DEES DREAM JOURNAL

FEBRUARY, 1992

2-1-92 - DREAM - I was in a house and E.R. came in to put up a new drapery rod. It turned out to be a fluorescent light bulb. He took it down to rehang it and broke it. The bulb inside was intact, but the outer covering broke, exposing the silver connections. He was going to hang it up anyway, but I told him "no!" that I would get a new one of my own.

2-1-92 - DREAM - I gambled and won some money. I was going to tithe, but deity said that he wanted half of it. Then  I won something else and he wanted half of that, then I had some bread dough to share with my family and he wanted half of that too.

2-2-92 - MEDITATION - I saw a woman by my recreation room door out on the patio of my apartment building. There was a man there too. She said, "I don't want a boyfriend who drinks and she hit him and knocked him flat out.  she went over to him then. He said, "I want a big red lipstick, a drink, and a big fat cigar."  She picked up his head to cradle it on her knee and a big puddle of fresh blood was underneath it.

2-3-92 - DREAM - I was out at my family's lake cottage. My Dad had bought a big truck which was constructed with no brakes. It was pouring rain and there was already at least 6" of rain on the ground. We all got into the truck to escape, but my kids were still in the house. I was going to get them, but my mother wouldn't let me. She got out of the truck and was drenched in moments. She met my daughter leaving the house and they had an argument about her friends who were supposed to go to their own home. We were all in the truck then at the top of a hill in New Berlin, We wanted to go east, but we saw a tornado in a storm in the northeast sky. To go east, we had to go down into a deep valley. We started down the hill which was a series of descents - down - straight - down - straight- etc. It wasn't long until we were into the rain on the edge of the storm. We were relieved to discover that it wasn't as bad as we thought it was going to be and we made it safely down the hill into the valley and the tornado never touched us.

2-3-92 - MEDITATION - Economy - "It's not too soon to start making preparations now for the future, especially planning.  1994 will be the time to get serious from the money standpoint. Bartering will be very important for services exchange.  Only pure silver and pure gold will have real value. Greenbacks and other coins only have value when they are backed by gold and silver. Prices will become more and more inflated as time goes on, so the earlier you start, the better.

2-4-92 - DREAM - I was in a purchasing office. My girlfriend from highschool sent off for two silver spoons. I was recording prices of brass on cards. Then a foreign man from Pravda called and asked whether my friend had received her silver spoons yet. I looked for the girl. She and two other girls I went to school with were in a closet with a window and all three were looking up into the nighttime sky for something that was coming.

An engineer from A-C said that he didn't buy any silver spoons because he thought they were just collector items. My boss Tom made a comment about the cost of brass fittings I was writing on the card. He said, "You mean you didn't put any money in for brass?"

At the same time, I had laid down like I was in bed, and I got up quickly, thinking, "I'd better not lay down on the job."

2-5-92 - DREAM - I was in an office and was looking around at things and wanting to straighten things out. I found a collection of old greeting cards and was sorting them out by type, then went over to a couch where my brother sat looking at an old wrinkled sheet that was light blue. It had printing on it like a newspaper. I began making cuts into it along the creases and some people were laughing at me that I was cutting up the newspaper and I said that it just made it easier to read.

My brother then found a tiny card of two girls in old fashioned clothes and gave it to me. He said, "It looks like it's from 1903. I looked carefully at the lace on the edge of the card. It said, 1892.

I then looked out the window and saw two blonde girls fighting with each other in the alley next to my 16th St. house. I ran to try to stop the fight, waving a little shopping bag of some kind which I intended to bop the bad one over the head with in order to rescue the good one.

A big man got there first and separated the girls. He actually turned one upsidedown and she turned into something that looked like a bottle brush before she went "poof" and vanished.

The bad girl was still left and I chased her up the steps onto the porch of my 16th St. house, still waving my shopping bag. I caught up to her and was waving the bag in her face like slapping movements, but I wasn't touching her. She turned into a small boy and the big man came to get him and said something before he took him away, but I can't remember what he said.

2-5-92 - DREAM - I was on my way to work in an office. I thought was like A-C. I worked on the 8th floor. (A-C only had 4 floors) I went to the elevator. There was a lot of people waiting to use it, but the elevator was being used by some people moving desks and it was stuck between floors. The people were all jostling for position and I was being shoved from behind, so I announced that I was going to use the elevator at the other end of the building, so people would know there was another way up that wasn't so crowded. Nobody followed me.

I ran up a narrow flight of stairs to the 2nd floor, then up an even narrower flight of stairs to the 3rd floor. On the 3rd floor was a long bridge filled with people just sitting and watching a bunch of retarded people who were on the 2nd level.

The bridge was rather treacherous to cross because the floorboards were loose. I told somebody if they had a rope, I would 'make like Tarzan' to get across.  I finished crossing the bridge, then I had to walk down Clark St. to the school which was on Center St. (The old North Division High School) I beat the bus by a couple of blocks and I played hide and seek with the bus driver by running around a big tree and laughing. The bus continued on and I went to the school.

