopped and I moved forward and found myself in my old highschool.

I decided to find the bathroom which I knew was on the first floor and ran into Cary Loose who was teaching a class there. We greeted each other and I started to tell her my dream. She said, "I love your dreams!"  She and I were walking along the hall and we came to a steep, wide stairway going up.  The carpeting was red and black paisley, very plush. I said as she started up the stairs, "Oh! I've gone too far!"  She continued up and stairs and I turned around to find the bathroom. I found the office but it looked like a bar entrance but there was no bathroom. A tall football player came along, wearing an all gold uniform and helmet. He pointed across the hall. I laughed and saw a sign over a door that said, "Ladies room!"

I went inside the ladies room and to my shock, the toilets were smaller than baby potties. There was urine on the floor next to the toilets. I decided I had to use one of these because there was nothing else to do. So I sat down on the baby size toilet the best I could, and the toilet immediately morphed into a bidet type toilet but then laid me down flat on my back. This action scared me and I didn't know how I was going to get back up again, but the toilet began to flush when it went as far back as it was going to go and I was afraid I was going to get flushed down too, but then the seat of the toilet began to raise up like a motorized chair and it actually pushed me all the way back up to a standing position. At this point I saw blue water all over the floor on the right side of the toilet and it was running across the room.  I was in such a state of distress by this time, I just wanted to go home and as I walked out of the door I woke up.

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2-3-00 - DREAM - I worked in a factory building and was in charge of maintenance. I saw some women go into the tool room, so I quickly followed after them to tell them that we didn't welcome visitors there. I went inside and to my surprise, found that the shelves were empty. All the tools had been removed, and everything obviously had been moved professionally and labeled and categorized as it had been moved. I followed on down another aisle and found that some women had set up the room as a warehouse for other things so the space wasn't wasted.

One table had grouped magazines, 6 for 88 cents which were tied together and you took your chances what you got as you couldn't see what the inside ones were, only the outer ones. I thought that was rather a clever idea.

I found out then from one of the workmen that a 10 year old boy had killed some classmates and he hadn't been caught, but another boy had taken his picture at a party. It just had to be developed and we could see what he looked like. So, we got the pictures developed and I looked at the photos. He looked like an ordinary child, not someone who would commit murder.

Strangely then, the child who had killed came into the room where I was and demanded a drink of water for his father. There was none to be had where we were. I volunteered to take him across the street to where the offices were as I was going to go over there to go to the bathroom anyway.

This gave me a better opportunity to get to know the boy to see if he really was a killer and why he would do such an awful thing. He would be picked up by the police on the other side of the street then also. As we were crossing the street, the boy and I were talking and he wanted to know what time he was going to get the water and I said it would be about 7 p.m. He got so distressed that he had to wait for the water that he started to beat his head against a brick wall. I looked at the clock and it was only 5 minutes to 7. The child couldn't even wait 5 minutes or less for the water. I was astounded that the child was so impatient.

When I got to the other side, I took the boy to the bathroom with me and the cops came and took him away for the murders. What makes a child get so impatient? I didn't understand.

The men said they would do me a favor and get me some stamps while they were out, but then I realized I had to go to the bank anyway as I had to deposit my paycheck. However, I didn't have the check in hand yet, only some white fake dollars in my wallet. I put them in there to pretend I had money when I really didn't because it made me feel better. I then went through the desk drawer to make sure the paychecks were in there. I saw 5 that had typed envelopes and two that had envelopes with the names hand written in green. Mine was one of the typed ones.

While I stood there, my mother showed up at the door. She didn't look so good. I asked her how she was. She said, "Not so good! Could you come and visit me?" I said I would and she left to go home and wait for me.

As I headed for the bank, I met a woman friend who was married to a Chinese guy. They had had a disagreement and when they met, he presented the back of his neck for her to kiss out of respect. But then he stood up and presented his butt for her to kiss right out on the street. It looked like she was going to do it. I couldn't believe it.

While I stood on the corner, I saw that the building was for sale. I thought it would be a good idea to invest in it, because there would always be a use for a good building.

I gradually woke up after that scene.

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2-6-00 - DREAM - I was working in an office situation. My boss came in the office late in the day and two salesmen came to see him. These were all very tall men. I'm tall myself and they were all much taller than me.

I asked them if they would like coffee and they said "Yes!" One man said he wanted his 'white'.

The other man said that he would have his the same. My boss always had his black. I went to the kitchenette we had and saw that the coffee pot only had one cup of coffee in it, so a new pot would have to be brewed.

I had to go to the bathroom really bad, but there were several people in the kitchenette who said they would make the coffee and I should go ahead and go. I asked my little son who was there to turn on the water faucet which he did, which made my having to go to the bathroom ever more urgent.

I can't remember why I couldn't find the bathroom, but I didn't go, but got into a conversation with my daughter and then my son and the coffee didn't get made right away.

I asked my son again to turn on the hot water and he said it was on already. My daughter then made the coffee and I was holding her baby as she was going to go to the doctor with her for some reason. My daughter took the coffee in to my boss and came back out all flustered and upset. I asked her what was wrong and she said she had gotten hollered at because they complained that her hair was too short and the heels on her shoes were too flat. And they didn't like the color of her dress either

I had noted that my own hair was long enough so that it reached down my chest on both sides and was dark and sleek, my dress was bright blue, and I wore quite high heeled shoes. A person can't instantly grow their hair, but I told her she could borrow a red dress and 5" high heeled shoes from me if she wanted to.