2-5-92 - DREAM - My boss Tom asked me to take his place temporarily, taking phone calls from customers while he took care of business elsewhere. I sat on the corner looking through invoices when a lady called to see if her car was ready yet. I couldn't find the invoice, so I told the lady that her car was still in the shop and we'd call her when it was done.

A foreign sounding woman came along and pointed to the books I was reading and said that she had always been interested in the tapes. I knew that the tapes were in purple binders, but that they were kept in the basement workshop. I told her that if she could wait a minute, I would get them for her. (In the dream, I assumed she was talking about Eckankar)  

First, I had to unplug the electrical appliances. I looked at all the plugs and they were plugged in, but the wires were disconnected and burned off which was a dangerous situation, so I took the appliances to the workshop.

I then told the woman she could go with me. I had made the trip to the basement a thousand times in the last 100 years I thought, so it was easy for me just to run down the narrow steps at a fast clip. but, the other woman had to carefully watch every step she took. The way was very narrow and dusty. The door to the shop was extremely narrow and one had to sit down and squeeze through a narrow opening to get into the shop where the tapes were kept.  It was hard for me even when I knew how, so I suggested to the woman that I take her by an easier way.

As I was leaving the narrow steps, there was a big white puff ball of fuzz hanging from the doorway. She lifted me up by the head and stuck my face into it. It was very dusty.

I went around the corner then and was back outside. I saw two men dressed like clowns One looked like Johnny Carson, but I didn't say say anything. I went around the corner and all the people had misshapen features and I knew that I had to get back to my job quickly, because I was supposed to be watching the phones. So, I had to get back as fast as I could.

After I woke up, I realized that the only purple binders I have with tapes in them are for real estate. That left me feeling confused as to what this woman really had wanted.

2-6-92 - DREAM - I had been to a garage sale and picked up some craft items, one of which was a wire shaped into a cat and had a length of crocheted lace on it and sold for 10 cents. Everybody in the neighborhood was going there and I wanted to go back again and see what I missed. I thought I could copy the projects and sell them for a small income.

There were some Mexican people who came to the house and were buying our furniture because we had too much of it. All that was left was a a set of 4 brown bentwood chairs and I didn't want to let them go, but somebody said, "let them have them, you can always buy more."  Another woman said not to bother.

I was on Center St. with this woman and she had a drawer of magazines and things on the outside of the building. I decided to go through the drawer and a couple magazines that had projects in them. The woman got upset that I was looking in the drawers and I told her what I was doing. Then at the bottom of the drawer I found a notebook where I had written a project and the edge of the pages had a whole row of colored rainbow ribbons of every imaginable color. I also found two other cardboards with colored ribbons attached to them. I and the woman talked about the project. We knew that someone else had done something similar but not exactly the same, but I was told that it would be a good idea to go ahead and do the project but on a more limited basis. There was no reason not to, that our project was as good as the other one and would sell also.

2-6-92 - DREAM - There was a woman who was on a diet and her spouse was too. He had some little lapel pins made up that had a round female face and under it, the words FATSO were emblazoned. He expected everyone who was on a diet to wear these. There was a general uproar amongst the population that just because she was on a diet, the whole world didn't have to suffer for it by wearing the FATSO pins.

2-7-92 - DREAM - I was with some people and they were trying to flush a yellow salt-type obstruction from a tube with water, but it didn't work, so they were going to have to cut it out.

As I woke up from the dream, I heard a man's voice say: "I have to go to the hospital, one of my kidney's has stopped working.

2-8-92 - DREAM - I was in the basement with my friend David. David had wanted a police type job for 30 years in St. Louis. He was turned down for that He was offered a similar job  somewhere else for 21 years. He wanted the bigger job, and wasn't happy with the lesser type job, so he turned it down and didn't work at all for 40 years.

2-8-92 - DREAM - I was in the parking lot at A-C, and one of the cars in the lot had a water circulation problem. It was T.M.s car. I went upstairs to tell T.M. His office was right by a bathroom. T.M's door was closed and his boss at on a chair right outside of T.M.s office, so I considered going into the bathroom because the door was open about an inch.

All of a sudden, T.M.'s door opened and he came out and there we stood - face-to-face, after not having seen each other for 7 years. We both looked rather shocked for a moment. I didn't even know if he'd recognize me because my hair was a different color and I felt embarrassed because I hadn't looked in a mirror to see if my hair was combed decent. T.M.'s hair was a  golden-reddish blonde and that surprised me, because I remembered him with white hair.

I didn't know what to say because I hadn't intended to see him against his wishes, but he waited for me to follow him down the hall and I did.

We went down to the 3rd floor and there stood David. That shocked me again. I thought the best thing to do was just to introduce them to each other. I was just about to do that and I  looked at the man again and it wasn't David. I couldn't believe I mis-recognized this man. He looked nothing like David. I apologized for bothering him and followed T.M. down the hall and woke up.

2-10-92 - MEDITATION - I saw myself in a mirror with streaks of blood coming down from the forehead area like it had been pierced with thorns.  (Suffering)

2-10-92 - MEDITATION - I was attempting to help someone go to an astral healing temple. I saw a woman with an unidentified man. She was wearing a bright black sweater with a bright design on the front like an American Indian type design. The man removed the sweater from the woman and put her hands behind her, seemed to be tied together or handcuffed. (He was preventing her from helping with the mysteries of the subject being checked into)

2-11-92 - DREAM - I was walking around out in New Berlin with flower pots embedded in my knees with hundreds of plant growing in them. I didn't think that was unusual until I noticed that other women weren't like that. They had smooth knees and beautiful legs.

A car went by with four young guys and they whistled at me, so I knew that my legs weren't ugly. My daughter said that she knew those guys and they had a speed boat and a red motorcycle and someday she was going to get rides from them. I told her, "You already did, don't you remember?"

Then a woman from my house gave me a gold key and told me that at a certain time, a phone call was going to come in to the house across the street and I was supposed to go across the street, open the door, answer the phone, and tell the people what was going on with their house while they were out of town.

I took the key, and headed for the door. I was barefoot and still had the flower pots embedded in my knees full of plants. The other woman started to follow me. I said, "What! Is the whole world going with me?"  They said, "No! Just us!"

I continued across the street, but didn't go into the house. I met some other people on the street. One woman said that she wanted to go next door where they were having an open house. It was a school. I went with her and saw that they were teaching, not regular education classes, but management courses, self-esteem courses, self-improvement classes. I was walking up and down the aisles, looking at the displays and hoping that nobody recognized me, because I knew all the teachers.  I had a small notebook in my hand, and on the first page was written a note..."Point Five: Winter Depression." I thought to myself, "Maybe I should take a class."

I sat on a chair with the other woman, looking at my knees and thinking that I should pull out all the plants as I would like to be like everybody else and sign up for a class. I walked around to the other aisle to pick out a class, but they had put everything away for the day and it was too late. I went and sat down on the chair next to the woman again. It was 5 o'clock p.m. and I'd have to wait another day.

Then my painter from JVII came in, hollering and protesting, "They made me come here and I didn't want to. They'd better make this worthwhile."

I woke up to find out it was exactly  5 a.m.

2-12-92 - MEDITATION - Question: "Will you help me with the powers and abilities needed to heal the energy flow and chakras of other people?"

A: "You have been specially chosen to do this. You must study it and you will be helped."

2-13-92 - DREAM - I was in bed with David and a black baby came out from behind his back. It had little tiny slits for eyes and little tiny slit mouth. Otherwise, it was flat faced. I tried to care for it. I got a spoon to feed it, but it was hard because it's mouth was so tiny. I finally got some food into it's mouth and the baby turned white and started to behave like a white child.

2-13-92  DREAM - I had the same dream as above, but I wasn't able to feed the baby. Then I was shown a list of bad things that the baby could do in his life because I had'nt fed him.

2-13-92 - DREAM - I was in a courtroom listening to some testimony about a man who was in trouble because he hadn't installed a lock on time at a church. I tried to give a point of information that some locks take two to three weeks to be delivered. They didn't want to hear what I had to say. The man who was being charged, just said, "All I have to do is change churches.

2-15-92 - DREAM - I was with my son Bill. He was driving a car south on Hwy. 100. My side of the car was wet like it had rained and it was shadowy.  His side of the car was in the sun.  I thought that if we changed direction, I could be in the sun too, so I told him to go around the block, then we could go east. He made a slight left turn before he turned right and I hollered at him and told never to do that. We were now on Grange Ave. going west and we were riding in tandem, he was on a tractor of sorts and I was on a grey wooden chair hooked on behind.

In the road was papers from someone's careless left-behind trash. I was going over pages of brown lined accounting sheets and I thought that I should consider getting some because I might need them in the future. Each succeeding set got longer.

Then we rode over a map. I grabbed it. It was of Arizona. I kept that in case there was a future use. Then, there were more maps we drove over. Those were of two other southwestern states. I took them also. then we came to a stack of brochures for some Bear Park "Care Bears" or something. I told him we should take the coloring books only. They were yellow an I took five of them.

His cart stopped running then and I saw that a wire was disconnected but he could fix it. We were at the corner of Moorland Rd. then.

We were at my New Berlin house then and I was doing typing in an office setting. I came across some silver grommets that had no purchase order, so I took them in the basement knowing that everything that is used should have a record of it. My ex-husband was in charge of the factory and I told him that if he would sign the paperwork, I would type up the purchase order for the silver grommets that were used between every piece of piping.