She had to make it to the doctor's office with the baby by 5 p.m. and was now running late because of my bosses strange requests. It was getting hot in the room so I began taking the babies outer wear off. She had a cute little hat on which I took off, then her sweater.

Two more men came into the office whom I had known from elsewhere, and I ran up to the one and threw my arms around and pretended to cry. He asked what was wrong, and I told him about my daughter's situation, and how my boss had treated her. This guy was a salesman also, so he would get the picture. I also said that my boss had insisted that she sleep with him, which he hadn't ever said. I was trying to illicit this guys emotions of protection towards me and my family. He said all the appropriate things so I knew I could trust him in the future.

I tried to console my daughter and told her she could borrow my clothes. By then, one of my other sons was going to climb up the upper bunk bed and accidentally broke the bottom rung out of the ladder. Another woman came in and told us what had happened and the boy's father got all upset, but I realized that my son was just getting too big to use the flimsy childhood ladder for that bed. I understood that he was just growing up and forgave the incident and then had to explain this to the boy's father.

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2-6-00 - DREAM - I was at my 16th St. house. My mother was there, and then two kids came home from school. One was a tall blonde girl, and the other was a Japanese guy. When I saw him, there was a black toy Scotty dog right by the door, up high by his head, so I removed it to see him better.

I had to go to the bathroom really bad, so I went to the bathroom, (I obviously really had to go). In another moment I had to go again and went to a different bathroom. This bathroom was like a cleaning closet. It was small and had a vacuum cleaner in it as well. I sat on the toilet. The toilet paper was like soft blue cloth with a diamond pattern on it.

I was sitting there peeing and my young son came into the next room and hollered at me that he was going to delete the 'Watcher' program on the TV because it was jammed. I said, "Okay!" then realized I hadn't really heard what he said and asked him to repeat it. He said, "I'm going to delete the Watcher program on the TV because it's jammed." I then said, "Okay!" again.

All this time I had been thinking about where the Japanese guy and the tall girl slept because we didn't have that many bedrooms and my mother wouldn't have put the guy and the girl in the same room, and she wouldn't have put the tall girl in with my daughter, nor with her, so where did they sleep? I couldn't figure it out.

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2-8-00 - DREAM - I was an apartment manager and had had a bathroom done over in a really large apartment. I showed it to a woman. The bathroom was right by the front door for some reason. She looked at the bathroom, but saw the rooms past it which we hadn't worked on yet. We were going to start the work on Monday which was tomorrow.

The woman saw mold on the wall in the livingroom where the air conditioner hole was. It hadn't been painted yet either. I assured her that the work was going to be done tomorrow. I really wanted her to rent it, but she couldn't see what it would look like when it was done, so she said she didn't want the apartment.

I was very disappointed because I really wanted to rent it to her.

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2-17-00 - DREAM - I was in a city with some people. We were cleaning up the house and this was a total have to go to the bathroom dream. I had to go pee really bad and all the bathrooms were otherwise occupied or didn't have a proper toilet to use so I could never go.

In one scene, my friend Kimber was crouched on the floor getting ready to pick up her son Luke's toys. The toys were all animated. There was a circle of toy soldiers surrounding a huge animated black spider. The soldiers were going to attack the spider from all sides and it seemed that they were all afraid of it also.

A girlfriend asked me to go to a movie with her, but things kept happening and we never went and then she had to leave.

Then the Queen of England happened to come by and she heard about my not being able to go to the movie with my friend so she said she would go with me. So, we were walking down the sidewalk ... she was several steps ahead of me. It had just rained and when she turned the corner to the left, I made a misstep and stepped right into a puddle of water with my white high heeled shoes which had a black stripe across the toe.

The Queen, dressed in a pink suit, hat, and shoes, said to me... "Let that be a lesson to you ... when someone asks you to do something, do it right then, because they won't always be with you."

I said "Yes Ma'am, you're right!"

I dont' recall going into the theater but then found myself high on a hill with two men. We were going to play music together and I was going to be the piano player. As we finished playing, the one man said, that it was time to go home, so I turned around and played the song, "Good Night Ladies" and sang, "Good night ladies, good night ladies, good night Ladies, It's time to move along."

As I was playing a blue airplane buzzed us and the other guy waved at him and I saw the shadow of the plane go over where we stood.

I turned and saw the plane go really low and buzz a house, then the plane looked like it was red, white, and blue checkerboard like a racing plane, and it buzzed some other people in a park. It made a sharp right turn, buzzed some cars and trucks on the street and landed right in the middle of a busy street. I heard an announcer on a loud speaker say, "Ladies and Gentleman, that's what happens when you fly too low."

NOTE: A fiery crash of a Emery Express plane occurred today in flames when their load shifted on take off, but I don't think this dream was connected to that.

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3-3-00 - DREAM - I had written a novel about ETs in Australia. It was written as a Trilogy ... three parts all in the same book. The cover of the book was white leather.

I recalled the name Scott Welker. It sounded familiar but I couldn't think who he really is or if he had written a famous book perhaps.

NOTE: There is a man by this name in Australia who is a real estate agent. I didn't find an author of a book with this name on the internet though.

The rest of the dream was about going to several places with the kids ... mine and young people I was taking car of. When I talked on the phone I could see the people on the other end like they were in the same room.

I had a long conversation about which bus to take to school. I had a choice of 17 there and 11 back or 11 there and 11 back. The man didn't recommend that I take the 11 - 11. It was very dangerous to do that because of the other people who would be on the bus.