I saw then that he was crippled, his right arm was missing and his back was bent backwards like it had been broken. I heard someone say, "He's been like that ever since the accident, but he keeps right on going."

2 -16-92 - DREAM - Edward (my second ex-husband) came home. He didn't appear to be drinking but he acted immature, couldn't perform sexually and apologized for it. I reassured him that it wasn't important. He tried to get money from me after he spent all of his own. All in all, it was very uncomfortable and didn't make me happy.

2-16-92 - DREAM - E.R. had to get to work by 10 p.m, but he couldn't go until he went to the bank first and he was angry because his bank had sold his account to a bank in Cudahy. He told me twice  and he was angry. I had a lawn mower which needed cleaning. I had rode over books with yellow covers and 1/4 of the cover was torn off. One was S. Rushdie.

2-17-92 - DREAM - I was in New Berlin. My husband put in a new basement stairs so it was easier to get down and he repainted the walls grey with white on top. I went down in the basement and washed all the red and white clothes.

In between dreams, a voice said that it was time to go into business with the colors.

2-17-92 - DREAM - I was living on 16th St. My daughter was a teenager and she was killed in a car crash. After the funeral, I realized that the only girls I would have in my life would be the girls that my sons brought home as dates. I was also dating at the time and had been invited to visit by a couple of men from my high school. I wasn't particularly thrilled about it, when asked to visit, but I went because I didn't have anyone else and I needed to be comforted.

2-17-92 - MEDITATION - I saw a huge, colorful crowd of people, thousands of people. A voice said, "Your leader is Republican. Then I saw two men standing in front of these people at a podium.

Then I was in an underground garage. I asked who was the Democratic leader. The garage was sharply divided by a widening wall. They said the name Tony and that was all.

2-17-92 - MEDITATION - I saw a man and a woman, both dressed in pink, driving to the right in a horse drawn wagon. The man was on the right and he was driving.

2-17-92 - DREAM - I had a phone conversation with J.V. and the building ads for Manager where she lived on  32nd and Wisconsin Ave.

2-17-92 - MEDITATION - Babaji and I took T.M. to the high astral healing temple. Babaji did several things to T.M. including putting some kind of device on T.M's penis that held it up and stiffened. It was not real clear so I had a hard time seeing what was happening.

2-17-92 - MEDITATION - A whole procession of people dressed in old fashioned gowns and clothes proceed T.M. to the healing temple. The man's voice who called him said, "Come on!" sounded like southern Cajun French.

another voice said, "Elijah is God!" and I saw a person from the back, large, wide, carrying a sort of forked tree like staff in his right hand. Someone else said, "He is a genius!"  Then someone else said, "He has an implanted a device on his penis that is good for 80,000 inflations.

2-18-92 - NOTE:  I originally lived 5 blocks from Jeffrey Dahmer, the serial killer. I had had several dreams about him prior to him being discovered as the killer.  This dream occurred after he had been convicted and sent to prison for life.

As an added note: Jeffrey Dahmer was murdered in prison, beaten to death in the head by an exercise machine metal bar in 1994.

DREAM - Jeffrey Dahmer was on the loose in New York City. Someone I knew well, put a bullet through his skull on the lawn when he came around the corner. When he put the gun down, I personally picked up the gun and put a second bullet through Dahmer's skull to make sure he stayed dead.

There was a city-wide search for Dahmer and then for us because we were now killers too. We went into a store and my friend bought a big table top into which he had drilled a triangle shaped device to aim a weapon from.

Then we went to a store where we found body parts stacked everywhere and we took it upon ourselves to clean it up and also to take Dahmer's souvenirs because we thought they'd be worth a fortune in the future.

Then I went into the bathroom to clean the blood off the cabinet doors. A big picture of Satan was painted in blood. I cleaned off the blood but the white doors were still stained with the shape.

I then met my friend and he told me that he and the other guy had finished sorting out what stuff they had found in the attic and I could take my pick of what was left.  I then realized that my friend was the man S (my psychic friend) had spoken of that I would start a friendship with but it wouldn't work out.

I then saw a newspaper picture that was blood red. It was a photo of my friend and his two friends. they had been photographed on the balcony of the building throwing blood red dung at a sign that had the words, "FOR SURE" on it. Now I realized that the whole world would know who they were and they were marked men who would have to be destroyed by Satan's followers who loved Dahmer.

2-19-92 - MEDITATION - A male voice said, "The symbol is too big. It should be half that size. Go ahead with the magazine. Keep it simple. Call it Atlantis and keep them happy."

2-19-92 - DREAM - I was talking to a woman on the phone about the magazine. I asked her if she still wanted it to be 60 pages. She said that it didn't have to be quite that big all the time; and to keep it simple (not technical). It was to be about improving the earth we live on, so that we don't pollute it, growing our own foods, making this a better place to live.

2-21-92 - DREAM - I was with E.R. in his new car. He was driving me on a couple of errands. We came to a red light and stopped. The light turned green but E.R. didn't go forward. I poked him on the arm, but he didn't move. He acted like he was dead, staring straight ahead. Suddenly, he started moving again. I asked him if he was okay. He said, "yes!", but then he stopped moving again. I called his name several times, and he didn't move, just sat there like a dead man. I poked him again, and shook his arm, but he didn't move. Meanwhile, the lights were changing, red, then green, then red, then green.

He became animated again for just a second, then went still again. I was so scared of him driving in this condition. I got out of the car and went into the corner drug store to call for an ambulance. I grabbed the phone on the wall, but it wasn't only an in-store phone and connected me to a girl in a red dress in the back of the store. she came running up front and called 911 on another pay phone.  I hollered at her that if she would have just told me to use the the phone, I could have saved a lot of time.

I didn't know what street corner we were on, so I ran outside and saw that we were on 31st and RYNT St. I saw that E.R. had turned the car around and was parked at the curb, waiting for me to come back, but he was facing the opposite way along the street. I looked at the car and noted that it was a '92 Honda Accord. It was purple with yellow trim. I ran back inside to tell the girl the information so  the ambulance would be able to spot the car faster.

The girl finished the call and I ran back outside and was shocked to find that E.R. had driven away and left me behind.

Now I had to wait for the ambulance to explain what happened. The fire truck and EMTs arrived in just a minute's time and I explained to them what happened and told them that it looked like he was having a series of mini-strokes. I was really scared for him.

They had to write up a special report and send out an alert for police to watch for his car, we assumed he'd be driving home.  I was talking to the EMT woman, and I was telling her that he had driven out to Mukwanago just the week before in a heavy storm on some business and that if it had happened then, we would have gone off the road into a ditch. This conversation must have taken awhile, because it was 1 p.m. when I called on the phone and it was now getting dark outside.

The EMT's left and I headed for home, knowing I had to walk home. I promptly got lost, when I crossed across a parking lot of a funeral home across the street and ended up on Lynton-Fox St. where some huge old English type mansions sat and I looked at their gardens that had flowers blooming. I noted that it was early in the year for flowers to bloom.

I came back to the corner of 31st and Lynton-Fox St. and there were busses packed with people like sardines. These people were all going home. The busses were so big and so packed with people, I was glad to walk home.  

As I headed north, I woke up.

2-21-92 - DREAM - I was with my daughter and my mother. My daughter was having kids so fast, I didn't know how she could take care of them all. One was older, about 3 years old, but the other two were infants, one was 18 months old and on was 21 months old. I knew she needed help. I took one of the babies to help out, then I found out that the 21 months old baby had died. By that time I was carrying the 18 month old baby and went over to where my mother was and they were just dressing her because she was going to be crowned "QUEEN". She had a voluminous pale blue gown and they put a huge blue and Ecru lace paneled veil over her head, so I could no longer see her face. It was gorgeous.

(I don't remember how the dream ended.)

2-23-92 - DREAM - I was in a house and the mailman delivered a stack of magazines to another tenant titled Great Lakes News and it was cut out on top like the edge of the state of Wisconsin. He gave them to me by mistake, then realized they belonged to the girl upstairs. then I realized that I had to get them too.

2-23-92 - DREAM - I was at home, yet at work. There was a cement stairway with very narrow treads, that was overlayed with thin tiles for walking on. The thin tiles were so compressed together that walking on was almost impossible for anyone except me. So, I decided to mak it a project to straighten out the thin tiles so they were even and more accessible especially Becky who needed to go upstairs.

When I went downstairs, I went to have breakfast and I saw that the milk was bright blue and I didn't think it was fresh to drink. I dumped it down the sink, but no matter how many times I rinsed the bottle with water, the contents were bright blue. I wanted to get fresh white milk for my children, but I had no money to do so. I asked their father to get some fresh milk, but he became so angry that I didn't want to do it myself. I convinced him of the truth of the matter. He left to get the milk and I turned around to see that I had one last batch of dishes to wash and these were the dirtiest, greasiest ones. I was determined that they would all be perfect.

I then went to the bedrooms to make sure that the bedrooms were clean and the beds made with their red and blue quilts.

I saw that many puzzle pieces were on the floor and I hollered at the children that they had better get picked up and put in the proper boxes.

I bought my daughter a toy that had a little red dressed dolls that went around and around on swings. She wanted to take it outside to play. I said, "No!" My mother stuck up for her that she would take good care of it. I knew that it would get dirty, it was meant to be played with indoors. I said, "I would rather give her $10.00 to run around with it and keep the dolls for myself so I know they stay clean, knowing that they were more valuable than that. My mother said, "okay" and we made the exchange and I took the toy back.