At the end, my bathroom was remodeled and nice woodwork put in, but then they put in a child potty seat and the pee bubbled up strawberry red. It was like strawberry juice - not blood.

I was going to take the kids to three places .. to the drug store ... the get ice cream ... and pick up the bus pass for $19.50 which was good for a month.

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3-6-00 - DREAM - I was living in a house somewhere which also had a factory and a baseball field on the property at the other end. I seemed to be in charge of getting everything straightened, cleaned, and the color scheme changed. I also found some rectangular orange and green baskets I can only describe as plastic strawberry baskets. These had been thrown in the front window. There were several of them that were large about six inches across, but a few were smaller also, about two inches. This seemed to be very important.

I got several large containers (bags) of blue and yellow yarn which I was going to make into furniture covers. Another change I made was to take off an avocado green cover (like drapery material) and changed it to gold brocade material. I let the kids have the avocado green piece to play with. They asked to have a livingroom chair covered in the bright yellow.

There was a young girl there who needed to take some yellow medicine on a daily basis. This medicine came in a green plastic container on which was a button so she could press it and self-dose herself. Unfortunately, she didn't go to the bathroom first, so after she took her medicine, she laughed really hard and peed her pants.

When I took her to the bathroom, I noticed that part of the house was closed off with a drapery curtain. This part of the house was just past the bathroom ... like an extension of the house. It wasn't being used probably because it was winter and it was hard to heat all that house. I was thinking that I like to be able to see into the entire house. I didn't like having any part of it closed off. I would see to that when spring came and it didn't have to be heated.

On the other end of the house was a baseball field. There were men in uniform playing a game. I assumed they worked in the attached factory. One guy had a small green apple and batted it with his bat. It flew over and landed in the front of my shirt. They were joking about the ball, and I held it in my hand and said, "If there be any man here, let him step up to the plate!" We all laughed.

I can't recall what was in the factory, just that I had to make sure that it was in good order and clean.

In the livingroom, a young woman came in with some poodle puppies They were really fat and one little yellow puppy jumped up on the couch and I was trying to control it and make it stay on the floor. I asked her where she had been keeping the puppies because I hadn't seen them since I was there and she lived with us in the house. She wasn't making any sense with her excuses, about where she had been, but she was there now and that's what counted.

As the dream ended, I walked into a part of the house or an attached mall-like place where a bell carillon was playing. The bells were large and small, all tuned to play songs. Some of the bells were hidden in the branches of green Christmas-like trees. It was playing, "Mine Eyes Have Seen the Glory of the Coming of the Lord" Glory, glory, glory, Hallelujah!" I woke up with the bells ringing in my head. It was a happy wake-up feeling.

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3-7-00 - DREAM - I was sitting inside a bathroom on the edge of a bathtub, thinking about our California family (Joe's kids and grandkids) thinking that Sabrina is 6 months pregnant, then looking down at my own bare stomach, knowing that I was 4 months pregnant and hadn't told anyone yet.

I pulled my clothes on and went outside to where there was a factory building, a rather old building. I had been in this building before and left the door open, so all I had to do was put my fingers around the edge of the door and pull it open which I did.

I was planning to look for another bathroom inside the factory building. When I went inside, it was rather dark, but there was a huge glow of light hanging in the air over towards the left, so I headed in that direction. When I went towards the light, I could then read the print on the little door markers that were sticking out into the aisle and recognized the words "Rest Room".

I headed in that direction and saw a man coming towards me. It turned out to be my brother John, wearing his blue ski outfit and hat. He and I smiled and waved to each other and I continued towards the bathroom door. Just then two of my sons came out of the bathroom, Ken and Bob. I smiled and waved at them, then noticed that all my grandchildren were in another room across the hall. They all saw me and started smiling and waving and I was smiling and waving back.

This was feeling really great, to see all my relatives, but I had to get into the bathroom first, then I could visit with them.

I walked into the bathroom which had several stalls on the right. As I went towards them, two women about 5' 4" tall came rushing towards me. I didn't recognize them as anyone I know, but they sure acted like they wanted to know me. They were both wearing rain and shine coats, one blue, the other one grey. Both women were about in their older 20's but might have been older or younger by a year or so.

They grabbed at me and started kissing my butt. I was trying desperately to get them off of me, but two women, with four arms who are desperate to hang on, are pretty hard to get off. I kept explaining to them that I needed to use the bathroom, but they weren't about to let go. I finally had to try to wrench myself free and headed back towards the door, dragging the one in the grey coat, the other one having gone back to a stall to get toilet paper or something.

I was almost to the door, still struggling to get the grey coated woman to let go, and saw on the wall a mirror image of the other blue coated one coming running down the aisle past the stalls to get to me before I got out of the bathroom. I was struggling to reach upward to the door handle and woke up ... reaching up into the air still.

Man I was glad to get away from those butt kissing women. :-)

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3-9-00 - DREAM - I was in my 16th St. house, sitting on the livingroom couch with my baby on my lap. The baby made a grunting noise, and it felt like he was filling his diaper with poop. It wasn't wet, but there was a warm lump growing under my fingers under the diaper on the bottom.

I decided I would change his diaper and give him a bath, so began to take the baby pins out of his diaper which were large with light blue heads on them. I set them on the arm of the sofa.

I took the baby's diaper off and saw that it was still clean. The baby must have been sexless since I noticed no gender at all. However, I was thinking it was a boy at the time, I saw no genitals of either sex on the baby.

I decided to give the baby a bath anyway since it was naked and began carrying the baby up the stairs to the bathroom. When I reached the center landing where the stairway turned, there was a heavy spout of water coming down from the ceiling and it washed the baby right out of my arms onto the floor. The baby was washed away over the edge of the stairway so that it was under the landing and I couldn't see it. I was afraid it was going to drown in the water and reached under the landing and pulled the baby's body back into site. When I did that, the baby was fully under the water, yet smiling up at me.

The baby made no attempt to get out of the water, no movement at all except the smile, and I made no move to grab him up out of the water either. He looked so peaceful there.

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3-15-00 - DREAM - I was working on people's astral bodies, however they weren't animated, they were like cardboard cutouts. Someone admonished me for only doing half the job of animating the body. I had forgotten to take the tiny staples out of the back side of the body. I then spent a long time removing these tiny staples from the back side of the body.

I then began working on larger cardboard cutouts of people's bodies. They had been like in cold storage, wrapped in brown paper. They were flat like cardboard, not round like human bodies are in the physical. In this case, the numbers of certain parts I had to animate were visible, but certain parts were not supposed to be animated right away since the body wouldn't be able to handle all the abilities in the beginning. Some abilities were to be saved until later and I had to leave those staples in place for the time being. The bodies would be brought back in later years for further animation to remove more staples. I noted that one was numbered 889.

I then went into a separate dream or woke up from that dream into another dream. I was getting out of bed and it was 11:00 a.m. I always have to go to the bathroom when I wake up and when I went to go to the bathroom, the entire house was full of painters. There was a painter in every room painting it white for a party we were going to have that day ... I was thinking wedding ... but it seemed more like a reunion of men soldiers.

On the stove, I had two kettles of liquid ... supposedly stain to repair uniforms ... though it was clear, but there were two types. I was shown one uniform closeup. It had a bullet hole through the right stomach area and we wondered about the pain that man had when he was shot.

Men were gathering outside now and I had to get ready to work on this reunion party ... something about healing the uniform or something with this liquid I was preparing.

Outside, the men were gathering and I saw that each man had brought his weapon of choice. I turned around and the men in the house were now bringing out their guns also. Some had automatic weapons, some had rifles ... they brought what they liked best.

I was hungry and wondering whether the men were barbecuing. I could see smoke out there coming up from one man's gun. So I went outside and they were cooking hamburgers on the barbecue. Only some of them were done yet ... they were still cooking.

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4-10-99 - DREAM - (The fact that I had to go to the bathroom in the physical was very obvious in this dream)

I was living in a place that was like a home/school. I went into the closet and discovered some old writings I had done and put away into a 3 ring binder. One of them was about Mary Magdalen. I can't recall the titles of the other ones, but I knew I was supposed to get these out of the closet and publish them.

Other people were around who had needs which I was trying to address but kept having to go to the bathroom, which was in my 1st floor closet. I actually was peeing in the bathtub, not a toilet. Once I actually peed on my own clothes. One I peed on the floor because I couldn't wait any longer, and once I peed on the floor because there was an old man Father in the closet, laying in the bathtub, reading a newspaper and I didn't want him to be disturbed. He offered to leave the closet so I could have privacy. I told him, "'Nevermind', from where you are laying, you can't see me anyway."

I went back out to the room, and my daughter and her girlfriends were there were the girl's parents. They were really tall... like 7 feet. What had happened was that the girl had pointed her finger at someone and an electrical zap had come out of her finger, but had made red line on her own arm and on the side of her head. I told her I knew what had happened. I pointed my finger at her face and imagined the energy going towards her, then asked if she had felt it. She said, "Yes!" I told her I needed to talk to her in private about this use of energy because she didn't know how to control it and I didn't want everyone else to listen in on my lecture to her. Her parents came in the room also, but I had to leave them there and go back to the closet to pee and on the way was looking again for my writings that I needed to get out into the open.

When I came back, I gave them my lecture, which I don't recall now, then went back to look for my writings, and then back to the closet again.

I was happy to wake up because I had to go like every couple minutes by then.

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4-13-00 - DREAM - I was in a familiar city somewhere. I was going somewhere like shopping or to the library. I had a large brown purse and a stack of books in my arms. I decided to stop and take a break in a park and sit in the sun a few minutes. It was quite aways down some steps to where the benches were, but I went down and sat down for awhile.

While I was there several people came to talk, including my first boyfriend Roger. We got to talking about web pages and he said he wished he had one. I said, "You're on AOL, aren't you?"

He said, "No! I just use my cousins account." I said, "I'll tell you what I'll do, I'll download a copy of one of those free internet access things onto a disk and you'll be all set." Meanwhile, I was showing him a brownish book that had cutout type cartoonish characters in it and I showed him how I took the cartoons out of the book and scanned them in onto pages for other people to enjoy. He liked what I did and wanted to do some too. So, we agree I would make a download disk of free stuff for him so he could do it too. He got up to leave, and there was a doorway there like at a railroad or bus station and just before he went through the door, he turned and smiled and made a hand sign I had seen him make 40 years earlier which was like "I like you, let's meet again." type of thing. I laughed and said, "Gosh! It's been years since I've seen that." I had no clue what I was supposed to do in return so didn't do anything. He grinned and left.