I then went to the office area where work was being done on projects. Someone else had cleaned up some big red pans to work in, but they still had some grease and sand on, so I took it upon myself to wash them to perfection, using hot water on the grease and cold water on the sand so as not to waste the hot water where it wasn't needed. My boss said that there was still some grease on the old silver pans, but I told him not to worry about the old ones.

My boss came and asked me if I would be able to midnight requisition some long sleeved sweaters and stools to sit on  so we could work on a project and I would also need to get 12 silver, square pans. I would need 4 pink, 4 light beige, 4 silver and black sweaters and stools. The one thing I had to be careful of was that no ones name could be on the stools so if someone came looking for them, they could not be identified. I agreed. Another man, who I think was my bosses boss or one of his peers asked him if I had agreed to provide this equipment and he said that I had. They were both relieved to know that.

I then went into another department to look things over. I had friends everywhere, but the problem was that I was being watched. My ploy was that I carried a crumpled piece of white paper with me to throw in a waste basket so it wouldn't look I was there for no purpose and just wasting time talking to my friends instead of working. but when I got to the point where I needed to throw away the piece of white paper to save my cover, T.M. picked up the trash container to throw away the trash. I tried to signal him what I needed to do, but the was already holding the trash container and I knew I would have to tell him of my ploy so we wouldn't be working at cross purposes or he would spoil the ploy and prevent me from completing my part of the project.

2-24-92 - DREAM - I was given these numbers on a thin malleable piece of plastic. The numbers were 18, 30, 32, and 54.

NOTE:  These numbers are Gematrian, which I did not hear of until 1997.

Two  times 54 = 108 which in myths and religions means in India with the 108 names of the Gods.  18 times 32 = 576 which means "Prophecy and Gospel" in Gematrian numbers. 18 times 30 = 540 a base 10 harmonic of 5400 which indicates the location of the Sphinx in the work of Carl Munck.   32 is associated with the Sephirotic Tree of Life, 10 circles + 22 paths = 32.  The Masons also use this number as their highest degree.  In the Book of Knowledge - Keys of Enoch , J.J. Hurtak states that 32 is the number of chemical building blocks in the human body associated with Lak Boymer, (the 33rd degree) and The Pillar of Light. The Lak Boymer exemplifies the initiation with the twenty-two letters of the Divine signature in the mathematical construction of Exodus 33:22. (Key 206: 52)  The 32 is the stage prior to the transformation; Jesus manifested the Christ in his 33rd year.  (Key  206: 54)

2-24-92 - DREAM - I was in my 66th St. house with my mother and father and brother. T.M. came to visit. We were watching television and it became very late. I thought T.M. would be going home when I said that I was tired and it was time to go to bed. But my mother and father gave T.M. the Master bedroom, by brother had his own room with a grand piano in it, my father went to bed in a room across the hall, and my mother took the couch. The only place left for me to sleep was in the bed with T.M.  There was enough room for two to sleep without touching.  I had a pink quilt and I went into T.M.'s room and put the quilt across T.M.s feet so he would be warm. He was grateful for the warmth and urged me to get into the bed beside him, but I couldn't do that until I went to the bathroom to wash up first. As soon as I got to the bathroom, my father came and insisted that he had to go in first and then another man who looked like a bum said that he had to go before me also. All I could do, was to stand aside and wait my turn because I couldn't go to bed with T.M. until I was perfectly clean and he was waiting for me.

2-24-92 - DREAM - I was with my friend Alyse and some other people in the country. I had driven there in a truck pulling a small house trailer. We were stuck in the mud next to a road. Snow was between me and the road, so I wouldn't have to walk through the mud. Then I saw two pages of people's names. They were lists of people who would be chosen from to kill one of the people in the center list.

NAME ALIGNMENT

2-24-92 - MEDITATION - This question was asked of Jesus Christ at Sugmad Lok level.

Q. How does one know when a prophecy is correct?

A. "One must be very careful about prophecy. One way to know accuracy is whether or not the prophecies come true. Prophecy is an earned right. One should always feel comfortable with a prophecy. If not, check again. Do not be afraid to verify a prophecy."

Q. Is sex allowed in a spiritual life?

A. "Yes!, if it is in a monogamous relationship. It is very beautiful and a gift to mankind to feel pleasure and be happy with his mate."

2-25-92 -  DREAM - This was a warning not to wear the color gray clothing to a wedding shower.

2-25-92 - DREAM - I wanted to buy anew dress for  the wedding and that I would wear my high heeled shoes to do it.

2-25-92 - DREAM - I was in New Berlin, looking at the baby clothes that were just purchased. I was looking to see whether they were boys or girls clothes. At first I couldn't tell. Then I saw a picture of a little girl, some more clothes, then a picture of a little boy growing up. As soon as the pictures came to the age of 7 or 8, I saw him in a military uniform. (It was brown. He was in military school)

The little girl got a gold pin stuck in her finger. There didn't seem to be any way to remove it without clipping it and taking her to the doctor. Another woman advised me to let her keep it in, because in days to come, people were going to have gold pins hanging from their ears and their noses and she would be right in style with one embedded in her finger. Time passed and sure enough, you could see the gold pin embedded in her finger.