I decided perhaps it was time to leave and my sons Tom and Bill showed up. I also saw my maintenance man Joe pull up to the curb in a red convertible and drop off a woman I knew pretty well. She was just coming into the park. I waved at Joe who was way up the stairs, hoping I could get a ride home. He hollered back down the stairs, "I'll give you a ride but you'll have to wait a bit. I have one more ride to give first."

By then, the woman had come down the stairs and I greeted her and told her I was just leaving. By then, I had put all my books down and had to fetch them, and that seemed to be kind of an ordeal to get them all into my arms and I didn't want to miss any, so I started stuffing them into my handbag which was quite large. I managed to squeeze them all in and I noticed that when I picked one up, I perhaps had one of those handmade brown leather wallets with the leather strands woven around the edge. I didn't take the time to look, but just stuffed it into my purse with the books.

I then walked up the stairs to wait for Joe, but as I was coming out the lobby entrance which somehow appeared like we were in a bus station, I noticed that I was only wearing one shoe, a light tan Indian moccasin. I was very distressed at that. I had no idea how my other shoe had come off. My son Tom said he had noticed a shoe between some seats down the stairs and would go back and retrieve it. He had no idea I had lost a shoe either.

We stood there kibitzing with other people for a few moments and Tom came back with a shoe, which was a shiny black man's shoe. I saw instantly that it was the wrong shoe, but thought perhaps I could just wear it anyway just so I wasn't barefoot. But when I took the shoe, it was an old black basketball type shoe and a loooong shoe lace intertwined in the holes. And it was for the right foot which I already had a shoe on.

This made me very distressed. I bemoaned my fate loudly that I didn't have any shoes to wear. Then I looked down, and on my feet were a brand new pair of high-type laced black shoes worn by women back in the early 1900's or late 1800's. I went into hysterics. "Oh my God, Oh my God! It's a miracle. Look at my shoes".... and I began dancing around showing off my shoes. "One moment they weren't there, the next moment they were." I was wiggling my toes around because the shoes were flexible like indian moccasins. I said, "I can walk a long long way in shoes like this."

Right after I said that, my ex-husband Jim came along and picked up Tom and Bill to take them home but it was out of the way to take me along,. My daughter and her children were all there too and everyone had to run to the bathroom first. The girls went one way to a bathroom which was up some stairs to the left and Jim went up some stairs to the right into a bathroom in another building. I had to go to the bathroom to pee too, but decided it would be better if I waited. I figured I could hold it until I got home and could go at home. Joe the maintenance man never came back and my ex-husband and the girls never came back from the bathroom so I had to walk home anyway. But at least I had my new shoes on.

I got home which was an old abandoned apartment building. I met a girl there who looked familiar and she came into my room and started asking me about makeup, telling me she didn't like the kind she had, so I started telling her that I liked the kind from the drug store the best and started naming off different brands I liked and went into the closet and got out several makeup cases for her to sample my makeup. There was makeup and perfume bottles all over the bed by now.

I seemed to be packing to go somewhere overnight and started packing my books and clothes into bags which were zippered and discovered too late that I was unzipping rather than zipping and got all upset and started to cry that I was doing it wrong. The girl left to go to the bathroom. Then I remembered I had to go too but didn't want to girl to have access to my purses. Now that I was at home, I had two of them, the brown one I had in the park and an even larger one, a black one, which I carry everything in. I didn't trust her alone with my purses, so had to take them to the bathroom with me.

When I got to the bathroom, the girl had just finished and I was in a hurry and she didn't flush first and left the seat all wet, so I had to clean her urine off the seat with white tissues first and by the time I did that, the top of the toilet looked like a black and white marble pedestal and there was nowhere to go potty in.

By now, we were hearing noises in the hallway below us and we both ran out of the bathroom into the stairwell to listen for the sounds. In a moment, two men came walking up the stairs, one tall part African American, part white, and another white man who was following him. The African American man asked where the owner of the building was as he was interested in buying it. I told him I had no idea who the owner was, the building had been abandoned. He didn't accept that someone would abandon such a huge building. Nobody lived in it but me, and I'm certain there are lots of other buildings in the world just like it, so I had no problem with it. It was home to me.

The white man just stood in the background like an observer and didn't say anything, but the African American man was busy opening doors and pulling drapes across doorways and I started feeling trapped there with him, so I pulled the drapes back open again and felt freer. I couldn't stand the feeling of being closed in.

So, I woke up and found myself barefoot again. :-) and still had to go to the bathroom.

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4-24-00 - DREAM - I was managing an apartment building. Two black women came to see an apartment. They were mother and daughter. I was showing them apartment 213, a one bedroom apartment. The daughter said she would really like to live in #230. I told her it was available and I would show it to her. I got the keys for the apartment and the daughter said, "Oh! I know how to do that!" She grabbed the keys from me ... each key was different. She knew which key opened the door, but the lock had been turned upsidedown on this particular door and she didn't know how to fit the key into the slot. So, I opened the door and let them in.

I hadn't been in this apartment since it had been vacated and I saw that the painter had already put his 5 gallon bucket of white paint in the kitchen, ready to paint it, but he hadn't started it yet. I walked ahead towards the bathroom and saw that the bathroom was fully furnished with numerous washcloths, towels, blankets, and bedding for the beds. The bedding was all in a deep rose color. All the washcloths were single colored but all shades of pastel, blue, pink, yellow, green, etc. The towels were all baby blue. I gathered up all the washcloths and towels to take with me as I wanted them for myself.

I walked back into the livingroom where the two black women stood. They thanked me for showing them the apartment but had decided they would take apartment 213 afterall. I knew they couldn't afford this larger two bedroom apartment.