2-25-92 - DREAM - I was in a church in New Berlin with my sons Tom and Ken. We were sitting in the back row during the service. We closed our eyes to say "Amen" for the final prayer and when I opened my eyes, there were no people in the church and there was nothing up front to show that it was a church, no cross, no altar, no  candles. Nothing.

NOTE:  In Revelations 21:22, (speaking of the New Jerusalem) And I saw no temple therein. For the Lord God almighty and the Lamb are the temple thereof.

The last two verses of the bible are Revelations 22:20 - He which testifieth these things saith, Surely I come quickly. Amen. Even so, come Lord Jesus. 21: The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you all. Amen!

2-25-92 - DREAM - I decided to drive my car east. T.M. was in the car with me. The farther I drove, the more difficult it became. It seemed that I was getting farther and farther away from the front windshield and I said, "I should be driving this vehicle like a bus."  I looked around and it was now a bus and there were many people on the bus. The road was very narrow. We came to a Y in the road and I took the right way.

NOTE: This dream was prophetic for my personal life.  T.M. became my spiritual teacher in 1981. At first we were inseparable, then circumstances pulled us farther and farther apart. Eventually, I began teaching people  by myself on the Internet (the bus)

2-26-92 - DREAM - I was asked by someone to help treat a disease that many, many people had; infants and small children as well as adults. Treatment could only be handled by people who were survivors of the disease of which I was one. The disease was recognizable by the many thousand black and white squares that the people were made of. Treatment had to be done gradually one white square and one black square at a time, per month, or backsliding would occur and treatment would have to start all over again. Treatment was done by feeding the person special white milk and had to be done very carefully and took a long time.

I would have to say that I was a little reluctant to take on such a big project, because I had so many other projects to work on at the same time, but as they told me, only people who had been successfully treated and survived the disease were qualified to treat others.

At the end of the dream, I was on the street with my telephone. T.M. wanted to speak to the man who was in charge of the treatment and the supplies. He worked out of an old warehouse with only two men who were still under treatment. I wasn't sure if the man was in this office and was walking down the street towards the warehouse when T.M. somehow got through the phone line into the man's office. The man's name was Mr. Pringle.

NOTE:  An Internet search showed several doctors of Pathology and other health research programs with the name of Pringle.  However, I believe this disease to be of some spiritual illness (the black and white squares that showed in people with the disease)

2-26-92 - DREAM - I was in California. Elizabeth Taylor said, "Look at the waves on the river." I looked in amazement to see that there were several waves on the river that was higher than the houses, pushing many cars ahead of them. I couldn't figure out why either waves or cars would be on a river.

I went into a house and turned on the television.  What I saw on television was just a big jumble, so I turned it off again.

I decided to do some sewing with blue thread. Then I saw some women dressed in blue flowered dresses. The only people they would help were just like themselves.

NOTE:  There was a flood like this in Texas in 1992, however in 1997, all of the California rivers were higher than the houses because there were two warm rains in January that melted the mountain snow way before it would be normal for it to do so.

2-27-92 - DREAM - I was with my daughter. I knew I was 4 months pregnant, but because I was on a diet, my stomach was flat. To reassure myself, I pressed in on my stomach and felt a big round lump nearer to my belly button as well as my uterus. My daughter then wanted to know how she would be able to tell when she was all grown up physically and I explained the details to her. Then I found out that she had a boyfriend waiting around the corner who could hardly wait for her to be al grown up.

I was in an office then in room 94 on the 9th floor. I needed to mail a package to a company with films or pictures in it. I called for the pickup and saw the truck pull up outside. I was still taping the envelope shut and I saw that the truck was gone already and he hadn't rung the buzzer. I called the office back and found out that he rung "O" for office and no one responded and he didn't know where I was so he left. Since I was the manager, there was no one to ask to find out. So, I had to ask him to come back again.

I then went to visit someone with a small child. The child was in a higher chair and almost knocked over a tall glass of red KoolAid. The mother said, "that happens all the time." I said, "One of these days you'll learn to use little amounts in little sipper cups and she'll never spill again."  She looked at me in amazement because she hadn't thought of that.

I then went into the other room and saw that all her daughter's toys were packed away. My kids were with me and in no time, all the toys were out and there was hardly room to walk. I looked into the cabinet and saw that she had 2 toasters, 2 big sewing boxes, glass containers as well as other things and I was trying to figure out how she had packed all that stuff in there in the first place. I knew that some toys would have to be discarded.