I took them back out into the hall and they left. I went into either my own apartment or another apartment and found an infant child in a closet in a white wicker basket. It was wrapped in swaddling clothes. I began to open the swaddling clothes and then anointed the infant with oil, knowing that the people who were coming for him would be upset because they were going to have to hold him up by his heels and he would be slippery. There was so much love felt while I was doing this. I did his legs first, then his body, and then his shoulders. I saw that his eyes weren't open yet, but he was trying to open his right eye and there was like a white film over the opening and he couldn't yet get it open. I then wrapped him up and left him there for the people who were coming for him.

I went back out into the hallway and from around the T intersection at the end of the hallway ; this huge ominous feeling thing which looked like a 6 masted ship made of huge red billowing bags was coming around the corner. I knew that there was no room for anyone or anything else in this hallway, so I ducked into another apartment to wait for it to go by. I said, "I don't even want to see this." However, there were doors ajar along the hallway and I would have to see it go by.

The red masted ship or whatever it was stopped as I could see there was a lot of cleaning equipment standing in the hallway and it would have to be moved. A slim smaller sized man who was the maintenance man came along the hallway and went past where I was and hollered into another apartment ... "I hear you calling for help, but I can't tell where you are."

There was no answer that I could hear, but the maintenance man was going to have to find the person calling for help before he could finish moving that 6 masted ship down the hall.

Somewhere in that dream or perhaps in another dream, I was a teacher of small children and I was walking down a hallway with pencil cases in my hands, singing a little song I was going to teach the children. I had taught this little song to many classes of children. It began, "I had a little pencil and it wrote a little word. .... "

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5-1-00 - DREAM - dream mostly unremembered but I was in a large house with a younger woman. She and I agreed to split the house in half for use... she would get 5 rooms and I would get 5 rooms. However, I then realized there were 2 bathrooms and they were both on my side, so I would have to let her use the bathroom closer to her side since the bathrooms were the dividing line between the two halves of the house.

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6-9-00 - DREAM - I was in the hospital as an outpatient and was going to have female surgery of some kind. I was supposed to go second in line but they didn't have time so they told me to come back the following week at the same time.

I thought I had had this surgery before but I wasn't certain so I figured I'd go ahead and go into the operating room and the doctor could look and see if he had already and at least give me a pap smear while I was in there. I had a little yellow card with me with my records on. I went to the bathroom like 5 minutes before I was supposed to have the surgery and was standing at the nurses counter waiting for my turn when all surgeries were cancelled because a circus group had come into the hospital and everyone was expected to go and watch them perform. So, my surgery was cancelled again.

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7-4-00 - DREAM - My first memory in this dream was of being in a hospital, hanging upsidedown from the ceiling next to a man. They said he was freaking out because his head was over 'earth, wind, and fire'. I thought that was rather funny because there was a singing group by that name too. didn't know why we were upsidedown but I did know that I had had some female surgery and I was still bleeding rather badly. However, I knew I would be fine in a couple days, but I didn't know how the man would be with his problem.

They took me down and I spent some time sitting around while the bleeding slowed down. I needed to go to the bathroom rather frequently because I was getting blood spots on my slacks and I needed to change my protection pads often.  

When I went to the bathroom the last time though, several young men got in there ahead of me because the men only had one bathroom and they couldn't wait. I was standing there waiting my turn and I saw that the two guys were peeing inside all the electrical outlets in the room, not just in the toilet.

When I was done there, I went outside and was moving really rapidly through a snowy scene like on a sled but then was walking in the deep snow faster than anyone I ever saw. I looked around and there were a couple older women doing equal speed to me so I didn't feel so special for being fast.

I ended up in a school then, standing in line to fill out paperwork for some classes I was going to take. I don't think it was for just a single subject, but rather for a 'college' education. I had to stand in line twice because I was in the wrong place at the beginning.

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7-22-00 - DREAM - I was with my family. The kids were young college age. I was moving to another house but the kids weren't going with me. Michael and Kenneth, my sons, had to find somewhere else to live.

My Father came to visit and I told him I would give him some magazines to read while he was there. I can't remember what I gave him in particular, but it seems like they were picture magazines ... like Time or Life.

While I was getting ready to move, I discovered that there was some 'shit' smeared on the walls on the stairway. It seemed that my son Bob, who was young ... about 3 years old, did it, but I couldn't prove it. I had to clean it off the walls and went to get a big rag to scrub it off before everyone who visited could smell it.

While I was going to go get a rag to do this, a huge truck went down the stairs. It made a tremendous noise. I watched it as it went down into the basement on a huge ramp into an underground garage.

I went into the bathroom to get water and soap on the rag to scrub the stairway walls and I heard the truck coming back up. I hid in the bathroom and listened to the noise as it came closer. I was waiting for the truck to go past but it didn't ... the noise came to a steady sound right outside the bathroom door.

I stood there, hiding behind the door, and I heard someone at the door. The truck driver appeared and I apologized for hiding in the bathroom and told him what I was going to do. I took my rag and went up the stairs to scrub the walls, letting the truck driver use the bathroom in the meantime.

I went up the stairs and it was dark up there. I hollered up the stairs for someone to turn the light on, but I could see there was no bulb in the light socket. My son Kenneth said he would bring a lightbulb. While I waited for someone to get a bulb to put in the socket, I scrubbed what I could reach. It was worse than I thought.