I then saw 2 teenagers peeling potatoes and onions for a meal. Someone delivered more of each in bags. One boy was glad, the other said he didn't need anymore, even though they had equal amounts. I had a plan to put the new ones on the bottom so they could use the top ones first and not have spoilage. I also saw in the cabinet that other vegetables needed culling before they spoiled the whole crop being put in.

2-26-92 - MEDITATION - (regarding the stools and sweaters)

A. The dream was esoteric in nature and does not affect the physical. You will be given more details in time.

Q. Am I doing what I'm supposed to be doing in the physical?

A. You are doing as well as can be expected with the time constraints and limitations that you have. This will change shortly and you will have more freedom.

Q. Will I still have a job?

A. Yes, but it will be of a different nature.

2-28-92 - DREAM - I was in a big house I owned. I was under investigation by both the police detectives and some bad guys. (I didn't know who) But all these people were trying to find a book I had, but they were sure I had. I had actually hidden it well, behind a lot of other stuff way back under a stairway. I wanted to get the book out, but I couldn't let anybody know where it was. The house was full of people, all looking for the book and some gang members tried to gain entry to the house. They wanted to kill me to prevent the publishing of the book, not knowing it was already done. I pointed out the gang members to the police and they got rid of them, but there were still subversives in the house so anxious to get this book, they would do anything to get it.

I went into another room and the dining table was all set for a banquet in honor of me for writing this book. Everyone looked so somber, I said, "What is this? A wake?"  Everybody kind of settled down a little and I saw a young woman come in whose name was "Phoebe Snow". She was an obscure author and she had agreed to write my life story just to get her name in print. Nobody knew who she was yet. (Actually Phoebe Snow is a well known black singer.) ( A white young female in the dream)

I was going to introduce her to the other people at the dinner, but I saw that some people were still looking for the hidden book.  I still wanted desperately to retrieve the book that was hidden under the stairs , but too many people were hanging around watching me.

I went into a smaller room near the stairs with a man, dressed in a long sleeved green shirt. He was a psychic like me. He believed in me and my story. We stood in front of a mirror in which we were going to conjure up some spirits. He held my right hand with his left hand and we started swinging our arms wildly and breathing hard and bouncing up and down to bring up the spirits. The spirits started to become visible in the mirror when a young, black-haired woman came walking in the back door.

I started hitting her in the face with a fly swatter. I was angry at her for spoiling our psychic conjuring. I saw that she carried two fly swatters, but I got her first.

I left then to go to a movie to get away from everyone. I walked up 16th St. to Center St. and to Teutonia Ave. to the Milwaukee Theatre. I sat towards the back.  The movie hadn't started yet and I was getting hungry. There were a lot of young black kids there and someone threw something at me. I had a big white pillow with me and somehow I suddenly had a book in a gray paper bag in my hand. It puzzled me how I got it. I got up and went into the lobby. There were still people in the lobby and they rushed in to take my seat.

I went to the ladies room. It was filthy and everybody was aghast at it's bad condition. We found one open toilet that was clean, but it had no seat. I waited until another girl took her turn first, laughing and telling her that if she didn't die, I wouldn't either. But when my turn came, I couldn't go. I was anxious to see what the book what the book was that I had in the bag.

2-29-92 - DREAM - I was in New Berlin in a house with a man and we wanted to make love, but there were too many other things that had to be taken care of first. We were expecting people to arrive shortly that we would have to do things for.

We were going to have a rummage sale for someone else and the phone rang to ask about the birds in the bird cage. I saw the bird cage hanging by the window, but I didn't know anything about any birds, so I went over to the cage and saw a red and blue parakeet huddled in a corner, too cold to come up and sing. So, we put tow protective towels around the back of the cage, a pink one from the left and a yellow one from the right, overlapping th pink one. Immediately the bird came up to sing.

I went into an office where many packets of blueprint drawings were laying folded up with rubber bands around them. None of these women had been paid for their work and couldn't be until there was a matching drawing attached, so there were two. All the matching drawings were hanging on a washline out in the yard, drying. The girl in charge of them hadn't brought them in yet. AS I watched her, she took the drawing off th line, piled them up and folded them all together, across once and across once the other way, so they were quartered. I went to pick them  up and distribute them so the women could be paid.

As I laid the packets of drawings down, I put my own down first, and then F. K. came up to me on my right (deceased Jan. 13, 1992) (from Pump Dept. at A-C) He put all his I.D.s in a pile next to mine. They were loose, so I put a rubber band around them to hold them securely. (We said something to each other, but I can't remember what, something about  being done.)

A girlfriend asked me then if I wanted to to ice-skating with her. I said I did, but tI knew it was spring and I wouldn't go out on the big dark pond. I looked out in the front yard and all the previously dammed spice was melting off, so there was no place to skate.

I looked out the front window and Nathan (my grandson) crossing the street all alone. It was pouring rain and he was wearing a "too big" white T shirt, and nobody was watching him.  A commented about it to someone, but they said, "He'll be all right".

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