On the stairs, I found some rectangular packages the same size as the stairs. They were sitting on the stairs so it seemed like they were stairs themselves. But they were loose and there was a big drop off down the stairs further if I didn't remove them. I decided to look inside and see what it was. I opened the first package and it was a bag of rags. They were white, old and almost moldy.

I was afraid I was going to find maggots in the bag. I said I wasn't taking those with me and intended to throw them in the trash when I got to the bottom of the steps.

I went back down to the bathroom to get more water and soap and this time I ran into Michael and Kenneth and they told me that they were going to move in with some friends of theirs who lived in the 100's housing project though their friends weren't aware they were coming there permanently. They were laughing that their friends were in trouble for spraying some kind of anti-bacterial spray on the walls there.

I told them there was a lot worse that could be sprayed and I wouldn't get excited about that at all. As I scrubbed the walls more, two female friends of mine, one white and one black were discussing a timeline of sorts of things that they did or were concerned with and it seems like it had to do with something in the sky ... eclipses or star movements or something.

I then saw a tiny cup and inside the cup was a mark put on by the manufacturer. It said 'starmark 1791'.

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7-24-00 - DREAM - This was a white web page on a computer. It was about ETs and telephones. I wasn't particularly interested in reading it.

I then had a series of dreams and visions that seemingly were on the same subject matter, but very strange .

I was in a house I've never seen before. A very tall man was there who wanted to use the public bathroom, but I was cleaning it. There were other bathrooms in this building, but he wanted to use this one because he was looking for one that had a large grate in the floor. I was busy getting rid of some slightly bloody feminine napkins down the toilet and hoping it wouldn't get stuck. They weren't mine ... I don't know whose they were.

I finally allowed him in that bathroom and went to my own room and saw some people from Milwaukee outside the window, working in the garden. I went outside to look at the garden which was green and lush. I saw 4 vine-like branches coming from 2 different trees which were soft cactus like a tree I dreamed about last week. I've never actually seen branches like this on any physical tree. They resemble some underwater plants I've seen in aquariums though. They resemble long green soft spiky vines. I had my hand on one of the vines. It was prickly, yet soft and these long vines had grown across the yard in just one night. I didn't know what I was going to do with them.

I then had some bubble stuff and started to blow bubbles for the kids outside. However, there was a cat there with long claws and each bubble I blew, he would claw it to break it. These bubbles were more like balloons in that they took a long time to blow up like balloons do and when they broke, they broke into smaller bubbles of 7 different colors ... rather like a rainbow but the colors were brighter.

The bubble stuff was all in one pipe and finally the stuff fizzled out. Nobody was rather particularly interested in it anyway but I found it interesting myself. It was rather unique.

I then started seeing visions which were also ET related. These were supposedly messages. I saw three 'band' names which I can't remember, but the songs they sang were like, "Everything comes in puzzle form", and "We don't answer question." I can't recall the third one. One of the band names I think was Hubbard ... the band names and songs faded so fast I almost couldn't remember them at all. I feel lucky I remember what I do. It seemed like the band names were short and easy to remember, but I think the messages were more important than the names.

I then saw a light blue check with the money amount as ' m.mmm ' I didn't see that it was made out to anyone and not signed either.

I then saw a bright sheet of paper like a brochure. The name Hubbard was on it twice and it seems that Hubbard was also one of the band names I had forgotten. This was one of the lines ' 78 words'.

NOTE: The first e-mail of the day was a new crop circle of magnetic fields and it turned out that Hubbard is a physicist who discovered the magnetic bands of some kind. See this: MAGNETIC FIELDS

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8-15-00 - DREAM - I was living in a house that had several kitchens side by side as well as extra sections of house that I've been in before. Kimber was in one of the small kitchens, showing a woman the design of the plate that held the 5 bladed ceiling fan to the ceiling. It was a 4 short armed cross with some fancy designs on it.

I pointed out to them as well as some others that this house had incredible symbolism built into it. I pointed at the woodwork in the corners which were like fleur de lis and other things around the room that were designed with fancy woodwork.

In the middle of the wall was a niche, almost like a fireplace except that there was a pure white lion in it laying down. I saw that the lion started to move as though he were alive ... then more and more and finally the lion stood up. Behind the lion, I then saw Bob the painter, dressed all in white. He put a leash on the lion and led him away through a room behind the niche in the wall.

I noted when I looked into a mirror that the hair on the top of my head was gone and I had male pattern baldness like my father had. I wondered if I needed to take some hormones, if that would make my hair grow back in. It didn't look bad, but I looked like my father from that direction.

I had inspected this house when I moved in three weeks ago and made a list of repairs that the house needed as well as things that needed cleaning up. The other people were just sitting around doing nothing and there was a lot to do, so I suggested that I show everyone the list and perhaps each person could choose one thing off the list and be responsible for repairing or cleaning. Some of the men in the house were carpenters and electricians and painters. No one had any objection to that so I said I would bring out the list.

I had to go to the bathroom and when I went to look of a bathroom where I thought it was, I found other kitchens. While I was looking, I was calling my daughter Jeanne. Other children were answering, but Jeanne did not. Finally, I discovered another larger white door that was almost closed and when I opened it all the way, I called my daughter and she came out of a room behind that door.

I asked Jeanne if she remembered what happened to the pinkish goldfish I had given to her to carry. She said that she had taken them out of her purse to carry and I recalled then at the same time that the plastic bag full of water and the three pink goldfish had come undone on a small children's table and died.

I then noted that there were some other women in this section of the house that were acting like lesbians and kissing each other. I knew there were more sections to this house I had been in before and I asked these women if they would like to go on a tour. I was certain they would like this house and the secret rooms it hid.

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8-23-00 - DREAM - by anonymous - I’m at home. B.and I are in bed. The bedroom is on the second floor. I’m  awake. The room is painted entirely with glossy black paint. The walls are made of brick and very uneven. I lay there and think about covering the walls with panelling. There is a chimney in the room directly opposite the bed. As I sit up in bed, the chimney crumbles, spilling bricks out onto the floor and down to the firepit below. Now there’s a large gaping hole in the wall and light from the fireplace below streams into the room. I'm not so much worried about the hole as I am about light from the fire keeping me awake at night. I then wonder if we'll be able to get downstairs or will the staircase be blocked with bricks? We get up and we start to move the bricks out of the way. (the next part is a little vague) There is a toilet in the path of the bricks. I don’t know if it’s in the bedroom or next to the chimney or where, but I’m stretching myself over the toilet backwards (facing away), with my feet on the seat. I then start to pull stuff out of the toilet (between my legs). There are two large manila envelopes in the toilet. I pull them out with my fingertips and hand them to B., who grabs them, crumples them up and throws them away. After they’re out, I see that the toilet had been used and there is toilet paper and urine in it as well. (there was a bit more to the dream, but I can’t recall what, as I woke up). I’m not sure if we had to climb down the toilet to get to the first floor or not. (8/22/00)

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4-15-05 - THE ULTIMATE MALL BATHROOM DREAM -  I was in a HUGE mall. I needed to go to the bathroom and I found a ladies room on one side. Only one person at a time could go in and my friend Kimber went in first. 

I was standing outside when a group of people I came along and they all had to go to the bathroom too.

They were so exuberant, they jostled me out of my place, then decided who was going to get to go first and it wasn't me. All these people were 7 feet or more tall so I didn't get a lot of choice as to who was going to go first as they arranged and rearranged the line of people. 

Everyone was having fun, laughing and chatting and I didn't want to make a commotion about being first in line, so I just went along with it. As long as I could hold it, there was no problem. 

However, before I got to my turn, the whole group decided to go all the way across the mall and buy snacks at the food machines. 

I had been here before, so I knew where all the ladies rooms were at this mall. This was no problems for me and went along for the fun of it. 

I reached into my pocket and found only a couple of shiny dimes, not enough to buy anything, but I knew I had some quarters in my coin purse that is attached to the outside of my wallet in my purse. 

So, while my friend Diane was showing off the Cheetos she had bought, I went fishing in my purse for the wallet with the coin purse, opened it up and fished out one quarter.

I promptly dropped the quarter on the floor, heard it clink and roll.  The came the fun of finding the quarter. 

I looked down at the floor more closely. It was made of see-thru resin that was thick and had embedded white circles in the resin, that was just slightly larger than the quarter.

The resin was also very shiny, so we all slid our feet on the floor, trying to find the quarter amongst all the embedded circles. We never did find it, but it was fun watching all those people, trying to pick up the embedded circles they thought was the quarter.  

I finally gave up and headed for the ladies room which was quite a ways down the mall past all the shops, restaurants and a theatre down a side hall, where the largest ladies room was. 

I was walking really fast and didn't have all those friends with me. I was really glad to find the ladies room. I pushed the door open as it swung both directions and found myself in a long hallway that had stalls on both sides with closed doors on them. 

As I made my way down the hallway looking for an open stall, all of a sudden, nine foot tall men started coming out of the stalls, wearing white towels around their hip area, naked from the waist up. They were all really muscular and had odd long faces.

I was almost instantly surrounded by these tall guys whom I thought looked gay by the way they were all wearing he towels. 

I just said, "Oops! I thought I was in the ladies room", and started looking for the door and started running into tall masculine looking women in dresses on my hurried way back out of this hallway. 

All I cared about was getting to the ladies room and ran out the door and again walked fast down the mall to another ladies room I knew about.  

About this time, it seemed that everyone was either carrying a green - yellow polka-dotted umbrella over their heads or wearing a voluminous green skirt with yellow polka dots.  That doesn't make sense but that's what I'm remembering.

I rant into the door of the next ladies room I came to and found myself in a very narrow hallway with no doors inside it.

I both heard and felt a buzzing sound in my head as I started walking into that hallway and almost simultaneously fond myself laying awake in bed. 

I realized I needed to clear my throat of phlegm, which I did and almost instantly went back into the dream and found myself in a section of the mall where a guy was making pizza dough and mixing in white flour ad everyone was getting coated with white flour and laughing about it.

Now, all the umbrellas and skirts were dark blue with white polka dots and I was trying to figure out how white flour on green and yellow could become blue an white and I knew it can't. The reverse could possibly work, but you don't go from green and yellow to blue and white by adding white to green and yellow. 

But I still needed to go the bathroom and headed for another ladies room I knew about further down the mall. 

When I got there, I saw women going into it, so I was sure it was a ladies room, but when I got inside, it was literally standing room only. There were no toilets , only small stalls where you had to stand over a drain in the floor. 

I had to go so bad by now, I made an attempt to rearrange my clothing to do what was required, but I couldn't do it and gave up to go find a real ladies room where I could sit down like a normal bathroom. 

I gradually woke up this time and realized I'd better get up and go to the bathroom as soon as I remembered the dream I had just had.

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